Josie's P.O.V.
I made it to Hope's room and open the door quietly. I walked in and quietly closed the door behind me. I look over at Hope and see her sleeping. She looked peaceful but I knew she wasn't getting enough sleep. There was no way she was sleeping well, with all the drama she's been through recently. I hate that she couldn't have been normal and had a normal life. She deserves so much in this world and I hope she gets it. I sit in the chair, she sits at to paint, and waited for her to wake up. Every so often, I glanced over at her and either saw her perfectly still, sleeping fine for a moment, or tossing and turning, probably from the stress and worry of everything.
After what felt like an hour, I look at her again and she's tossing and turning this time. I assume it's going to just go back to her laying still, until I hear her screaming. She must be having a nightmare. I quickly get up and move closer to her bed and to her. I start to gently shake her to try and wake her from her nightmare. "Hope, wake up." I could see sweat forming on her forehead and her claws forming from her hands and veins showing under her eyes. This nightmare must be effecting her vampire and wolf side. Eventually it started to effect her powers because the lights started to flicker in the room. I could hear her heart racing. She must be having an awful dream. I kept calling her name and shaking her gently until her eyes suddenly shot open and she's gasping for air but at the same time screaming my name. "I'm here Hope, I'm here." I said and pulled her into a hug to try and soothe her. Eventually she calmed down and pulled away to look at me. "Jo, is that really you?" She asked and I smiled at her. "It's me. You had a nightmare, are you alright?" "Y-you didn't wake up.. You never woke up." She said with tears in her eyes. She had a nightmare about me dying? I pull her back into my arms for another hug. "I'm here Hope. I'm not going anywhere."
After a moment, I pulled away and wiped the tears from her eyes. "Wait, you're awake? And Lizzie didn't wake me? I'm going to kick her ass!" Hope said and got up to go after Lizzie but I sped in front of her. Woah, that was a rush but I know I'll get used to it. At least it wasn't like when Hope carried me before. "Don't. I told her not to wake you. I wanted you to get your rest." Hope looked at me and I could hear her sigh under her breath. "Did you finish the transition?" She asked and I chuckled softly. "Yes Hope, I did." "And daylight ring? Do you have one yet or do I need to make you one?" She asked. She wanted to make sure I wasn't leaving anyone again. "You aunts' actually made me one. I guess it was their way of thanking me for saving you." I held my hand up and showed her the ring. She looked at it and then looked at me. "My family crest?" She asked. I hope she felt I was worthy for it like her family did. If she didn't, I would get them to make me a new ring because I never wanted to disrespect Hope in any way. "Y-your family thought I was worthy enough for it. I know only your family and a select few are special enough to have them but if it's disrespecting or something, I can get a ne-" "No. You are worthy for it. You always have been." She said, cutting my sentence off. "Really?" I asked to be sure she wasn't just saying that. "Of course. Besides it suits you." She said and smiled at me and held my hand to look at my ring.
"Jo, I'm so sorry." She said and I noticed her smile faded. "Hope, you have nothing to apologize for." I responded, knowing she would have brought this up eventually. "I do. It's my fault you're like this." "It is not and I really wish you would stop blaming yourself." I said as she continued looking down at my ring. "Jo, it's my fault because if I had killed Malivore before, or never been in your life, this would've never happened." "Hope! Never say that. I never want you out of my life." She looked up at me. "This happened because I saved you and I would do it over and over again, no matter what the consequence is." I will never be the same if I ever lost her.
Hope's P.O.V.
She is actually saying she would die for me? I never wanted that nor will I ever let it happen again. "Can't you just be happy I'm still here and not blame yourself for once?" She asked. I knew she didn't want me blaming myself but I couldn't help it. "Jo I am happy that you're still here but that doesn't change the fact that it's my fault. Or that I'm mad at you." I said and pulled away. She looked at me, like she couldn't believe I just said that. "W-why are you mad at me?" She asked and I looked at her. She seriously didn't know why I was mad at her? "Jo you jumped in front of me and took the stake. Now you're a heretic!" I said, feeling my anger take over, but I tried to fight it because I never wanted to be that upset with Josie. "I had to. I wasn't going to lose you." "You should've stayed away and let me handle it." "Handle it! Hope that wasn't handling it! You were going to die! I knew couldn't lose you, so I took the hit for you!" "Why?" Was all I could say. "Why? Why?! Because what I said back there, was not in the heat of the moment, or because I was dying! I do love you Hope and I think I always have." That made me shut up. She meant it? She actually loves me more than a friend? "If anyone should be mad right now, it's me!" She said and I was a bit shocked she said that. "You're mad at me?" I asked. "Of course I am! You traded your life for mine! Why the hell would you do that?!" Why did I do it? "Tell me Hope! Give me a reason why the hell you traded your life for mine!" She kept yelling at me and I couldn't control myself any longer. "Because I love you, damn it!" I blurted out and then covered my mouth quickly. I actually just said that. I moved my hand from my mouth and looked down. "I'm sorry for yelling Jo, but I just.. I couldn't lose you. Not just because I'm not good with losing people but because I lov-" I was cut off when I felt Josie's lips against mine. Was this actually happening? Is she kissing me for real this time and not just to siphon me? I eventually gave in and kissed her back. I feel her cup my cheeks and pull me in closer. This was actually happening. I couldn't believe it. Eventually she pulled away and leaned her forehead against mine. "I have been wanting to do that for so long." She whispered. "Yeah, me too." I whispered back and smiled.
