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Lasey P.O.V
“So how was school?”Sam asks over the phone
“Boring really boring and University?”I ask wondering what it would be like being there with her
“Aww you know Classes suck but bank practise was pretty cool .I think we may have a few very good song our sound is really developing .”She says
Smiling while she raves on about her band I wonder to myself if we are really just friends ,considering we have called each other every night since we got back from Cali.
“Look at me drowning your eardrums with my boring stuff .Have you asked her yet?”She asks and I feel a cold chill run through me.
Zoey.
Every since that day I have been getting the feeling something is really wrong .She doesn’t text or call but whenever I see her she makes me feel like the only person in the world .Wow.Have to stop watching romantic movies .
“You’re not boring I like hearing about your band .No I haven’t asked her about that conversation .Its none of my business anyway .”I say trying to convince myself and trying to convince Sam that I don’t care .
I don’t care if what I heard meant she and Jennifer slept together..do I?I don’t know maybe just because of the whole cuddling thing it would be strange of her to go and sleep with another girl and text me that same night .
“You do realize that I am a University student right?”She says
“Mmm and what does that mean?”
“I am kind of really smart and I know when you are lying.”She says sweetly
“Yeah yeah so I have heard so do you still want to go tomorrow?”I ask smiling
“Ofcourse!I have already written this down in my diary with small little hea..nevermind.”She says fake coughing
Cute!!!
“I’d love to read that diary..”I say in a whisper hearing her giggle like a little girl yelling no no no..
She is Zoey’s opposite .In a good way .
“How the hell did you and Zoey become friends.”I wonder aloud
“I was a senior and Zoey a Sophomore .We both did sport and I heard her singing once in the showers and asked her to join the band .She was pretty good probably a lot better than our lead now .”She says
“He can’t be that bad.”
“Oh but I am that bad .”She says sounding embarrassed
Wow both of them are totally musical . Zoey can sing , play guitar ,piano and bass ..who knew .Sam plays guitar and drum .Did know I had a thing for a girl who knows how to play an instrument until now .Only question was for which girl did I have a thing for .
“Hey Lase I have to go we have night soccer on and my friends are calling me ill see you tomorrow okay?”She says as I hear guys in the background yelling for her to hurry up
“Aww okay I can’t wait to see you again .Enjoy it .”I say smack my phone against my head wishing I didn’t sound clingy
“I will Ill text you when I go to sleep .”She says hanging up the phone .
We are just friends right?Then why would she need to text me to tell me when she is going to bed and why did I tell her I can’t wait to see her .I suppose friends miss each other .Yes that’s what it is .
Looking at my phone I see I have two text messages .
Text Message
Lase goodnite hope you had a good day .
Text Message
So I was thinking maybe we could do something tomorrow?
Staring blankly at my phone a sudden guilt washes over me .Am I doing something wrong going to a concert with Sam ?But she introduced us so we could hang out and get to know each other .She is probably asking me out of shame or maybe even pity .She isn’t the one I am suppose to end up with because even if we weren’t going to date you don’t just go sleep with somebody else after making another girl feel like you had feelings for her .Which was clearly a wrong idea to have .
Zoey Davids is not the girl I am suppose to be with .
Text Message
Hey sorry I have plans with Sam .:)
I click send wandering what she is thinking now .Surprised yes .
Text Message
I am happy for you.
Is all she says
Zoey P.O.V
A date with Sam?
But she was into me or so I thought .
I should call Sam ..
And say?
Find out if its true .
Beep Beep
“Hellllo?”I hear her voice sounding out of breath
“Hey Sammy its me Zoe .”I say trying to hide my hurt
“Oh hey Zoe what you up to?”She says sounding cheerful
Of course she would be cheerful .She is the one going on a date with Lasey .
“Nothing much just about to make some food .So I heard you are coming here this weekend?”I ask sounding at casual as I can
“Yeah Yeah I asked Lasey to go to a concert with me .Nothing serious though .Friends you know .”She says honestly
“That’s great …”I say trying to find something else to say but nothing .
