"I mean...its not that big" I shrug awkwardly
"How is it not!!! You've seen the guy! Plus his status!" Yuuri squealed
"I figured you'd be mad?" I raise a brow
"Why would I be mad?? My bestie is fucking a pro h-"
"Shh!" I hush her covering her mouth, "I don't need everyone and their dog to know, plus it was only once...so far"
"Why not?? This is big news. You gotta share the details" she wiggled her brows
Oh how it would destroy her to find out he is a subby little bitch.
"I prefer not to kiss and tell too much. Id rather keep it private"
"You're no fun, how long have you been dating?"
"We aren't dating for one. Two remember that luncheon? It was 2 weeks after that"
"A months ago!?" She screeched
"Not so loud" I scold.
"I can't believe you kept this from me" she whisper yelled
"You never asked" I shrug. She suddenly started squealing, "ow. Oh my God what?" I cover my ears at the high pitch
"Oi" Hawks voice drew my attention behind me
"Oh, hey" I greet
He slid into the booth beside me with a smirk, "Im glad I found you again" he looked over the table and smiled grabbing a sip of my drink, "Yum"
"Hawks" I growl, "Lay off my drink" I pull it far away from him
"Come on, what about that sharing is caring bull crap?"
"And what if I don't care"
"But I know you do" he smiled a feather suddenly dropping my phone into his hand.
"Wait- how did you?"
"And my number is in your contacts. His phone vibrated as he passed my phone back. He texted himself so he got my number as well.
"Hawks, I'm like, your biggest fan" Yuuri smiled
"Yuuri right? (Y/N) has talked about you" Hawks smiled
Bullshit. Last time we talked was before he passed out in the hotel room. I went home that morning before he woke up.
"(Y/N), can I talk to you in private?"
I excuse us and we went to the alley just outside, "Hawks-"
"Why did you leave?" He scoffed looking scornful
"You didn't wake up by 10" I shrug
"You didn't even leave your number...you said we could do it again sometime" he mumbled, "You didn't have to leave..."
He looks...nervous. A puppy dog look like I just abandoned him.
He scratched the back of his hand, "I mean I get it you had to go but like- we aren't done right? I thought maybe you'd come back but that was stupid and I get it- you just didn't leave a note and would like to know if I should expect more or- are we done? I get it if we are but like- you know i am fine just being on the side cause like- you know" he muttered
He really does look hurt. To him.i guess i did abandon him. I open my arms and he didn't hesitate to come in for a hug, "Im sorry. I won't leave next time ok?"
"Can...can we go to your place for next time?"
I don't like that...but I feel a bit like I owe him...what are we? If I'm taking a guy home I kinda want a label, "Sure baby"
He melted into the embrace at the name. Fuck it. I don't need a label right now. Whatever this is.
Imma kill him. I huff staring at my phone laying just out of reach. Its 3am so why the fuck is he texting me? I finally put in the effort to grab my buzzing phone.
<BirdBrain>
Hey
Hey
(Y/N)
Baby
Honey
Sweetie
What the hell? Honey? Hawks I don't have the brain power right now to deal with this. Brat thinks it's ok to text me at 3am.
What?
Hey
Hawks what the fuck?
I miss you
Are you drunk?
<attachment sent>
Oh god...I open the image to see him slung over someone looking completely wasted. The flush on his face and the whiskey in his hand being enough proof.
Go home
Make me
Oh I will if I need to
They don't believe me
What? Who is he talking about? Who is they? Also where is open at 3am??
Who?
They don't think you're real! Say I'm making that shit up.
A second later my phone rings and I pick up less than amused.
"Hawks, go home"
"See! She's real. Real as can be" he hummed. I can hear chatting in the background. I'm definitely on speaker.
"Hawks, turn off the speaker"
I give him a moment, "Ok" he responds
"Are you with someone who can take you home?"
"I can still fly" he mumbled
"I don't want you flying while drunk" I sigh, "Do you have someone to take care of you? You need to go home"
"I don't want to" he pouted
I hear a sudden scuffle and a voice go through the speaker, "Hey, if you give me your address I'll drop him off"
Who the fuck is this guy? "Its fine. I'll drive over there to pick him up"
I hear some noise, people are talking but I can't make out what they are saying before the other guy spoke again, "I'll meet you with him at south mart over in K district"
The mart? Arent they at a bar??? Why can't i- you know what. Nevermind. I can't care, "Ok" I hang up and get mostly dressed before driving there.
When I arrive there is a guy in a black hooded jacket... why the fuck is he wearing sun glasses in the middle of the night? "This your idiot?" He motioned to the avian hero looking half passed out leaning on the bench.
"Appearently" I sigh, "Thanks a lot, I got it from here"
The man waved off before turning down an alley. What the fuck kinda friends do you have Hawks? Doesn't matter. I kneel infront of him to catch his eye.
