Chapter 21: I hate you
Alyssa's POV
"Honey, look at them.. they look so cute together!" Denden suddenly pushed me away.
Mom totally ruined our moment!
"You scared them, honey! But I agree. Look at Denden, she's blushing."
My parents are retards! How could they do this to me?
"Aish." I scratched my head."Unbelievable." Then left them. I passed by Fille and she just laughed at me.
Aww. Wala naba akong kakampi ngayon? My life is a mess! Ugh!
After nun, dumating si Kuya Nicko. Denden was so glad when Kuya arrived. Sabi niya boring daw kami kausap ni Fille, wala daw kaming sense kausap kaya buti daw dumating si Kuya! Mas mabuti din daw parents ko may sense kausap.. as if naman siya may sense kausap..
Para lang kumakausap kami sa retarded pag kausap namin siya eh. I admit. Pangit relationship namin ni Denden, it's not perfect. Sobrang moody.
Pero people change, right? Meaning pwede pang maging better yung takbo ng relationship namin.
I hope so coz I super like her.. I super duper like her. Ok super duper is too much. I'll just make it super like. I super like Dennise Michelle Lazaro!
Even though she's maldita, I still super like her, my Baby Den.
Inunpack na namin yung package na dala nila, ang daming pasalubong! 3 boxes, yung dalawa pinadala nalang daw via LBC.
Jesus. Ang dami nilang pasalubong na binigay kay Denden! But I'm glad na ok siya sa parents ko, na okay yung relationship namin sa kanila.. I thought hindi siya magugustuhan.. I thought, hindi nila magugustuhan..Well, akala ko lang naman..
After namin mag unpack pumunta kaming lahat sa living room.
"Denden, I heard from these girls that you play Volleyball, and that you're good at it." Napatingin samin si Denden, tapos nag grin. Wala akong sinabing magaling siya magVolleyball. Si Fille lang yun. Tss
"Sinabi rin po ni Aly yun? I know Fille admires me long time ago, pero si Aly po sinabihan ako ng magaling?" she grinned at me.
Hinampas ni Fille si Denden sa may balikat,"Ang kapal mo Denden ha. Manahimik ka." sabi ni Fille.
"I never said that you were good. Don't smile at me that way, stupid."
"Aly, be good to your girlfriend. Don't call her stupid." nagsmile si Mommy kay Denden,"Denden, don't mind her bad attitude. May topak lang yan."
Mom, how could you do this to me?
We had a dinner with Denden. Wow. Welcome na welcome siya ha. First, ang daming pasalubong. Second, ang daming pasalubong. Third, ang daming pasalubong. Grabe! ANG DAMING PASALUBONG!
Okay, nababaliw nako.
Sunday was just like an ordinary Sunday. We went to mass to celebrate then went to the Mall. Family bonding and stuff.
I didn't get to see Denden because she said that she's already nagsasawa seeing my face everyday. What a meanie! Bwiset.
Monday again, and I'll get to see Denden! Yay! Fille and I didn't walk today because Dad wants to give us a ride to school. Weird.
Sabay kami nagpunta sa classroom ni Fille. Nandun na yung tatlo. Wow, aga ah.
I sat beside my Baby Den, nakatingin lang siya sakin. What the heck is her problem?
"Ano?"
"Tinatamad ako." tumayo siya tapos kinuha yung bag niya then started walking. "I'm going to ditch our class." she turned her back at me.
Ano ba yan! Hindi paba siya nagbabagong buhay?!
"Ok. then, I'm going to spend my lunch with Mika." I grinned.
Napatingin siya sakin, normal lang itsura niya,"Babalik ako ng lunch time. At dapat nasa canteen ka lang, kasama sila Fille. Pag umalis ka ng school, humanda ka sakin!" again tumalikod na siya at nagstart nanaman maglakad pero bago yun, umirap muna siya. Psh
Ok, that didn't work! Let's see if hindi pa to magwork..
Nilabas ko yung phone ko then pretend na may dinial na number..
"MIKA! Nasan ka?" napatigil sa paglalakad si Denden. "What? Nasa gate 2 ka ng school? Ok! I'll be there in 5 minutes." tumayo ako tapos kinuha yung bag ko then I passed by Denden,"I'm going to ditch my class, too. Bye!" hinawakan niya ko sa may braso tapos hinila sa may seat namin."No. Aattend tayo ng class natin. Walang aalis."
BINGO! Hahaha! Pumalakpak yung ibang classmates namin nung time na yun. Para kaming nasa drama sa TV, sinusubay-bayan everyday.
Natapos ang school ng maayos. Ganun pa rin kami ni Denden, pag public, parang friends lang.. nag aaway pa rin, pero hindi na tulad ng dati. Pag tumahimik nako, titigil na siya sa pagsasalita.
Pag alam niyang nabobore nako sa class, siya mag sstart ng mood class. Parang iba na talaga siya.. and I think I... love her.