I am the idiot that introduced the two nicest people to each other .Not to mention all that emotional stuff they probably talk about .All about feelings .
“Zoe you still there?”She asks
“Yeah sorry about that .”
“You okay?”She asks sounding concerned
“Yeah just fine I should probably go .”
“Zoe did you just call me to find out if I was going on a date with Lasey?”
Shit if I tell her that that is the reason she will tell Lasey and Lasey would think I was jealous .Which I am I guess or it wouldn’t have bothered me
“No …Oh yeah I wanted to ask you if you could come buy and bring me those cds I left at your house last time.”
“Oh yeah sure me and Lase will drive past their and I can drop that off .Sorry Zoe I have to go bust with night soccer see tomorrow.”She says hanging up.
“God.”I say burying my head in my hands.
“Sweety ?”I hear my dad say at my door
“Yeah?”
“Sorry to bother you honey I was just about to go to the hospital do you want to come with me?”He asks his eyes red from crying.
She has just gotten worse .I have to fight myself from being a bitch to everyone .I don’t want the stress relief from Jen either .It didn’t feel right .Somehow I can’t even have sex anymore .I did know why though but that is a scary thought .
I wish she knew what I am going through .But do I want her to see me this weak.
“I can’t dad not tonight .”I say closing my door falling on my bed .
…
“Good morning school and good luck for the day . Rumors are they will be taking away the tots and pudding cups .May the force be with us all!”I hear Lasey say smiling I walk towards the booth waiting for her to come out.
“Sir I have those paper you asked for in my locker I will bring them lunchtime”She say to out headmaster as they walk out of the booth
“Very good lasey.”He says walking away
I quickly grab her from behind watching her get a fright and look behind her and smile at me .I hug her and give her a kiss on her cheek making her go red instantly.
“Zoey don’t.”She says giggling pushing me away
“Aw you like it.”I tease as she rolls her eyes turning around to walk away
“Hey were you going.”I say following her
“To my locker I need to get my books.”She smiles
“So..you excited for the big date?”I ask trying my best to play it cool
Looking over at me with a frown she takes her books out of the locker
“Why did you disappear on me Saterday .I woke up and you weren’t there You said you would tell me why but you haven’t.”She asks seriously
Oh yeah my mom got worse and I had to be with her but I wanted to be with you holding you I know that sounds weird but I think you are my personal teddy bear just a lot better to hold .
Yeah right
“Did you wake up on the wrong side of the bed Lase?”I ask not knowing what to say to her except to lie
“Zoey just answer my question please .”
“Look I had to leave and I didn’t want to I told Sam to tell you that you could come home if you wanted to I don’t see the problem.”I say flatly leaning against my locker seeing her face grow angry
“To Jennifer right.”She says slamming her locker running away .
“Lasey!?”I yell watching her run around the corner .
What the hell was that all about .And how did she even know I was with Jen ?
Feeling stunned I walk to Maths slowly trying to figure out what to do about the situation .She caught me .In my lies .She thinks I am pretending to like her .Well she should just be with Sam I and definitely not the freaking saint that Sam is and I haven’t pretended to be .She knew what I was and how I was .
Walking into class with my head down I glance at our desks seeing Lasey with her glasses on writing notes not paying any attention to me .Eyes red .
She cried..
Over me?
“Nice of you to join us Miss Davids .”Our teacher spits pointing to my desk
“Yeah yeah.”I mumble flopping down on my chair .
Looking over at Lasey again I watch eyes focused on the board .Trying to get her to look at me .She wouldn’t .
Sitting there next to her watching her fingers tremble I feel dark maybe even evil .Before she knew me she couldn’t care less about what other people thought of her and now she was crying over me .The one she probably has every reason to hate .The one that teased her the most .
Taking out a piece of paper I write on it and put it on her lap watching her literally cringe at my touch .
Doesn’t hurt…Doesn’t hurt…I keep telling myself .
Eventually she takes the paper opens it and reads
“Let me explain.”On the little piece of paper.
