Previously...
Suga: Y/n-aah please open the door. It's just me. (still knocking; caring; worried tone)
Gap
Suga: Y/n, Sugar? I need you to open the door. Please? I don't know what you are going through right now and I don't know what exactly just happened but I want to help you. You are my sister and I love you. Please... Open the door.
Y/n opened the door just a bit and said.......
Now Y/n Pov:
After Jin-shii let go of my hand, I quickly went upstairs not caring that I forgot my phone downstairs. I was not going to slip in front of them. As soon as I reached my room I ran to my dresser, not forgetting to lock the door. I felt like I was at the thin line between both sides and I did not want to slip. I began searching my dresser for it in panic. I couldn't find it anywhere. I began to topple over everything that was on top of it and I began to throw out everything that was inside it... Finally... I got it
... a blade. Aso soon as I found it. I gripped it tightly in my hands and was about to up it on my skin when...
I heard Yoongi-shii...
When I heard his soft and soothing voice and the worry lacing his tone...
I began to slip... I was on the edge of that thin line which was the only support I had, I was about to fall but I refused to let them know. I refused to be weak. I couldn't be a stupid weak bitch, especially not in front of them. I made one cut, then another, and another, going deeper as I kept going with Yoongi-shii continuously knocking on my door. As I was about to make my fourth cut, he stopped, but I didn't. I needed to get rid of the pain. I needed to feel something.
After a small gap, he began knocking again. What he said this time, made me stop what I was doing, it brought tears to my eyes. He said:
Suga: Y/n, Sugar? I need you to open the door. Please? I don't know what you are going through right now and I don't know what exactly just happened but I want to help you. You are my sister and I love you. Please... Open the door.
I can't say that I didn't like the new nickname... I loved it! When he called me his sister it reminded me of them. I just wanted to run outside and hug him tightly. I felt as if I was in a trance and I was about to open the door but suddenly, I looked down at my bleeding arm and then around my room which was a total mess
I opened the door just a bit and said:
Y/N: Yoongi-shii I am fine. Please go away. (shaken, slow tone; slightly cold tone)
Honestly, I didn't want him to go but I couldn't let him see all of this.
Suga: Y/n I am not going away. Please let me in. (firm, calm, caring, worried tone)
I could tell by his tone that he was not going away no matter what. I was still shaken up by what just happened but I decided to let him in so I said:
Y/n: Fine... But... Please give me a minute.
Suga: Ok. But I am waiting right here. Take your time. I'm gonna be here until you open the door.
I just closed the door again and quickly cleaned the blood on the dresser and the floor. I hid the knife again I just picked up everything that was on the floor and squeezed it into drawers. I noticed that my arm was still bleeding so I quickly ran to the bathroom and put it underwater but the blood still wasn't stopping. Luckily I was still wearing Dulli's black hoodie so I just wrapped my arm in a small towel and pulled the hoodie on top.
I went back outside and took one last look around my room. I opened the door and saw Yoongi-shii standing still standing there leaning on the wall opposite my room. As soon as I opened the door he came up to me and said:
Suga: Are you ok Y/n? (worried tone)
I wanted to tell him everything I wanted to hug him and cry so hard. But I couldn't I had to keep up my cold person so I told myself *You are not weak Y/n* and said.
Y/n: Yeah I am fine. I ready told you that. (slightly cold)
Suga: are you sure? (caring tone)
Y/n: Yes. (cold)
I could tell that he wasn't buying it. But then...
He suddenly hugged me really tight and said...
Yoongi: I may not be your real brother but you are still my sister. I can tell when you are lying.
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Sorry for this terrible and short chapter...
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