This chapter is a little different.. you'll see
Also just wanted to let y'all know that I believe in aliens IDC.. you'll also see why.
ALSO this chapter is about to get heated ;) iykyk
also just a warning, there could be trigging words.
Lacey:
I always dreamt I'll have the perfect big wedding, but then again I also thought Aliens were real. It's crazy to to think about my whole life in just this second. Haven't experienced many things, my life only revolved around working and missing my son. He had lefty for duty in the army and I have yet to hear from him about me and Johns engagement, he wasn't too happy about it and now that I'm thinking about it, his intuition about John being a bad human being was indeed right. I don't dare to tell others about him, keep it as a mystery.
I should've told Cassie about him but shell meet him once i gain full custody of Cassie just till she's off age and can do as she pleases. Maybe I should tell her about it, but I don't want to gether hopes up or I hope she doesn't see me as a bad guy.
I can't help but think of her, how lost she may feel.. the pain she endured since her mother passed. Shes been through alot, I'm so proud she kept herself alive. I look at her as a daughter I never had. I hope she can accept me as her mother figure.
seeing her again after she stormed off about her father, I understand whys did what she did but we only wanted them to meet as he had no idea she was alive.
John had told him they both passed, if her father knew she was alive he would've had Cassie in his care after her mother passed but John had other plans.
Maria knew her father as they are old friends, Cassies father is in charge of a program in order to help children who have lost their way with humanity and faith. He helped Noah out when Noahs father had passed, they had a love and hate relationship is what Maria had told me.
He stopped visiting Cassie and her mother simply because of John. If only Cassie can hear him out. it'll be good for her to reconnect with her father, someone she can trust.. someone who can walk her down the aisle, someone to protect her.
***
"baby" Noah whispers my name
"hmm" I wipe the sleep from my eyes. "Noah I'm trying to sleep" i groan
"its 7, why so damn early" he laughs. "come on we'll go for a picnic or sum at the lake"
"really?" I get up hastily with pleading eyes.
"yeah" he smiles. "ill order some food and finding a sheet or sum, you get ready okay? he says kissing my forehead before leaving the room.
I make my way out of the oversized bed in order to freshen up and change into a swimsuit incase Noah throws me in the lake or something.
I look at myself in the mirror, am I finally free?
I smile at myself for keeping myself alive, I'm glad I lived to see this moment. it was hard but i did it. I never realised how much people really cared about me.
its like all I needed was to taste the freedom before bowing myself to be happy, to be with my boyfriend in every way.. mentally, emotionally and well..physically.
"Baby" Noah startles me.
"yeah?" I reply looking at him through the mirror.
"you ready?" he gestures to the bag of food in his hands and a checkered sheet thats draped over his shoulder
I nod in response.
"lets go" he offers me his other hand. I take his other hand in mine as we make our way out the cabin and down to the lake hand in hand.
We spent the whole day at the lake, swimming, eating and talking a whole heap about basically everything. How we came this far and how much of an idiot he was before he met me.
We sit in a comfortable silence watching the sun set.
***
"Can I ask you something" I break the silence.
"Shoot" he looks down at me as I'm sitting in between his legs. I get up and move away from him a little bit, still touching. I look up to him so now we're face to face.
"If I was a worm would you still-
"Shutup" he cuts me off. We both playfully laugh
"No but for real, did you ever think we'd be here right now?" I ask with pleading eyes, eager to know his answer.
He pauses for a minute.
"Baby, before I met you I didn't know what respect was and I wasn't the best person to be around. You make me more human" he breathes but I wait patiently for him to finish as that wasn't an answer to my question.
"I'm surprised you stuck with me after the hurtful things I've said n done to you but I'm grateful. Despite the circumstances on why we're here right now, I'm more than glad I stuck by you in the end because now I have an understanding to why you were so guarded and .. the scars baby" his eyes turn glossy as he peers into my eyes.
"I'm so sorry I didn't see the signs earlier. I feel like an idiot and I hate myself that I'd let you go home to get hurt like that but I also hate myself for how I treated other girls like object and even at one point tried to do that you. I'm so sorry cas, I mean it" his gaze never left mine, I love this boy so much. He's able to recognise the bad he's done and although he's messed up, I know he means it.
"I love you Noah" I say a light tear falls. "It'll always be you" I place a soft kiss to his lips. I look around me before meeting his eyes again. "It'll always be you" he replies kissing me back.
I feel fluttery inside, I've never felt this was before with anyone. For once i crave Noah, all of him.
I lean on him with our lips meeting again, making him fall back onto the sheet that's placed under us. I deepen the kiss. His hands wander my body as I climb on top of him straddling his waist. He sits up with me still intact. One hand cups the side of my neck while the other is stroking my back.
I speed up our kiss, I know what I want and I want it now. I can feel his member harden meeting my sweet spot. I push myself more onto him, grinding on top of him. He groans before before breaking our kiss.
"Baby. . Baby" he whispers
I lean back in passionately kissing him, my hands making its way to the bottom of his shirt. I pull it up slightly, I'm not entirely sure if this is how it goes but from movies and books I've read this is usually what happens.
"Wait wait" he breaks it again. "Baby, what are you doing?" He askes
"This" I say before placing sloppy kisses down his neck, leaving a mark. He moans.
"Baby" he grabs my face, both hands cupping my face. "Are you sure? Only if you're sure. We don't have too okay? I love you with or without sex" he says.
"I'm sure" I smile before aggressively pulling him in for a kiss. I push him back yet again causing him to fall on his back yet again.
"You're so sexy" he says while his hands wander yet again. I grab his shirt again and pull it over his body. I graze my hands down his torso, his abs. This male specimen is really all mine, I wasn't ready in the past but now I am. I'm more than certain I am. I grind on top of his hard member, I feel drenched in my panties. I want him, I need him. All of him.
"Fuck cas" he grunts before gripping my back and pullin us over so now he's on top never breaking our kiss.
"You want this right?" He smirks. What is he planning, I'm ready for him why won't he just do it already?
I nod. "Say it cas" he says
"Noah-
"Wait wait" he cuts me off. "Ive been waitin for this, it's your turn" he smirks again. What the heck does this man mean? Argh why is he being difficult. I'm clearly in the mood and more than eager.
"Just lay down" he smiles, I oblige.
His finger slowly slides up my Thighs. "Take off your bra" he demands. I oblige before taking my bikini top off. There I am laying under him half naked.
"Want me to go nice and steady, or -
"For the love of god Noah, I want you.. I want you to fuck me"