Poetry of a lost teen

she has no clue

I wonder if its visible
The fear on my face
My breathing its pace
The scarse in my lungs
The rhythm of my heart
The tears I hold inside
My lips how they tremble
my foots consistent tap
My throats blocked
No gap
I gasp for air
People stare
A girl approaches me
A girl from school
I cant control this
Or keep my cool
I hold on
For dear life
Looking around for help insite
I'm tearing up
And clearly blue
Though I manage to smile
She has no clue
The thoughts I'm thinking
My heart beat sinking
My hands still twitching
My whole mind glitching
I doubt itd stop
It never will
I'll try my best
To avoid the pill
~H1