"Hey, you feeling ok?"
He focused on me and smiled lazily, "You came"
"Of course I did baby" I lightly take his hand watching how he tilted his head to rest his cheek on his shoulder, "Come on, let's get you home"
"Can I go home with you?" He whined
"Don't you wanna sleep in your own comfy bed" I try
He shook his head. Of course. This is what I was honestly expecting at least. I carefully get him up and help him to the car.
"I wanna stay with you tonight" he mumbled as I buckled him in.
"Can you tell me your address?"
He whined, "No"
Yup... just as I figured, "Fine. Just for tonight"
"Yay" he he smiled so fucking genuinely my heart throbbed.
The drive was quiet other than Hawks nonsensical humming. Getting him out of the car and inside was fairly easy. Getting him to down a bottle of water was even pretty simple. Getting him to bed was a new challenge.
"Come on" he whined tugging my arm
"No, I'm going to the couch, now you get some sleep"
He gave a high pitch whine of protest, "Pleeease"
"Not tonight" I try to pry his hand off but the other came to his aid
"Please please please"
"Hawks, go to bed" I huff pulling a more demanding voice
He whined but let go pouting. I pushed him back down and pulled the blanket over him.
"Just till I fall asleep?"
"No"
"Can I get a kiss goodnight?" Boy, I swear. I kiss his cheek but he whined again, "On the lips"
"Don't push your luck"
He huffed but I could see him fighting to keep his eyes open. It didn't take long for him to pass out before I even left the room.
I head to the couch since a guest room is not available. Then again I don't believe it much matters as I lay down and pass out.
I wake up to ruffling. What could be causing that? It stopped and I disregarded it until I hear a soft snore.
I open my eyes to see Hawks appears to have decided the couch is comfier. The small, quite cramped couch. I guess if I was to be talking about what he is laying on, the couch would be inaccurate as his head is on my chest. He is snoozing away laying on me with the large blanket from the bed draped over us.
"Birdbrain" I huff
He hummed seeming to be waking up, "Where did you find me last night?" He hummed
"You were at a bar but your buddy met me at a mart so I could grab you"
"Did you tell them your address?"
"No?" I raise an eyebrow at the question
"Good" he sighed not moving still.
"Comfy?"
"Very" he hummed
"You were supposed to sleep in the bed"
"And you were supposed to sleep with me"
"You were pretty drunk last night"
"Could have been worse. I didn't do anything stupid right?"
"Called me at 3am"
"Could have been worse"
"Oh?"
"All my memories entail me talking about you, that's a lot better than anything else I could have said"
"Talking about me huh?"
"What can I say? I'm a loving drunk"
"You kinda pissed me off you know"
He hummed, "But you'll get over it cause I'm cute" he chuckled starting to lightly bite at my chest.
I grab him by the hair and pull to pull his head back to face me, "Will I?"
He whined but scooted up, "Kiss?"
"You haven't brushed your teeth"
"So?"
"You smell like a bottle of whiskey"
"Close but it was tequila actually"
"You held a whiskey bottle in the pic you sent me"
"Ok well then it started with tequila" he corrected
"How long till you decided to join me out here?"
"Good question. I don't know. I can't tell you how I even got here though. I just remember getting up to take a piss and getting confused when I didn't recognize the room"
"You were pretty behaved for a blackout drunk" I pat his head
"Its a skill" he shrugged getting up to stretch
"I have an extra toothbrush under the sink im pretty sure"
"Sweet" he headed that direction while I got up.
Morning was peaceful. I made coffee and everything was...domestic? I expected a lot worse having Hawks over.
Wait...nevermind, "Hawks. Use the coaster"
"Make me"
"Hawks" I give a warning tone
"Or what" he chugs the coffee before putting the cup on the bare wood table
He's fucking asking for it, "Do you want a punishment?"
"Punishment?" He raised a brow
Sweet sweet boy...no, just innocent brat. I straddle his lap seeing his sudden excitement. I ghost my lips over his relishing in the way he leans in as I move just out of range. Once he started pushing farther I set a hand on his throat to keep him back.
"You are REALLY cute, you know that?"
His breath got shakey as he nodded.
"Aw, did you lose your words? Come on baby, keep being a fucking pain in my ass"
He whimpered gripping my thighs tugging them to get them a bit closer.
"You want something baby? Better speak up" I sit up on my knees over him.
He whined tugging on my hips to cone back down, "Pl...please?"
"Aw, pretty word there but please what?"
"Can...can you please do that thing again?"
'That thing' oh my God. You are so fucking cute I swear, "You work today?"
"No"
"You up for some fun?" I move my hands from his throat to his hair scratching his scalp soothingly.
"Please?"
"Lets take this to the bedroom baby" It was when he sat down a sudden startling thought came to mind, "Hawks...are you a virgin?"
