It has been a few days since I found out about the mafia and everything had been going good actually.
My days have been the same except for training.
Training is mostly just with my brothers, I just learn how to fight, shoot a gun, throw knifes,.. it's actually really fun.
Eating has been going better I think.
Now with the extra training and my body being used to eating at certain times, I'm starting to get hungry when I'm supposed to eat, I guess that's a good sign.
I still haven't cut either which you guys would think is a good thing, but honestly it doesn't feel right.
It's like now that I'm not doing it, my body and mind are saving and waiting until I'll explode and cut so much that I don't know if I would survive.
I'm trying not too but it's been hard.
When I first went in the weapon room, I might have had a panic attack.
Why?
Because some of those weapons, they used to hurt and scare me.
Allesandro who was with me at the time guided me through the attack and helped me calm down.
That day we didn't do any training or anything because it didn't feel good and stuff to do it.
He understood why and I just learned some stuff about the weapons and how they work and stuff.
Right now I'm packing for the yearly family trip.
If you don't know what it is, it's basically just a two week family trip. Where we are all together in one mansion with our own rooms though and just be there for Christmas.
We will spend Christmas and New Years there.
Elijah is helping me pack, because I didn't know what to bring so that's that I guess.
At Christmas Eve, we have to attend a mafia ball with our allies and stuff, why?...don't ask me, I don't know.
"Lijah!?"
"Yeah?"
"Can I bring books?"
"Of course, you know you should get your brothers to read a book. They hate reading they never do it, not even for school." He chuckled.
I laughed with him and started packing some books.
I definitely also packed my laptop, for the hacking courses.
I finished the one for beginners, so I am now doing another harder one.
The mansion that we were going to is a few hours away from here so we all decided to just take a little road trip to get there.
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We finally arrived at the mansion and got settled in.
The road trip was pretty fun, we just talked, laughed and slept until we got here.
I have my own room, but like always one of my brothers would come sleep with me every night to prevent the nightmares.
We are now making dinner for us all.
And by we, I mean my aunts, grandma and me.
"Little dove, can you start setting the table when you're finished cutting the vegetables?" Grandma asked
"Sure" I agreed
Around a minute later, I was done cutting the last few pieces of vegetables.
So I brought the plates too aunt Adira before making my way to the dining room with the plates and stuff.
Arriving in the dining room, I sat everything down before arranging it all.
I worked out this morning on my own and with my brothers after so I didn't need to do anything anymore today.
Finishing setting everything in place, my aunts and grandma came with pots and pans filled with food for us all.
"Honey can you call the others down for food?" Aunt Valencia asked.
"Okay" I smiled back returning hers.
I walked away to the main living room where I called my uncles, grandpa and dad for dinner before walking to the gaming room.
This place is gigantic and for your knowledge, I get breathless by walking up the stairs, I have no condition, which means that now walking to the gaming room is....a workout.
I walked inside but not before knocking on the door, "dinner's ready can y'all come down?"
Hearing the word dinner they all shot up and ran downstairs, "boys I swear" I muttered under my breath.
I walked to the last place to get the last ones of my brothers and cousins.
They were all just talking, about what? I don't know, in one of the living rooms.
Again I knocked before entering.
I walked inside to where they were standing.
"Hey bambima, what's up?"
"Nothing much, but dinners ready" I announced.
"coming"
Allesandro scooped me up in his arms and than walked out of the room with the others following.
Since the panic attack a few days ago, Allesandro has been a little more protective and clingy than usual.
I don't mind at all, because I'm the most clingy person you'll ever meet, only with people I know well though.
When we arrived downstairs, Allesandro placed me in a random chair and than sat next to me.
In front of me, the amount of food that I was supposed to eat was already placed down by dad.
He gave me an encouraging smile and kissed my head before sitting down himself.
As soon as the last person sat down they all began eating.
As I said before, every now and then I'm starting to get hungry, but today just hasn't been it with eating.
Try,
Try,
Just try I kept reminding myself.
I took a small bite and than another while others started making conversations with me to get my mind of off the food.
It helped, it helped a lot actually and I think they know that too by now.
Before I knew it, I was almost done eating.
"Val?" Aunt Valencia asked me, grabbing my attention.
"Yeah?" I said back.
"C-..Can I ask you something?"
"Sure" I said hesitantly.
That sentence never means anything good.
Breathe Val, breathe.
I kept saying in my head over and over.
"So remember last family dinner, when you got to see Atlas back for the first time in a long one?"
"Did something happen to him?" I asked worried.
"No, no calm down. He's fine, but I've been sitting with this question for a couple of days now. But I didn't want to seem arrogant or in-considering asking it."
"Ask away" don't let it be bad please don't let it be something bad.
"So, remember when you were explaining about how Amy..euhm, disappeared. Well when you were explaining it, you said that they tracked you. How,..I mean, how did they track you? Did they follow you..or? This question has just really been on my mind and I'm just really confused about how they did that you know." She asked.
I had been for hours at Amy's when they barged through the door.
They couldn't have followed me, they weren't even at the house yet.
It doesn't make any sense.
How did they? I-
They tracked me but how?
Suddenly a forgotten memory flashed in my mind, making me relive one of the most horrible days of my life.