are you texting may again?
No what are you
talking about
ugh why did i even tell you
Wait wait wait
I didn't tell her anything
like that, just that you
probably need her right
now
you don't know what
i need
But I can guess that
this is a bad time for
you to be alone
i'm not alone
i'm texting you, aren't i?
You know what I mean
yeah...
I'm sorry that your
dad died
don't be.
i barely even knew him
But he's still your dad
he abandoned my mom and me
I'm sorry
I dunno what to say
congrats?
Wtf no
well apparently he was
loaded because i've got a
ton of money now
Oh uh, congrats then?
thanks
i'm just mad that the first
time he's actually supporting
me is when he's dead
That sucks
yeah, but that's life
Life can get better
true
i can finally go to school
and live comfortably
Well that's great
What would you like
to study?
i'm not quite sure
i think interior design would
be fun
i've thought of having my
own business one day
That's really cool
What about an actress?
Since you have a hit soap
opera and everything
oh yes, how could i forget?
my exemplary skills as
an actor
You could make it to
Broadway
i've truly girlbossed
way too hard
Lmao
How have we gone from
serious talk to THIS?
my dad's death has evoked
some strange emotions,
that's for sure
I know we're joking
and all that
But are you actually okay?
He may have not been
the best dad, but he's still...
y'know
i'll be fine
i'm not heartless, i do
feel some grief
I wasn't implying that
i know
I'm sorry
i know
and you don't have to be
Alright then
about my dad... i only met
him twice
once at my mom's funeral and
then again at my part time job
a couple years ago. i worked
at a convience store and he
was buying alcohol
and i guess it will be the 3rd
time at his funeral
Your mom's passed?
yeah when i was 11
it was a long time ago so don't
feel bad. she was a good mom
though
Still, I'm sorry you've
had to go through all this
it's fine
You're really strong y'know?
that's what a lot of people say
thanks
I hope you aren't doubting
yourself because you
ARE strong
lol you can really read me
i guess i find it hard to
believe sometimes
i usually think of myself
as a crybaby
Nonsense
Even if you were, it
wouldn't change a thing
thanks
I really wish I could do
more to help
you've helped me more than
you think so don't worry
about it :)
I'm glad
I hope you don't mind
me asking, but why would
you go to his funeral if you
feel that way?
i would say it's for closure
but it's really because my
aunt will force me haha
Is your aunt good to you?
she's not the best aunt
she constantly hounds me
for money because she thinks
i'm indebted to her
What the fuck why?
well after my mom died i was
left in her care. my aunt was
less fortunate, so when she
had to cover all my costs, she
tallied up everything and made
sure i'd pay repay her with
work. what was once paying
off what my aunt spent on me
became literally paying for
everything. she made me feel
guilty for burdening her and
requested more and more
money.
thankfully i've left so i'm in
a better place now
That's actually messed up,
you were just a kid
She's an awful woman and
I hope she gets what she
deserves
Sorry was that too far?
haha no you're fine
i feel the same way
Okay just making sure
I'm relieved you're away
from her and happier
You deserve better
any kid with a crappy
home life does
but thank you
i'm glad i talked to you
about this
Anytime.
I'm glad you talked to
me as well
well i should probably tell
may now?
i feel bad keeping her
worried for so long
She'll understand, trust me
Talk to you later?
mhm see ya :)
...
May's reaction to the news was surprisingly calm. While Daiyu had been texting, unbeknownst to her, May ran to the corner store and brought back a tub of ice cream for them to scarf down later. May gave her the time she needed (and the cuddles, don't forget the cuddles) before she opened up about everything.
Wrapping her arms tightly around Daiyu's small frame, May whispered, "Everything will be alright, Yu. I promise."
Daiyu smiled, acknowledging her friend with a small hum and pat on her hand.
"I think this means I can quit my job. Delete the app and all..." Daiyu trails off while May rubs her shoulder.
"Whatever you decide to do, I'll support you."
Daiyu murmurs, "What if I'm not cut out for university?" And that's her biggest concern at the moment, what if she can't do anything? If attending university is only a far-fetched, idealistic dream of hers, then what will her course of action be from there?
May simply wacks her.
"You're capable of so much, so don't talk yourself down like that. There's still so much time before entrance exams. Worrying now isn't going to help you but giving it your best try will. I believe in you."
Daiyu grunts, "I'm more worried about the future and what comes after."
"So am I, Daiyu," May sighs. "You might not even decide to go to university, and that's okay. Or you might go and still not know what you want, and that's okay too. We're figuring this out as we go."
At that moment, Daiyu feels like crying.
"Thanks, May." She feels her eyes water. Never in her life has she had someone as supportive as May. "Will you major in fashion design?"
May chuckles, "I'm in a better place than I was a year ago thanks to you so hopefully yes." May looks at her, "And will you major in interior design?"
Daiyu ponders before replying, "I'm not sure anymore." She breathes out, hesitating. "I don't know what my dream is."
"It's okay to not have a dream."
...
a/n: fyi if you ever felt what daiyu described at the end, you're not alone because i've felt like that for the longest time. i felt pressured to find a dream because that's what i thought everybody had, but turns out, there are a lot of people in life who have no idea and might never, and that's fine. it's okay if you don't have a dream in the meantime or in the future.
sorry for my rant, love you.