She doesn’t write anything back just puts it in her bag
That is the way the rest of the day went .Me asking her to explain and her pretending I didn’t exist .Till I got fed up of chasing her all around the school and went on doing my own thing watching her take her lunch and sit with her friends .Smiling and laughing like I didn’t exist.
Walking out of the school I see Sam’s car and Sam standing by it waving at me .I wave back but get in my car not in the mood for her superiority .
As I drive away I see Lasey walking to Sam and hug her but her eyes find mine and that’s were they stay .
Lasey P.O.V
“I can’t believe you are here you are such a sight for sore eyes.”I beam hugging her again as finally see the car disappearing .
“Well I wanted to surprise you besides it’s not that far .”She says grinning that beautiful grin that Sam grin
She did look extremely look and yes I did feel like a million bucks watching Jennifer and Alice gawk at my sexy University friend .
“So I was thinking we could quickly stop by my grandma’s house so that I can get clothes and then go to the aquarium?”She suggests
“That sounds great and after we can go keep our seats warm at the stadium …right”I say feeling like a little kid going to the cinema for the first time.
“Yes anything you want I am your genie and you may have three wishes.”She says picking me up opening the car door and putting me in the car.Wow.
“Oh and we have to stop by Zoey’s place she wants me to drop off her cds .”
“I still don’t get why you guys are friends I mean you’re so good and she is juts trouble.”I say watching her face turn to confusion
“Aren’t you guys like best friends?”She asks suspiciously
“Yes well lets just say knowing what she still does with girls I find myself judging her character .I feel better about myself and better about the world when I am around you..”I say looking at me seeing her smile turning to face me and winking .
“I could say the same .”She says driving into a driveway.
A small blue house with a red door in front of us as an old lady walks out waving to us and Sam runs to the house hugging her grandma and I feel that tingly feeling again .
She has feelings .
“Nanna this is Lasey she is my new friend .”Sam says
“Ohh she is beautiful honey just like you said .Hello my dear.”Her grandma says hugging and Sam blushes rocking on one foot to the other .
“Hello ..”I say feeling my cheeks heat up Sam drags me through the house into her room and I quickly become very uncomfortable and feel uneasy .Alone in a small room .A room full of photos of lingerie models and a collage against the wall of her and Zoey with all different girls .Feeling my breath hitch I turn to walk out .
“Were you going?”She asks looking at me strangely
“Umm I…What are all of this..”I ask feeling ridiculous .Feeling like a prune .
“Oh yeah Zoey..”She says laughing shaking her head
“Zoey?”I ask
“Yeah she did this for my 18th birthday to surprise me and that thing is me being her wingman .Freaking killer with the ladies that one .”She says shaking her head again .
“I promise you girls fall for someone like you over someone like her.”I say taking down one photo of her and Zoey .Zoey was really young in this photo like sixteen and there is a black haired girl maybe 20 all over her Sam in the corner sticking her tongue out to Zoey
“You guys were close?”I ask
“Yeah I suppose she never really liked being at home I guess.”She says
“Wonder why..”I say
“Don’t know so I’m going to change quickly and I’ll see you now make yourself at home.”She says walking into her bathroom .
So this is were Zoey spent most of her time .All of these pictures .Her sex obsession ,Oh yeah I forgot she said she is trying to give that up since she met me .Another lie .Hence Jennifer.
“Hey where are you Lase?”Sam asks interrupting me from my thoughts
“Nowhere right here.”I say smiling leading her out of the house
We spent the day at the aquarium watching dolphins and petting penguins laughing and joking around with each other .My drama just being silly .That whole afternoon I didn’t think about Zoey once .Think about her with Jennifer .Not once .It was Sam who tickled me and carried me around on her back it was Sam who “taught “ me how to dance with a penguin and it was Sam who caught me even before I fell of the stairs .So no I haven’t thought about Zoey once not until now .Until we were sitting infront of her house .Until we were climbing out of the car walking to her door .
“You don’t look so good Lase ?We will be quick I just need to give her these cds.”Sam says smiling sweetly at me .
Oh if you only knew.
“I think my tummy is upset from the cotton candy and hotdogs .”I say
“Hello sir is Zoey here?”Sam asks hugging her father.
