Y/N's POV
i pick up the phone and i see Kehlani walking in circles outside.
"what do you want?"
"please, please just listen to me."
"what is there to listen to?"
"me. listen to me."
"i've seen everything that i've needed to, what do you have to say?"
"everything."
"you're not making sense right now."
"my bad."
"yes, your bad. your bad made us end up like this."
"please just listen to me, please."
"no, i don't want to right now."
i hung up on her mid sentence and drove faster from the emotions i was feeling in the moment.
i really can't believe that this happened. i knew i wasn't going crazy. i don't even know what to say right now. this woman, who i've been in love with, so many years, even got married to her, does me like this?
i never thought that this day would come. i thought the love we had for each other was real. you would never even think something like this could happen. you could just tell we were so in love.
i look at my phone since i'm at a red light and all i see are messages from her.
"pick your phone up"
"call me back"
"answer me please"
"text me"
"can we talk please? i just want you to listen"
saying all this, but she doesn't even bother to say "i'm sorry"?
to be honest, that's probably the only i want to hear from her. just an apology.
Lani's POV
"hey y'all." i want back to the table and sit down.
"what the fuck is wrong with you?" Bri said.
they know.
"no for real, what were you doing? please tell me this is all a joke." Destin said.
"i'm sorry."
"don't say sorry to us, say sorry to y/n. your wife. did you even try to apologize to her?"
i looked down cause i knew this was about to go left.
"are you serious? you didn't even say sorry to the one you hurt the most? that's so fucked up."
"nah, it's more than fucked up." Bri said.
"i've been trying to call her, she won't answer. i've been texting her, she won't answer."
"are you sure?"
"she answered once."
"what happened?"
"i was tryna explain, but she wouldn't listen."
"and why do you think that is?"
"because she saw."
"saw what?"
"what happened."
"sucks to be you, cause she's answering my texts." Destin said.
"where is she?" Bri asked.
"she's at the house. she told me she just got there."
"try calling her, see if she answers."
"okay."
the phone started ringing and she picked up.
"hey Destin."
"hey girl, what are you about to do?"
"about to get some things then go to see B."
"she's leaving?" i whispered to him.
"you're leaving?"
"for a little bit. you know, just to clear my mind."
oh shit.
"are you okay?"
"yes, i'm fine."
"you sure?"
"no. i could go and cry to be honest, but..."
i snatched Destin's phone from him and stood up.
"give me my shit back. actually, you know what? keep it, i wanna see what happens."
"y/n."
"what do you want from me?"
"i want your time."
"fine, but i'm not talking to you over a phone. come back before i leave."
"okay, thank you, baby."
"bye."
she hung up and i gave Destin back his phone.
"what are you standing there for? go!" Bri said.
"bye y'all, bring my baby home after you're done."
"how you gon get there?" Destin asked.
"i'm gonna drive my ca- oh shit."
"exactly."
"give me your keys." i told Bri.
"here. don't lose them or i'll hurt you." she tossed them to me.
"i won't."
"hurry up, you gon be late." Destin said.
"okay." i ran to her car, started it, then quickly drove back home.
i looked at my phone and i saw a text from Dez.
"hi baby."
i unlocked my phone real quick and texted her back.
"i am not your baby, leave me alone."
i sent the text to her then blocked her on everything as soon as a got to the red light.
i can't believe this shit. not even i thought i would do some shit like that.
i betrayed the love of my life. i don't even expect her to forgive me, but i want to talk one last time before she goes.
10 minutes later, i got to the house and ran to unlock the door, but it wasn't locked.
i opened the door and ran upstairs to see her.
"y/n/n."
"hi."
"can i talk to you now that i know i have somewhat of your attention?"
"yeah, what's up?"
i walked over and sat on the bed and looked at her.
"i'm sorry, okay? i know that's probably not enough for you, but i'm sorry."
"that's what i wanted."
"what do you mean?"
"i wanted an apology."
"there's so much more i need to say. can you stop what you're doing and just look at me?"
she looked up and her eyes looked glossy.
"i'm listening to you, Keh. go on."
i took a deep breath then started to speak.
