"Have you seen Clyde at all?"
"No actually. Usually he's with Token at my locker, but now that I'm thinking about it neither of them were there."
"Do you think him and B-Bebe are actually together?"
"Maybe. But I think Clyde would've told us by now, unless he's too occupied with Bebe."
"That's probably w-what it is. Especially since he really likes her." Tweek said as we walked, his face suddenly turning red for some reason.
"What? Your face is red."
"It's nothing."
I tried to figure out what made him red, but he just stared down at the floor. I looked around for anything and that's when I saw Butters walking in our direction.
Ugh, there's no way Tweek actually likes him.
"Hey fellas!"
"Hey Butters."
"Hey."
"Are you okay Craig? You seem upset." Butters question suprised me, because while I was a little annoyed, I didn't usually show it. I'm not jealous an i? No way.
I don't even think I like Tweek.
"C-Craig?"
"I'm fine. Let's go Tweek."
"Ah, uh hold on. Butters I'm gonna h-have lunch with Craig today."
"Oh alright. You guys are pals now?"
Tweek just nodded and I had a small smirk. That's right.
Tweek is sitting with me. Take the L Butters.
God why am I acting like this?
"Well that's good I suppose! I'll see you later Tweek!!"
"B-Bye." Tweek waved and Butters walked off leaving just me and Tweek again.
"N-Now why are you red? Token isn't here."
"So Butters was what made you blush?"
"Not really, I-I was just thinking about something."
"What?"
Tweek hesitaed a moment before a smirk creeped into his face.
"Secrets for screts Craig."
"Oh yeah? What did I even say last night? We texted a lot."
"If you actually liked Token, I don't really believe you."
"I don't believe you either, Butters gets no bitches."
"Okay so then do you admit to l-lying?"
"Mmm sure. I was. We're you?"
"Y-Yea."
I couldn't help but laugh. I felt a little relived too, because maybe I'm just over thinking it, but I feel like he likes me too.
Wait, not too.
I don't like Tweek.
He's a boy. And I'm a boy.
Not that matters, but I still can't just like him. I barely met him like a week ago.
I don't like Tweek.
"Let's not sit with Clyde and Token."
"Huh? W-Why?"
"Because I want to try something a little crazy."
"W-what?!"
"Trust me man. I know somewhere secret we can go."
Tweek fidgeted with his hands before kaughing.
"Alright. Sure."
We finally got to class, and our hands brushed last each other as we walked in.
Thank god he couldn't see my face, but I could tell I was red.
I don't not like Tweek..
I do like Tweek. Like that??
~
"Watch their gonna come in together."
"Of course they are. And Clyde is gonna stare into her eyes and say something like I'm so I'm love."
As if on cue, Clyde and Bebe walked in holding hands and all of Clyde's attention on Bebe. She smiled and laughed while sitting down in her spot across the Clyde. Ckyde glanced at her and the empty seat I had yet to sit in since I was standing By Tweeks desk. He smiled and sat there still not taking his eyes off of Bebe. She didn't either.
They both wore huge grins and only when the bell rang did they finally pull their gaze away from each other and search in their backpacks for the usual items.
"I guess bye." I said awkwardly going to sit in Clyde's seat, so that I was now facing Bebe. Token came in a little after late for some reason; and he knew as soon as he sat down what was going on.
"No way. Bebe you were serious?" She just smiled and nodded and Clyde seemed to laugh at that.
"You both are so cringy."
"I don't care."
"Me either."
"Aww Clyde babe."
Babe? Already? Even Token was caught off guard, him and Nicole have dated longer and they still don't use pet names.
"Gross."
"Now there's gonna be PDA everywhere man." Token rolled his eyes and sighed. I looked away from the whole group and over to Tweek who sat with Kenny and Heidi. Tweek was looking at Clyde and he laughed at Tolens comment I assume, then looked back at me.
His face turned red and he flashed a smile. I sent one back and his attention seemed to be pulled away from me and to the teacher.
Why is he looking at the teacher?
"Dude." Token shoved my side slightly, and when I looked back at him he glanced to the teacher. So finally, I took my turn to look at him and he was looking right back at me.
"You gonna tell us the answer Craig?"
"Uhhh.." I could hear Tweek laugh and I couldn't help but smile.
"Nope."
"Stop staring at girls and pay attention."
There was a few chuckles and I had to resist holding up the middle finger.
"Heidi? You like Heidi Craig?"
"What? No way!"
"She's the only girl over there."
"Okay so?"
"Your gay?"
"No!" Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck. Maybe??
I think?
I don't care, but I can't let them know. Holy shit what if my parents find out? My dads gonna kick my ass. Okay nope, I'm not gay. Period.