I started to lean back in to kiss her again, but she pulled away and let go of me. Did she suddenly change her mind? "Jo?" She sighed softly. "As much as I would love to kiss you again, I shouldn't." Why was she suddenly saying this after she kissed me? "Well you're the one who kissed me first." "I know, I couldn't control it. The moment I heard you say that you love me, it was like my body had a mind of it's own and moved towards you." "Oh, the heightened emotions." "Yeah! It was like I couldn't control them!" "Yeah, that's something that's been hard for me lately too. Like me getting super angry at you. I didn't mean to Jo." I wanted to kiss her but I also didn't want to disrespect her in any way.
Before I could say anything else, I felt her kiss me again. I gave in again and kissed back. This time it lasted a bit longer before she pulled away again. "I shouldn't be doing this!" She said. I could tell she was trying to control her emotions. "Why shouldn't you?" I asked, moving closer to her, wanting to kiss her again. "Because even after everything she's done, I am still technically with Finch." I stopped in my tracks when I heard her name. Of course it's Finch that's keeping me from finally being close to Josie. "I'm sorry Hope. As much as I want to and believe me, I want to. I need to figure things out and talk to Finch about it." She needs to choose between us. That's what she meant. But would I even stand a chance? Finch and her had so much chemistry. As much I hated to admit that, I knew it was true. "Right, of course." I said, feeling a bit hurt but knew she was right. "I'm sorry Hope, I really am." "I know Jo." I smiled at her. "I'll give you time and I'll wait as long as you need." I finally get to have her but then of course Finch comes in the way. Why the hell couldn't I have seen my feelings for Josie way before Finch ever came along?!
Josie's P.O.V.
I hate seeing Hope this way. I can see the pain in her eyes when I said I had to make a choice between her and Finch. What if I choose Finch? Then I'd be hurting Hope and that's something I never want. But if I choose Hope then vice versa. I don't want to hurt either one of them. But who do I not want to hurt more? Who do I want to be with more? Hope and I finally admitted our feelings for eachother and I'm making her wait to see if there is a chance for us. I feel awful about this. "Uhm, I should go. My mom is here and I want to catch up with her." I said and looked at Hope. She just looked at me and nodded her head. "Uh, yeah. You should. I would want to do the same if it was me." Fuck! I wasn't thinking and I mention my mom being here while hers can't be. I know it doesn't really bother her but I never want to rub it in her face. "Go on, have fun. And later, we can start some lessons." She said and smiled at me. How did just her smile always make me feel better? "Lessons?" I asked and raised an eyebrow. "Well you're a heretic now. You need to learn control and not just for the hunger. For the speed and everything else." "Oh right. Will you be my teacher?" I asked and smiled at her, wanting an excuse to spend more time with her. "I better be because I wouldn't want someone else teaching you. But I guess we can ask for some help." She said and I chuckled softly. "Alright then, I'll meet you out back later?" She nodded her head and smiled at me.