Alam kong weird, bakit nga ba si Denden, why not Mika? Kahit ako hindi ko alam. Nasanay lang siguro ako na si Denden yung nasa tabi ko, and not Mika. Although si Mika yung mas ok, si Denden pinili ko.. si Denden yung binibeat ng puso ko.. it's Denden not Mika. I chose her over Mika. And that is final.
"Why do you wanna date suddenly?" tanong ko. Bigla kasi akong inaya.
"I just missed hanging out with you.. I missed you yesterday. I was trying to avoid you, kasi.. basta. Just wanna be with you today."
Kasi what? I'm eager to know! What was that all about?! But then again, it doesn't matter.
"Okay. Where are we going this time?" I asked
"Mall. Let's go see a movie."
I nodded.
We went to the Mall. Hinayaan niya akong mamili ng movie na papanoorin. Yay!
Paglabas namin ng movie house, we saw Myco na may kasamang ibang girl.
So wala na talaga sila ni Mika? How is she na kaya.. anyway, Denden kind of smile at him, which is ok lang naman. They're friends, right?
As usual, he glared at me. Pero not worth it. I have Denden naman eh.
Nagtaxi kami coz wala siyang dalang car. Then sa may tapat kami ng Village bumaba, we chose to walk nalang para naman masulit yung oras.
"Denden..yung kanina.. ano yung ibig mong sabihin?" I asked bravely.
"Anong kanina?"
"Yung.. inaavoid moko yesterday. Bakit?"
"Ahh, wala lang. Tinitignan ko kung kaya kong hindi ka makasama." OMG ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko."Ayun, I survived."
Napayuko ako nung sinabi niya yun. Akala ko naman positive. Well, positive nga naman, for her.
"Ahh.. ganun ba."
"Yup. Pero kaninang umaga, kaya ayaw kong pumasok kasi baka may magawa akong hindi maganda sayo. Yun yung rason kung bakit gusto kong magditch." tumawa siya ng mahina."But nung narinig kong kausap mo si Mika, nawala lahat ng plan ko."
What was her plan? Ano yung balak niyang gawin sakin kanina?
"Ano yung dapat gagawin mo sakin kanina?"
"Yakapin ka ng mahigpit." Nagstop siyang maglakad, so I did. "Yes, nakasurvived ako dun sa pag avoid ko sayo, pero namiss kita.. as in.. ay wait, hindi lang miss. I missed you, SO MUCH."
Hinampas ko siya ng mahina sa may balikat niya,"Sira ka talaga. Kung gusto mo pala akong yakapin, then why didn't you hug me? And why were you trying to avoid me when you know that you're going to miss me that bad?"
She pulled me again into a hug,"Stop nagging. I said it, didn't I? I lost.. I'm stupid."
Aw.. I'm in love with the Denden I'm hugging right now.
"You're not stupid. I was joking that time.." she pulled away then smiled at me. "Den.. lets stay like this forever.."
"Stupid. We can't. Pagtatawanan tayo ng mga tao. Iisipin nila baliw tayo.."
Who cares about what other people think?
"So? Anong pakialam nila? Edi gayahin nila tayo.. basta nothing's gonna stop us.."
"Tss. Ikaw talaga. Tara na nga." hinatid niya ako sa bahay at syempre, magkaholding hands kami.
Pagkahatid niya sakin, nag bye lang kami tapos umalis na siya.
Improving na kami n,gayon, akala ko hindi na kami magbabago eh. THANK GOD! Kahit na masama ugali niya, it doesn't matter. I love her.
Wednesday, my parents went to QC, they'll be staying there for a couple of days. May kamag-anak kasi kami dun. Kaya ayun, they want to visit them and give their pasalubong.
Fille and Gretch are finally dating. Bang naman is acting weird lately. She's been quiet and medyo moody.
Well, matagal na siyang tahimik, pero iba siya ngayon. Lalo na yung pagiging moody niya. Nung tuesday, she didn't attend their v-ball practice, tapos pumasok siya na may kalmot sa left cheek niya.
Tinanong ko si Denden, sabe niya, hindi niya daw alam. Hindi na raw sila masyadong nagkakasama ni Bang, since ako madalas niya kasama, at si Gretch naman kay Fille. I'm worried about her.
Thursday, nothing happened. Fille and Gretch ditched our class. Ella's pissed off because of her GIRLFRIEND. I didn't even know that she has a girlfriend. I thought straight siya.
Bang as usual is quiet. Myco.. well I don't see him that much nowadays so I guess, he's doing good?
Friday, October 13
It's been two days, since nung umalis sila Mom and Dad. I miss them so much. Ilang beses ko narin sinabi kila Denden yan, and I think medyo naaasar na sila. I don't get to see my parents that much you know. So please try to understand me.
"Den.. what do I do? I miss Mom and Dad.." niroll niya yung eyes niya. Speak up girlfriend!
"What kind of girlfriend are you? I said I miss my parents!"
"I KNOW! Narinig ko na yan ilang beses na ngayong araw!"
Bingo! She's pissed off. I pouted then nilagay ko yung hands ko sa may arm chair ko then pinatong yung ulo ko. (yung parang natutulog ka sa desk.)