"Tweek?"
"AH! S-sorry I c-can't see well back here."
"I'm pretty sure he just has shitty handwriting."
"Excuse me Craig?!"
"I mean it's true." Tweek was struggling to hold in his laughs and I honestly just wanted to hear him laugh out loud.
"Do I need to call your parents?"
"Yea you probably should because I don't think they would be able to read your handwriting if you sent them a note."
Tweek started giggling and the look on the teachers face was pretty funny. I started laughing too.
"Oh? You both think this is funny?? Step outside, you and Tweek!"
He was a little embarrassed but I didn't really care, and since I was already in trouble I decided to give my signature middle finger.
Tweek started giggling even more as he made some sort of noise out of frustration. The door closed and Tweek started laughing even more.
"C-Craig! W-Why did you do all of t-that!" He stuttered out in between laughs.
"Becauseee, it made you laugh."
His laugh died down and he looked up at me with a smile.
"Craig. Ugh."
"What."
"N-Nothing."
We waited for the teacher for a minute before I got bored.
"Come on. Let's just skip."
"Uhhh."
"Come on please? I wanna talk to you."
"Mmm fine." I smiled and started leading the way to my special spot.
"Sometimes I get high here, and the rest of the day is just a blur."
"I've never-"
"Of course you haven't."
"W-What's that supposed to mean?"
"Nothing. One day, we're gonna get high together and it'll be so fun."
"Just being together is fun." Tweek said sitting down behind the stairs next to me.
No one ever comes here anyway unless it's passing period. Im not sure why, but it's great.
"So, w-what did you want to talk about?"
"I don't know why, but I really like telling you everything."
"Me too. Like the whole meth thing."
"And the Stan thing, and last night the confused thing."
"Confused?"
"If I'm gay."
"Ohhh." He turned red again and he seemed to struggle with his next words.
"I think, I am gay. Or at least like a dude. T-the guy, maybe it's way too soon to say it b-but he really makes my stomach do flips and makes me all fluttery." Tweek said looking at me right in the eyes.
Is he talking about me? He has to be. But I can't be gay, my parents would probably kill me!
"I don't think I am." I lied.
No wait, I didn't lie. Because I'm not gay. Even if what Tweek said possibly being about me really did make me happy, because Im not gay.
Does that even make sense?
His small smiled faded a bit as his mouth formed an "O" shape.
"O-Ohh..why the s-sudden change?"
I could tell Tweek though right? But it still wouldn't make me gay? Even if I want to tell him because I do think I am gay. But I can't be gay.
This is so confusing.
"I don't know anymore Tweek. I'm so fucking confused."
"H-Hey man. You don't gotta know right away."
"But, I think I do, but I also can't."
"You can't be gay?"
"Yea. No? I don't know." I sighed laying down on the floor and closing my eyes.
"Just let me think for a moment."
Tweek mumbled an "okay" and walked a little bit away I assumed.
Okay, I can't be gay because my parents would probably disown me, and what would Ckyde and Token think? I also can't be gay because I don't like guys right?
Yet, Tweek is making me feel someway I never have before. As much as my brain is screaming at me to say friendship, I've been friends with Clyde and Token for years, and I've never felt this way toward them.
I only met Tweek like a week ago how could I be so interested in him? I just always want to be around him, and talk to him. Maybe I don't like him, I haven't thought about kissing him or anything.
But, kissing Tweek, doesn't actually sound too bad.
Fuck I am gay aren't I? But I can't be.
This is so unfair.
"Damnit."
I opened up my eyes and Tweek was mumbling some song.
"-ear to god I'm gonna change the world."
"Hey, are you singing Pierce the Veil?"
"Oh. Yea. I love them-"
"Me too!! And I~ promise you someday we'll tell ourselves oh my god this is paradise."
"This is paradise!" Tweek sung the end with me, and holy shit he wasn't making this any easie.
I looked at Tweeks lips, and suddenly I was somewhat grateful but also grossed out at my capability to imagine stuff in my head.
Sometimes it's great, sometimes it's terrible. Clyde once told me about some guy sticking a glass jar up his ass and then it breaking inside him. That wasn't a good image.
Me and Tweek, holding hands, lips connecting and a slight smile on both of our faces was though. It was a perfect image.
"I didn't know you l-liked Pierce the Veil."
"I fucking love Pierce the veil."
"All of their songs are so fucking g-good!! I would rather be a methhead then never listen to their songs!"
"And I would rather get my ass kicked by Stan then not listen to Pierce the veil." He laughed and it was absolutely adorable.
The bell rang, and that signaled lunch was starting.
"Let's go get food and come back here. I'm actually gonna tell you something."
"C-cool."