"Huh?? No"
At first glance I would have guessed so but...he acts differently? Is he just shy? Plus last time it happened so fast. I didn't even touch him and he came. What's his deal?
I hum curiously but he pulled me towards the bed with him. I straddle him again pulling up his shirt, "can I take this off?"
He pulled it off himself looking a bit smug as I admire his chest, "like what you see?"
"Got any issues with marks?"
"Nothing above the collar" he specified
"So bossy" I tease
"I gotta be with you" he chuckled
"I guess you're right" I run my nails down his chest moving back to his wings.
"N-not the wings again" he flushed real pretty
"Aw, why not?" I pet them with light touches
"I...I didn't last very long last time" he mumbled shyly
"Thats fine" I peck his lips, "I liked watching you come undone"
He whimpered when I buried my hand in the soft feathers making his hips twitch under me. I watch his jaw tense. Ah yes, the moaning thing. I nearly forgot.
I kiss him until he started relaxing before moving to an open mouth kiss. Once he seemed fully enthralled I scratch his wing lightly.
The result was a deeper trilling moan. That is way hotter than it should be, "Good boy" I praise against his lips, "do it again?" I repeated the action listening to him try to keep his mouth shut but fail, "There we go, such a pretty moan"
His face is the same shade as his wings again. Fucking cute
His hands tug at my hips again and I indulge him grinding down. Fuck. Imma fuck him. I've decided it. I press on his chest forcing him to lay down, "If you don't want this i need you to tell me now"
"Please fuck me"
I smile undoing his belt. He helped quickly discard his pants. I tossed mine and finally paid attention to his hard length, "already leaking?"
He flushed looking away, "Can't help it, I've never been this hard around anyone before"
I grab a condom from my side drawer and roll it on him, "Oh? Well trained" I straddle him teasing the tip lightly. It may be a bad idea to go unpreped but I am pretty wet and pent up, "why are you getting all shy huh?" I grab his chin so he can face me.
He scrunched his face shutting his eyes. No no no, I wanna watch this.
"Eyes open baby" I lightly slap his face.
Once his eyes open I sink down watching his eyes go hooded and struggle to stay open his eyebrows pinching. They just about cross as his mouth falls open in a silent scream. A broken groan comes from his chest as he shivers.
Fuck...I was so focused on him I didn't realise how much he took my breath away. He's in my guts and I'm not even all the way. I sink all the way down and hum trying to adjust.
His nails bite into the fat of my hips while he pressed his head back with a whine.
"You ok baby?" I kiss his face lightly
"Please move, please" he keened
I start riding and its mesmerizing watching his feathers fluff and shudder. His moans and trills. How his hips desperately thrust upward to meet mine.
"You're so cute" I mumble increasing my pace watching his eyes close and face scrunch.
Can I make him babble? Fuck, I would love to see that again. I didn't see how much his chest and shoulders flush last time either. I start to roll my hips with my thrusts.
"F-fuck!" He gripped the pillow under his head with one hand trying to bury his face in it.
"Good boy" I coo stratching at his chest admiring the red lines it left
"I-im gonna- fuuu- s-slow down" he whined tensing
"You can cum baby"
He relaxed more his hand still on my hip encouraging me, "H-haah, -arder, please, pl- h- aah, harder ple- please" he moaned
I do so watching his back arch up. His eyes roll back before he slams them shut catching his lip between his teeth. His hand on my hip pressed me down making me stop.
He whimpered shaking. He kept whimpering but wasn't taking a breath in, "I need you to breathe baby, breathe" he finally took a few deeper stuttered breathes still whimpering, "Good, good boy"
"I-im sorry I-"
"No apologies-"
He flinched...he flinched? Why would he flinch? No...I pull him up pulling him into a gentle kiss.
He melted into the kiss his hand cupping my face. I smile cupping his face with both my hands giving light passionate pecks. Poor thing.
I felt him get hard and grind up into me. I smirk into the kiss and go back to riding, gentler this time. I widen my legs and take him a fraction deeper and moan against his lips. That's the spot.
He groaned in response and I weaved a hand in his hair giving light tugs. Fuck he feels so good. I press my face into his shoulder knowing I'm getting close. Fuck I want him to finish again. The moment I tipped over the edge I grabbed his wings and bit into his shoulder. Feeling him shutter against me moaning loudly...definitely getting a noise complaint. So worth it though.
He wrapped his arms around me tightly tucking his head in the crook of my neck best he could. He leaned into me and soon relaxed nearly going limp in my arms.
I pulled off and moved back to sit on his thighs. He looked up at me with a dopey grin.
"We should get you cleaned up" I swipe at the bit of sweat slicked hair sticking to his face but he just hid his face again in my neck.
"Can we cuddle for a bit first?"
"Of course baby" I run my fingers up and down his back careful of his wings soothingly.
(This chapter was long but next will have the rest of aftercare and some backstory!)