"so i went to the bathroom, and then i saw Dez standing there."
"i don't care about all of that, i just wanna know what led up to you know what."
"heard you. so i told her how i wasn't feeling the best cause you felt like i was lying to you, which i would never do."
"okay, then what?"
"she started getting real close, and i didn't want to push her cause i didn't wanna be rude."
"did you say anything?"
"i tried to, but before i could finish what i was about to say, she grabbed my face and started kissing me."
"you didn't try and move away from her?"
"no."
"why not?"
"i don't know. she just made me feel so comfortable in the moment, i didn't know what else to do."
"so, you can talk to other people about how you're feeling, but not me?"
"i wanted to talk, but you made me feel like i was doing something wrong when i knew i wasn't."
"what happened to reassurance? something we both promised to each other from the start? it would've been so much of a better decision to do than go and do whatever it is that you did."
"and i get that. you're totally right, i should have went to you and only you cause you know best. i'm sorry."
"don't ever do some shit like that to me again, cause next time i find out, you're gonna wish that you never met me."
"i won't, i promise."
"good."
"so, are we good now?"
"what? no. i still need time away from you, i don't even want to look at you honestly, you really hurt me, and that's something i thought you would never do."
"i understand, i wasn't expecting forgiveness anyway because even i couldn't believe it. i'll keep saying it over and over again until we're good. i'm sorry."
"it's gon take a long time until that day." she zipped up her suitcase and stood up.
"when are you gonna come back?" i stood up and walked over to her.
"when i feel the need to, so that may be hours, days, weeks, or months from now."
"months?"
"i'm playing with you, but just know you won't expect me."
"i'll always expect you."
"mhmm. well, i'm gonna go now, it was nice talking to you i guess."
"are you gonna stay at a hotel? i can pay for it, whatever you want."
"thank you, but no. imma stay with B for a bit, it's been a minute since i've seen her anyway, so this will be good."
"okay. let me know if you need anything, i'll get you whatever you need."
"i will, thank you."
"are you sure you don't wanna stay and just talk things out?"
"yes i'm sure."
"i'm gonna miss you."
"didn't seem like that when you was in that bathroom. do you miss her too? maybe you should call her when i leave so you have someone to lay next to tonight."
"i won't be doing that."
"why not?"
"i blocked her, i just had to."
"i don't believe anything you say anymore."
"look for yourself." i gave her my phone and she unlocked it.
"what am i supposed to be looking at?"
"messages, instagram, whatever else is on there that i had her on."
she looked through and saw that i blocked her.
"okay then. but why? you tryna prove something to me?"
"yup. i want you to know that you're who i want. what i did today is more than fucked up, i know that, and i want to do everything to show you that."
"keep proving yourself."
"alright."
"can you give me my keys, please?"
"here you go." i passed them to her.
"can i get a hug before you leave?"
"yeah." i wrapped my arms around her and held her.
"i'm sorry, baby."
"i know you are."
"come back soon."
"i'll think about it."
"okay."
she let go after a few seconds and looked at me.
"anything else you need to say to me before i leave?"
"mhmm."
"what?"
"i love you."
"are you lying?"
"no."
"i love you too."
"surprised to hear that."
"yeah yeah, whatever." she got her suitcase and started walking downstairs. i followed her.
"i'll help you." i opened the door and we both walked outside to her car.
i put her suitcase in the backseat and closed the door.
"if i call you later, will you pick up?"
"i don't know. maybe i will, maybe i won't."
"imma still try."
"okay."
"imma let you go now."
"okay."
i hugged her one more time.
"bye."
"bye, Lani."
she walked to the driver's side, opened the car, and got in.
she started it then left.
i really hope that she comes back soon. i cant live without my baby.
chapter 18 coming soon🍯.
hey y'all, i've been working on this all day. so many things i messed up.
how are y'all tho? it's been a long time, my bad on that😭
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i finally have motivation again, so the next chapter will be out soon
Grieving been sounding a little too good lately, i wonder why
i don't know what is destined for the last 3 chapters, feel free to let me know if you have any suggestions, i'm open to them
i love y'all, have a great day🤍