He looks so young .In someway old .Tired .
“Oh no Sammy , Zoey is at the hospital .”He says as his eyes fill with tears
Zoey is in the hospital??What the hell
“Why !?What happened to Zoey??!”I yell grabbing onto the wall feeling my head spin
“No no hun sorry um Sam?”
“Oh this is Lasey sir is Sam in the hospital?”She asks
“No not her .Her mom is.”He says and Sam hugs him
“Whats going on sir?”Sam asks
“Alzheimers .She is dying Sammy .”He says leaving Sam stone faced.
Zoeys mom is dying?What the hell…by the look of it Sam didn’t even know.
“Sir we didn’t know ..”I say putting Zoeys Cds on the table .
Sam and Zoeys father walks to the living room but I couldn’t .Couldn’t make small talk .Walking through the house I remember Zoey in my room telling me that it was better to have a mom die before I got to know her then to see her die.She was talking about herself .Opening her door I feel tears flow down my cheeks .Her room neat white and black .Red painting against the walls .Qoutes against the walls .Beautiful emotional even .I sit on her bed reading one of her quotes
“Waking up from this nightmare,
How’s your life ,whats it like there?’
Is it all what you want it to be ?’
Does it hurt when you think about me,
And how broken my heart is..”
Next to it seemed like a new one ..
“You don’t understand me’
Or even like me’
Just trust that all of the bullshit
comes from the girl hiding away
Afraid to feel in this world that tear
away the weak ones.”
Gliding my fingers over the message I close my eyes and think about her .Dark and rude .Careless to other people .I get it now I think ,the world dealt her a crappy hand and she feels numb to anything and all things emotional .She screwed up showing me she cared in California and then slept with Jennifer .It doesn’t make it okay .I just get it .
“Here you are ,so I told her father we are going to fetch her at the hospital so he can rest and take her out tonight .You fine with that Lase?”She asks walking closer to me
“Yes I think that’s really sweet of you.”I say
I feel her hand touch my cheek and she stares in my eyes
“You know I love her I just wish she would have told somebody.”She says lying her head on mine
Putting my arms around her I hug her tightly letting her know I am here for her .
“Thank you .”She says wiping her eyes leaning down and kissing my cheek lightly.
“Mm that felt good.”I say smelting in her arms as she puts her arm around me saying our goodbyes and driving to the hospital.
I don’t know if it was me but neither of us said anything we just stayed quite deep in thought .Me thinking about comforting Zoey letting her know how sorry I am and to just hope she feels a little better .
“She’s going to be okay Lase .”Sam says putting her hand on my leg squeezing it
“I know I am just worried but with you here I feel much better .”I say staring out of the window at the hospital
…
“We are looking for Davids?”Sam asks the front desk
“That’s ICU room number 2.”She says and we walk slowly letting it all sink in .A few hours ago I wanted to strangle her and now I need to know if she is okay .
There she was in the waiting room with her head in her hand asleep .Walking over to her I feel myself get emotional and try to keep myself together for Zoey .
“Do you want me to leave you guys for a little while .I kind of want to go in and check on her mom.”Sam says whispering to me
“No that’s fine.”I say glad to have the time alone with Zoey
Sitting next to her I put my hand on her back making her head jump up and look me straight in the eyes .Shock spreads across her face as she realizes her secret is out.
“You shouldn’t be here Lasey.”She spits moving away from me
“Why not?”I ask hurt
“Why are you here?To laugh at me?”She says in a grim tone looking at me with hate
“What are you talking about Zoey I am here because I care about you..I want to help.”I say scooting closer to her
“Help?Are you going to let my mom live Lasey?”She asks
“Zoey..”
“No.She is going to die .I think you and your girlfriend should go . “She says turning away from me
I walk to her and fold my arms around her waist digging my head into her back
“Please Zoey don’t shut me out of this .”I say not caring how I sounded
“Please Zoey ..”I say starting to cry and hug her tighter
She turns around her eyes filled with tears both her hands on my cheeks looking into my soul with her eyes..
