“I’m the lucky one here”...
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Addison Cullen didn’t know what to think or even feel as she blankly stared at the letter, she was overwhelmed with anger and sadness as her tight grip on the paper loosened and it slowly floated to the ground like everything was in slow motion… Jasper’s words harshly pounded and pounded against her skull like a jackhammer to cement and without thinking she spun around on her heels and kicked the wooden dresser making it topple to the ground with a crash that was loud enough to be heard from wherever Jasper was…
The vampire guests downstairs in the warm study all jumped at the sudden and loud noises, looking up at the ceiling with concern as the sound of glass shattering echoed through the home followed by a pained cry, it had finally happened, Addison had finally broke…
“Uh excuse me”... Carlisle politely excused himself from the study before flashing up the stairs where the breaking noises continued to grow… “Let’s give them some space, come on” Esme gestured all of their friends and guests out of the study, glancing up at the ceiling one last time…
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Carlisle Cullen froze like a statue in the open doorway when he saw Addison standing in the middle of hers and Jasper’s shared bedroom, venom tears pooling down her cheeks and her golden eyes filled with sorrow… “Oh honey”... He whispered like if he spoke any louder it would further shatter her like the broken mirror she had shattered with just her hands…
“I really want to hate him daddy”... Her voice was a barely audible whisper as she stared at her father, and Carlisle knew she was really hurting, she only ever called him daddy when she was vulnerable or exhausted on a normal day, he was just dad or Lisle…
“I wanna hate him so b-bad, I wanna hate them both… they left me alone, they ran away together and I wanna hate them but I just can’t… I can’t hate him or h-her and it h-hurts”...
“I- I can’t bring myself to hate him, why can’t I h-hate him”... Addison fell to her knees with heart-wrenching sobs escaping her mouth and Carlisle didn’t waste any time as he rushed forward, falling to the floor with her as he pulled her into his arms, her hands wrapping around his arm as uncontrollable sobs rattled her body...
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“Shush shush shh I’ve got you dear” Carlisle gently soothed her cries, holding her close and safe in his arms, out of all of his children, Addison was the one who almost always called Carlisle and Esme mom and dad, she saw them as her real parents…
Addison didn’t remember her real parents; all she knew was her father was a sick monster and her mother was some pure angel… Carlisle and Esme were all she had, they were all she needed when it came to parents, they were her real Mom and Dad…
“W-why does it hurt s-so much, it’s not f-fair”. Carlisle once again gently shushed his daughter’s sobs rocking back and forth with her in his arms just allowing her to cry, he was just allowing her to let out everything she had tried so so hard to bottle up because she thought she needed to protect Renesmee and Bella but she needed the relief that came with crying, she needed to feel emotion, she needed the comfort, she needed her parents…
“Shush, shush, I’ve got you, my dear, I’ve got you, everything is going to be okay, I promise”...
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Esme gently weaved her fingers through Addison’s wet brown locks, humming a classical song under her breath as some random re-run of looney tunes played on the TV. Addison’s venom tears had dried up a while ago now she was stuck staring blankly at the wall, her head resting on her mother’s shoulder…
“Does it ever go away mommy… the pain, I mean?” Addison’s voice was nothing but a small whisper reminding Esme of a small vulnerable child… she remembered the heartbreaks, the feeling of your trust shattering into itty-bitty tiny pieces, the feeling of being broken beyond belief but trying to stay strong for everyone else, keeping up a facade...
“Oh my love”... She didn’t know what to say because she knew there was nothing she could really do or even say to make her daughter feel better, only Jasper could heal those wounds…
Esme let out a small sigh, deciding to pull some pieces of wisdom from her own personal experiences, anything to help out her broken daughter… “My love, you’re feelings matter, and don’t you dare let anyone tell you they don’t matter, of course, they hurt but they won’t kill you and shoving them down only makes matters worse, and I know it doesn’t seem like it right now but things will get better”...
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“I may not know what was going through Jasper and Alice’s heads when they decided to leave but I am sure that they had a good reason but I know that doesn’t help your pain, there’s really nothing that can help that right now but what I can tell you is smile, laugh, go play with Renesmee, go wrestle with Emmett and Garrett just because you can… and if you're not ready to move yet then I’ll sit here”.
“I’ll sit right here and I’ll listen for as long as you need me to listen, I’ll hold you while you cry if that’s what you need, and because I’m your mother I’m gonna make sure to have a very long talk with the boy who made my daughter cry, and I know for a fact that he was raised better”.
Addison chuckled lightly through watery tears making Esme smile at the sound as she pulled her closer, “listen to me my love, relationships are difficult, it takes a lifetime of experiences and then some to learn these things, I’ll be honest with you, there are still some days when I am far from the best wife, but your father and I are still going strong centuries later”.
“Relationships are hard, love is messy, it leaves you vulnerable and scared, and it is the highest of highs and the lowest of lows, and yet people choose to do it again every single day because it’s worth the pain”...
“And if you think even for a second that Jasper doesn’t love you then you’re the wrong one because that boy is completely head over heels for you, I’ve seen the way he stares at you, that’s the kind of love fairytales are even jealous of seeing, and I know for a fact you two will get through this little speed bump”.
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“How did I end up with a mother like you?” Addison asked leaning further into her mother’s side, making Esme smile down at her lovingly, “I’m the lucky one here, I ended up with a daughter like you”.
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A/n~ Here we go a cute little mother-daughter moment and a sad/cute little father-daughter moment which always makes my heart happy because I honestly feel like Esme and Carlisle are the best parents to their children.
Also, I wanna thank you guys for being so understanding with me and thank you for the sweet comments, I really really appreciated it, <3.
And on that note, I hope you enjoyed this chapter and please feel free to leave any comments or criticism <3 Jade