Roman is way too good for me. He's so sweet and thoughtful, gentle and understanding, so many words to describe him which only makes it more and more obvious that I will never ever deserve him.
Roman and I pull away after a few minutes which is way too soon for our liking. But knowing that we have to get ready for dinner makes us pull away.
We walk to my weapon room and both take guns before tugging them in our clothes at the waistbands.
You never can never be too safe so taking guns with us is the best thing we can do.
We both put on our silver colored jewelry.
Me putting on my usual and Roman putting on some rings, a watch, belt and a silver chain.
I also put a jacket on which Roman does too.
After that Roman helps me out with putting on my black heals, than I grab my purse and we leave to go downstairs.
Roman and I will be going with our motorcycles, which is like awesome.
Because riding firefly always releases stress for me and even though my nerves have calmed down a little, it's still all there.
I am also pretty sure that when we are waiting on the girl to come to the restaurant, my nerves will shoot up again.
My family already left since we told them before that we would go with the motorcycles instead of with the cars.
Roman and I walk outside but not before grabbing our keys.
Outside we put our helmets on before both jumping on our bikes.
I make sure that my skirt doesn't rise up and that I can actually place my feet properly on the bike.
Soon we are on the way to the restaurant while the rush of riding at this speed takes over my anxiety.
While swerving through the cars, I meet my families' cars too.
I wave at them which they return, than Roman and I go faster so the rush of excitement only grows.
Way sooner then I would have liked, we arrive.
I swing my leg back over firefly but not before pulling my keys out and switching her off.
I make sure that my skirt is still okay and stuff then take my helmet off.
I flatten my hair a little and put my keys in my purse.
Roman who parked next to me, now grabs me by the waist and leads us both inside the restaurant.
We walk inside while eyes immediately fly to us which makes my heart beat faster, not in a good way.
I don't let anything show on my face though, I keep the cold expression as Roman and I walk to the receptionist.
The woman looks up and immediately the color on her face drains, "reservation for Hernandez" Roman speaks, no emotion whatsoever visible in his voice.
The hand on my waist tightens while rubbing some circles in a comforting way.
"Y-yes, of c-course. This way" she says hurriedly.
Roman and I follow her to an elevator in the back which means we walk through all the other guests in the restaurant.
Even though I'm not showing anything on my face, my heart pounds painfully in my chest while I try to keep my breathing under control as those bad, painful, anxious shivers appear over my body.
Those shivers make me shake a little from the stress but I keep walking as Roman tugs me closer to him.
The woman tells us to go in the elevator, to the top floor where another person would be standing to lead us the way.
I give her a short nod before the doors close.
"Breathe my love, deep breaths" Roman says while pressing on the top floor.
"I am" I tell him softly.
"You're not.-" he states while tugging me in his chest, "deep breath with me. In....and out." I do the breathing with him and feel myself relax a little but not much.
We do the breathing a few more times before the elevator opens up once more.
Roman and I release the hug but he keep holding me close to him while an older man leads us the way.
"Good evening sir, ma'am" the man greats us while bending down a little.
Sir...
Ma'am...
"You useless fucking bitch" ma'am screams while throwing blow after blow to my ribs.
Sir comes up from behind me and suddenly stabs me harshly with a knife, "just die already, nobody wants you" sir says.
I cry and try to get away, but it's no use.
Soon I'm being dragged to the playroom before hell on earth begins.
I still in Roman's hold hearing those names.
Roman's hand tightens around my waist while his other hand falls into a fist ready to beat that man up.
It's fine.
The man doesn't know, it's okay, it's fine.
Don't think about it.
"It's fine, Ro" I say so softly that only he hears. "He doesn't know" I continue while following the man.
Roman's hand pulls me even closer to him if that is even possible.
We walk inside the room and go to sit down on two chairs while the man leaves us alone.
I lean my head against Roman's shoulder after I place my bag down on the floor.
Roman wraps his arm around my shoulder but he still seems tense.
His hand is still painfully tight in a fist and on his forehead you can see a vain pulse angrily.
I grab his fist and start unfolding his fingers gently.
"Baby, breathe. Don't be mad at that man it's not his fault." I tell him while drawing circles on his hand, so he'll unclench his balled fist.
Slowly he lets me take his hand in mine.
"He brought up memories" he grits through his teeth.
"Yeah and that's okay, I'm okay, you're okay. We're all okay" I tell him while wrapping my other arm around him.
"But-" he starts but I cut him off.
"Roman, I'm okay trust me. That man was just trying to be polite, he doesn't have the slightest clue what those words say/mean for me and you." I tell him.
He sighs, "I know, it's just-..." he stops talking not knowing how to say what he wants to say.
"I know, baby I know" I tell him knowing what he means.
The door opens once more and my mom and dad walk in with the rest of my family.
Ellie is here too, but that little girl is sleeping in Blake's hold and mom has her arm linked with my dad's.
"Hey" mom greets us before walking up to us and giving me a kiss on the head and a hug.
She turns to Roman and quickly hugs him while my dad gives me a hug.
"Principessa" he greets me.
"Dad" I say smiling.
My dad now also turns to Roman and gives him a friendly tap on the shoulder.
My brothers too greet me like always with a kiss on the head and a big hug before everyone sits down.
We all engage in different conversations but knowing that at any moment Allesandro's girlfriend could walk in makes my nerves shoot up once more.
My leg bounces under the table which Roman quickly notices so he places his hand on it while I start playing with his rings.
The combination of feeling the comfort from Roman and fidgeting with Roman's rings, calms me more than I thought it would.
Suddenly the door gets opened by that man and in walks Alessandro with a beautiful girl.