“Hey Zoe..”Sam says from behind making us both let go of each other.
“Oh fck sorry I keep crying .”Zoe says laughing wiping her tears away hugging Sam
“Are you okay?”Sam asks patting her back
“Yeah its just hard but you know my mom .Also a fighter .”Zoe says her voice completely normal again
And then for a second I wished I could be alone with Zoey just so that she could talk everything out .Just let me into that big Zoey bubble of hers .
Walking away I sit on the chair a thousand thoughts running through my head.
“You guys want some coffee?”Sam asks
We both nod and she quickly is off to get us coffee
“Why didn’t you tell me .I really thought we were close.”I ask staring at the floor
“It’s hard .Feeling vulnerable .You make me feel vulnerable Lase. ”She says looking over at me
“ I could’ve helped .I could’ve been there for you .”
“I’m sorry I was a bitch now.”She says looking over at me
“Why is it that we bring the worst and the best out in each other ?”I ask her
“I did sleep with her .With Jen but it was only because I felt alone.My family is falling apart around me and you weren’t here .It was just to forget .”She says shaking her head
“The way I see it you are my best friend right?”
“Yes.”
“And what you do with girls is your business.I’m sorry I freaked out .I just care about you and knowing you had a one night stand again let me think you were still the same as before.”
“I’m not Lase .I told you .”
“I get that but there is a reason everything is so hard for us .Because we are just suppose to be friends and I think I’m going to give Sam a chance..”I say walking over to Zoey sitting on my knees in front of her gliding my fingers over her hair as she closes her eyes at my touch and I kiss her forehead softly standing up
She opens her eyes shaking her head
“If that’s what makes you happy Lasey I’m behind you and I will support you guys .”She says standing up
“I think it is .”I say as we both walk to the cafeteria to Sam .
“Hey here you guys are so I was think we could all go back to my place get a movie and pass out or something .”
“Actually can you just drop me at home please .”Zoey says walking out of the hospital
Sam looks at me as if asking me if Zoey is alright but I just shake my head and we walk out of the hospital as well .
“Is she going to be alright?”Sam asks putting her jacket over me
Smiling I just nod knowing that I was going to stand by Zoey .She needed a friend now more than ever and she can do with girls whatever she wants .
“So..do you still want to come over?”She asks me nervously
“I thought you’d never ask.”I joke nudging her
2 Months later
Zoey P.O.V
“So we going to Lake Tahoe this weekend right?”I ask Lasey while laying on her bed
She turns around in her desk chair eyeing me.
“Yes for the seventh time and I told you not to eat my last pudding cup .”She says running and jumping on me
“But it was mine you said two for you one for me remember?”I say teasing her
Jumping up and down on my back acting like a crazy women she yells for her dad
“Daddy!!She did it again!”
“Aww you calling your dad for help again really .”I say struggeling out from under her as her father walks into the room looking embarrised
“Oh sorry I will leave you two alone..”
“Dad stop we weren’t doing anything just playing around.”Lasey says
“Oh of course well you shouldn’t jump on Zoey like that you could hurt her .”He says making me giggle
“Sir she stole my pudding again just like last time.”I say making her throw a pillow at me that I quickly dodge
“Now now Lasey don’t be a spoiled brat now come on Zoey I’ll show you were I hide some more”
Sticking my tongue out to her I walk with her dad
“So Zoey how have you been since you know.”Her dad asks handing me a pudding
“Fine sir I mean its still hard but I guess me and my dad prepared for this .She’s in a better place right .”
“Yes honey she is .I know Lasey loves you very much and I am glad you two are so close .”
Feeling a lump in my throat I just nod
“Yes best friends.”I manage to say
“Promise me you will look after her this weekend ?”He asks
“Well I’m sure Sam is more than capable but yes sir I will.”
“So Sammy decided to go along then I thought she said she would be held up with her band?”
“No sir she managed to reschedule .”I say wishing somebody would hit me in the stomach
“I remember Laseys mother and I being so in love .There is nothing like it you know .”