"Sh*t." I heard her kicked the chair infront of her,"Tara na."
I raised my head and looked at her."What?"
Kinuha niya yung mga gamit ko tapos hinila niya ko."Gretch, sabihin mo sa teacher tinawag kami ni Aly ng Daddy ko."
Nag nod si Gretch.
Nagpunta kami sa locker niya tapos nilagay niya yung mga gamit ko sa loob, except for my bag.
Hinila nanaman niya ko sa may side stairs,"Saan tayo pupunta?! Denden bitawan moko!" hinila ko yung kamay ko sa pagkakahawak niya,"Ano bang problema mo?"
"I miss my parents! I miss my parents! I said I miss my parents! Nakakairita na! We're going to see your parents! Wag na tayo mag aksaya ng panahon, tara na!"
Gusto kong matawa dahil ginaya niya talaga ko dun sa part na 'I miss my parents' kaso baka magalit.
I smiled at her tapos this time, hinila ko naman siya pababa ng stairs,"TEKA LANG! WAG KA NAMAN MAGMADALI NG SOBRA SOBRA!"
We have reached the outside world of our village. Sumakay agad kami ng taxi then bumaba kami sa sakayan ng MRT. Omg! First time kong sasakay ng MRT.. first time ko din mag commute. Di na kasi kinuha ni Den yung car niya coz sayang daw ang oras. Psh
Guess what? THE TRAIN WAS FULL! Kaya nakatayo kaming dalawa! It was so crowded that halos sobrang magkadikit na kami. We had no choice. May nagkakatulakan sa gilid namin kaya medyo natutulak ako.
Denden suddenly placed her arm around me. First time na we were hugging in public. Pero hindi siya hug eh.. parang inaalalayan niya lang ako. Oh well. Nung bumaba na kami sa stop ng MRT, nag taxi na kami ulit.
Nakarating naman kami sa house ng uncle ko ng safe. My parents introduced Denden to our relatives, they were like,"Omg! She's so pretty. They are so bagay!" Wow.. compliment? I guess my family likes Denden, huh?
Well I don't like her anymore.. coz I love her na.
"Den.. sorry.. hindi ko naman alam na lahat pala sila nandito ngayong araw."
Nagsmile siya sakin,"Ok lang, atleast na-meet ko family mo. Uhuh. Gusto nila akong lahat. Even your cousins!"
I agree, yung mga pinsan kong boys panay tingin kay Denden. Aww. She's already taken cousins!
7 pm umuwi na kami ni Denden, ayoko pa talaga, pero I can't leave Denden alone.. hindi na kami nag commute, pinahatid kami ng uncle ko sa driver nila. And buong ride namin pauwi, hawak ni Denden yung kamay ko..
Babyden.. okay lang ba kung mahalin kita? I love you.. gusto kong sabihin sayo pero natatakot ako.. hindi ko alam kung saan ako natatakot..
Pag sinabi ko bang I love you, sasabihin mo bang I love you too? *Sigh*
Si Denden muna hinatid namin, pag stop namin sa tapat ng house niya, I've decided na sasabihin ko.
Whatever. Wala na akong pakialam sa sasabihin niya. Positive or negative, It doesn't matter. Kelangan niyang malaman yung nafefeel ko.
Binuksan ni Denden yung door ng car at bumaba kami pareho. "Sige na, umuwi kana. Papasok na rin ako. Goodnight.."
"Denden wait.." hinawakan ko yung kamay niya.." I have to tell you something really important."
"Ano yun?"
"I.. I.. I.."
"I, what?"
"I-I.. I love you."
Habang nakatingin ako sa kanya, hindi nagbago expression ng mukha niya.
"Ano kaba. Bakit ba masyado kang nagiging seryoso? Ok ka lang ba?" Ok, I wasn't expecting this kind of reply.
"Because I'm serious. Seryoso ako sa mga sinabi ko.. sa nafefeel ko.. I love you Den.."
She lightly poke my forehead,"Yung binitawan mong salita, parang katumbas ng pagsabing ayaw mo sa isang tao. Alam mo ba yun? Sige na. Umuwi kana. Goodnight.."
After my confession ganito nakuha ko. What's wrong with her? Just fvckin tell me if she doesn't feel the same way!
"You know what?! Fine! Just forget about everything that I have said! It meant nothing naman diba, kasi I was TOO SERIOUS! Just don't mock me about this. Sorry for feeling this way. Goodnight."
Tumalikod nako then nagstart na akong maglakad papunta sa car. Gusto kong tignan yung reaction niya! Nakakapikon siya. Ewan ko ba kung bakit ako nagkakaganito, eh sabi ko naman diba na wala akong pakialam sa kung anong sasabihin niya, positive or nagative.. it doesn't matter.. right?
I was about to open the door ng car pero nagsalita siya.."Ly wait.. I..." nakapause lang ako dun. Not moving.. not moving.. not moving..
"I.. I hate.. I hate you.."
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Dedicated to @Alyden_Ateneo213 :) Hi babyj! Ayan na. Hahaha! Sorry ang tagal, labyu. :*