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Chapter Seven
It was Saturday.
My hand was hurting, I was tired. And I felt sort of miserable.
I wanted to sleep in, but I wanted to get up. I was a confused person.
I just sort of stared at the wall while eating cereal. I liked cereal.
I liked walls.
My sister had a conversation with me, and I didn’t...i didn’t listen to it.
I wasn’t in the mood for any of it.
All I could see was them together; I knew she was with me last night. But she was with him for legit.
I hoped I had busted up his face pretty good.
I shook my head.
Then I went outside.
Then I went inside.
And decided I wanted to be outside.
And when I got outside,
She was there.
And I really wished I was back inside.
But I was outside.
And facing her. And I was nervous. And I needed to pee.
And I just stared because I had nothing to say to her.
She had tears in her eyes. I felt a pain in my heart.
She came to me and wrapped her arms around my waist and cried into my chest.
I hugged her. But stayed silent.
I didn’t know what to do when girls cried. So I stood there awkwardly.
That’s when she whispered, “I hate you.”
Which made me laugh.
I knew she was talking about her little boyfriend. And I knew she felt guilty about spending the night with me, frankly I could give a care less. She did what she wanted.
It dawned to me after she left that, well; this is what I did to girls on a daily basis.
This is what I made them feel.
Worthless.
And I figured that I deserved this.
The one girl I loved and well, she was gone.
She was my best friends. And I was no ones.
I liked the feeling of being with her.
The next few days went on like a drag. I was upset through most of them and stayed home, until Wednesday.
That’s when I went back.
People stared at me, and I didn’t smile. I didn’t approach them; I went straight to the library.
Since I had met this girl, my life had turned.
She was like a parasite.
She ruined my perfect self and replaced it with a depressed, quiet kid.
The old me was being eaten alive. It was being destroyed and I didn’t know what I could possibly do about it.
I didn’t even know if I wanted to do anything about it.
My mind was consumed with Calluh.
I couldn’t concentrate on anything but her.
I would be happy about it, if I actually got to be with her.
It took me a while to notice she was right there, and I sort of jumped.
She smiled a little. I didn’t.
And that’s when it started.