I turned to leave but stopped for a moment when I heard her speak up. "Jo?" She asked and I turned back around. She was closer than before. "Y-yeah?" I asked, looking down at her, considering she was a bit shorter than me. Before I could ask anything else, I felt her lips against mine. She kissed me this time. I knew I shouldn't be doing this but I couldn't help but give in and kiss her back. Her lips tasted so delicious and I just wanted more. I wanted more of Hope. I suddenly felt my back against the door, which meant Hope was pinning me against it. I then felt her hands move to my waist. Was this actually happening? I wanted more and I could tell she did too. I craved more of her. I felt her lips move to my neck as she left soft kisses on it. N-no. I have to stop this. This can't happen right now. No m-matter how much I w-want it to. I couldn't control myself as a soft moan escaped my lips. Damn it Hope, you're making this so hard for me. Eventually I was able to control myself again. "Hope, stop please." After a moment, she pulled away and looked at me. I could see the sorrow in her eyes. She didn't want to stop and I didn't want her to but we shouldn't be doing this now. Not while I'm still technically with Finch and not while her family and my family were all in the house at the same time. Especially my dad, if he heard those kind of noises coming from Hope's room, he would definitely have questions and he didn't know about my feelings for Hope yet. "Hope, it's not that I don't want to. I do, I truly do, but I just can't yet. Like I said I-" "You're still with her, I know. But I hate it! I hate her!" I sighed softly. "I know. I hate that we can't be together right away too but I was with her before any of this happened. I'm sorry. But it's not only that." "Then what else is there?" She asked, looking at me and I could tell her anger was getting the best of her but she was trying her best to control it enough so she wouldn't yell at me or anything. "Well because both of our families are in the house and most of them are vampires so they would be able to hear us. And if we got.. loud enough, the non vampires would hear too." I said, suddenly feeling my face get warm. "Right. I didn't even think of that." She said and bit her lip. "I'll try to hold myself back but it's just so damn hard when you look like that." She said and I could tell her eyes were looking me up and down and that she was possibly undressing me with her eyes, which only made my face get even warmer. "You know, you're cute when you blush." She said and smirked slightly at me. I was blushing?! No wonder my face was so warm. I don't know why Hope was acting like this. She only just told me she loved me today. Has she been holding all of this in? For a long time? I'm sure her heightened emotions were a big part in why she acting this way. And since she finally admitted her feelings for me, was she just wanting to let them all out since she's been holding them inside for so long? "Get out of here before I rip your clothes off." She said, pulling me out of my thoughts. I swallowed hard and my eyes widened, as I blushed even more. I was surprised she would say something like that, especially to me. She was giving me that famous Mikaelson smirk but I could tell it wasn't just lust hiding in her smirk but her love for me too. "R-right. I-I'll go." I stuttered and quickly left the room. I leaned against the door and tried to calm myself before going to meet with my mom. "Jo, I can still hear you." I hear her say through the door. My heart was racing and she heard it. I could hear more than one heart though, which meant her heart was racing too. "Sorry!" I yelled and moved away from the door.
I ran to the bathroom and washed my face with cold water to calm me down. I look in the mirror and noticed something. Was that a.. HICKEY?! I didn't even feel her do it! Damn it Hope! Hiding her feelings for me for so long, must've really been getting to her. I sped back to her room and opened the door to see what she had to say about it but she was gone. She must've ran off to calm herself down as well. Shit! And I have to meet up with mom. I sped back to the bathroom and started to use makeup to cover it, hoping no one would notice. I'll have to yell at Hope later for this.
Hope's P.O.V.
I can't believe how far I went back there. I was so close to ripping all of Josie's clothes off. It's like as if my body had a mind of its own and only wanted one thing, Josie. I finally admit my feelings for her and they take over. All I wanted to do was have her in every way possible. It was almost as if I was in a trance. The way her lips taste and how she moaned when I kissed her neck. Damn it, I need more. But I had to respect her decision. I can't do anything until she chooses. Josie went to meet with her mom and I had to go run. It would calm me down. Once she had left my room, I climbed out my window and ran to the woods to transform. I didn't want to see anyone at the moment so the window was the best bet. And I don't have to transform to run anymore, being a vampire now too, but being a wolf felt better when running. I could feel the wind through my fur. I make sure no one is around before undressing and transforming into my wolf form. I started to run, trying to calm myself. All I could think about was Josie so it was hard but running was helping a bit. I can hope all I want for her to choose me but no matter what she chooses, I will obviously support her decision, whether it's hard on me or not. Josie is more important than myself. She always has been. Her happiness is more important as well, even if I'm not part of it. I just want her more than I ever thought I did. But I know it's hard for her because if it was me with her and Landon, I'd have a hard time too, but in the end, I think I would choose her. I love Landon, I truly do and I always will but my love for Josie, just seems.. different. I don't know how to explain it, even to myself. I'm sure mom would be able to understand it. I wish I could tell her everything and get her advice. I'm sure she'd know exactly what to say. Times like this are when I really need her and miss her. Why must my life be so complicated?
Author; Here's another new chapter! I would've added more to it but I thought I'd separate it a bit. I hope you all enjoy it! Thanks again for everyone that's reading.