“So I have heard sir .Thanks for the pudding.”I say walking back into Laseys room
I didn’t want to be reminded of how in love they are every single second of the day .
“No baby I miss you I am going to kiss you then kill you then marry you all at once for leaving me alone for so long….Yes it has been long a whole two weeks …Okay no you should not…baby I have to go Zoey is here..yes miss you too..”
Kill me.
Does she really have to call every five minutes ?I mean yeah its cute but its getting to be a bit much . Kinda clingy .
“Sam says hi..”
“Of course she does.”I say under my breath but Lasey hears
“What now again.”She ask folding her arms frowning at me
Stop being so freaking cute when I am trying to avoid your eyes damn woman !I really do have a problem .
“Nothing.”I say sitting on the bed next to her giving my pudding to her
“Thank you ,and don’t say nothing .”
She really doesn’t want to know .
“She calls a lot that’s all.”
She falls down onto the bed rolling her eyes at me pushing me so I lay down next to her .
“You on this again?”She asks
“No its just like she has you on a short leash that’s all.”I say staring at her black painted wall we did together filled with our favourite quotes .
“She just misses me .”
“Well I miss you too and we can’t even have a conversation without her calling the whole time .I hope this weekend isn’t going to be like that .Me being the third wheel.”I say catching her eye.
Our eyes lock a while but she quickly jumps up and gets out a bag from the closet.
“And now?”
“I’m just going to start packing you should do the same.”She says her eyes not leaving her suitcase
“You want me to go?”I ask sitting up straight
“Maybe.”
“Ouch okay then .”I say jumping off her bed
She grabs my arm and pulls me towards her frowning at me again
“Mad at me again?”
“What this time Lasey ?”I ask
“You forgot something..”She says softly looking down .
I smile to myself lifting her chin and kiss her nose
“Better?”I ask
She nods but looks down again .
“It’s not cheating .”I say walking out of her room letting my fingers trace over my lips..
Lasey P.O.V
Laying down on the couch I feel my phone vibrate and see a text from Zoey
Text Message
I’m sorry I ate your pudding cup L
Smiling I quickly type a reply
Text Message
Yeah that’s like stealing candy from a baby you know.
I type hearing her message almost instantly
Text Message
It’s lonely here without you .
Seriously
Text Message
Stop it.
I warn
Text Message
I’m just saying .Kind of sucks being on my own .
Great make me feel bad
Text Message
My dad will freak if I sleep over again
I lie .My dad doesn’t mind
Text Message
Its fine I will just be here…alone…at my house…alone….in my bed…alone
Arg and now I have to go
Text Message
Fine!One more cuddle just let me call Sam first and ask her.
She doesn’t like it very much
Text Message
You do that while I take off my clothes
Perv
Text Message
Funny.
Beep Beep…
“Hello Sweety .”Sams angelic voice says
“Hey my angel I just wanted to tell you Zoey came down with the flu or something and I am also getting sick so my dad said we should go and recover over there so he doesn’t get sick.I have to sleep over .”I say hoping she buys it
“That’s fine baby you go and try to enjoy it tell Zoe I say hello and I will see you two tomorrow .”She says blowing kisses in the phone
“Thanks baby you’re the best .Hopefully it’s just a 24 hour thing .”
…
“You really already in bed.”I ask seeing Zoey curled into a ball smiling at me sweetly
“Yeah I just need you here and I’ll be off to dreamland.”She says patting her bed
“I think I preferred the old you better.”I joke jumping in next to her
Turning on her side shepulls me to her and kisses my neck softly..
“What did you tell Sam?”She whispers trying not to cause a fight
“I told her we were sick and had to recover together..”I say staring at her wall feeling guilty
She doesn’t say anything just hugs me closer and trails lines down my back making me relax a little bit .
“You know you didn’t have to come right..”She whispers in my ear stroking my tummy
Smiling I put my hand on her.
“I wanted to.”
“You still mad at me?”She asks
How could I be …
“No..”
“Good ..”She says kissing my cheek
“Night Zoe..”I say squeezing her hand
“Night Lase..”She says nuzzling her nose in my hair .
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