—— next day.
So basically what happened yesterday after Blake's....thing? Dad send us out and said that we'll talk today about everything and that he will talk to Blake. I hope he's okay. He may not have been the nicest person on earth to me, but I get it. I mean, that he was so scared of getting hurt again, that he would rather hurt himself by not getting close and hurting us and himself by doing that is....sad.
Right now I'm heading to dad's office because he wanted to speak to us all. It's like 8 am, I think. And before you ask, yes, I had a nightmare and no I didn't go to Allesandro. I woke up around 2 in the morning, but I'm used to not sleeping so don't feel bad.
I knocked on the office door and went inside when I heard a 'come in'. Everyone was already seated in the room. Dad at his desk chair and the others in the room on the couches and chairs. Dad motioned his hand to the two chairs in front of his desk, telling me to sit down.
I sat down hugging my knees, feeling anxious. They all stared at me a little longer before dad started talking.
"So principessa, first we're going to talk about the rules. Now that you live under my roof you will follow my rules. If you don't follow them there will be a punishment. Understand?" I nodded my head before he continued.
"Okay well the rules are,
1. Respect your elders, you give us respect and we will give you respect.
2. Dress how you want, but don't go outside with barley anything on
3. If you want to go somewhere ask for permission from me or one of your brothers.
4. No bedtime but sleep enough. I think you're old enough to know that you don't go sleeping past eleven on a school day.
5. Answer verbally, it shows that you're listing and it shows respect.
6. When you go out come back before dinner. We eat dinner together everyday at 6.
7. Listen to us all, except if its at risk for you or the other person.
8. No drinking, drugs or smoking
9. No cursing
10. Don't lie, we will find out one way or another.
And lastly 11. don't go to the third floor nor the basement. Why, because we sometimes work from home and then we will work there. Business people also come over a lot, then they will be there. It's no place for children. It will be distracting and annoying for the business associates.
These are all the rules for now, when you start school there will be rules for then there too. Understand?"
"Yes" I said right above a whisper.
I don't want to get punished. I really don't so I'm going to listen.
"Good, now what happened yesterday. first of all Blake and I talked about..stuff. Blake will try opening up more and control his anger. Just be patient. Then the next topic. Valentina." He said looking at me.
"Yes?"
"We all know that how Blake reacted yesterday wasn't okay, but can you please explain what happened and why for god's sake you had a panic attack because of it."
"Euhm, well" I cleared my throat, everyone was staring at me, burning holes in the back of my head.
"I..euhm. I don't know. I just" lie lie lie but don't lie because that's a rule and if I break a rule then I get punished and my wounds are infected and my body is too weak to handle anything more. I started fiddling with my necklace.
"I just got really anxious. I get anxious a lot. I don't like loud noises and definitely not screaming. It makes me afraid. And that's why I had a panic attack. Sorry, I didn't mean for it to happen, I didn't mean to ruin breakfast. Sorry" I said looking down at the now so interesting floor. It's really pretty actually.
Dad stood up and walked to me, kneeled in front of me taking my shaky hands in his. He took my chin in his hand making me look at him.
"Don't be sorry principessa. It's okay, we will try not to yell around you or make loud noises okay baby." He gave me genuine smile looking in my eyes.
I smiled back a real one, "okay, grazie papà"
(Thank you dad)
"Tu parla Italiano."
( you speak Italian)
"Si papà"
(Yes dad)
"Do you only know Italian and english or.." Elijah asked.
"No I know a lot of languages."
"Which ones." Blake asked.
"Euhm, French, Dutch, German, Spanish, Russian and that's about it I think, No Latin, I know a bit Latin but not much"
Everyone stood there jaw wide open.
"Are y'all okay?"
Dad cleared his throat before answering "yes, yes we're okay. H-How did you learn so many languages."
"Well most just from books and school, but Dutch well I learned that from....someone in the past." I said my smile dropping thinking of how Amy, Atlas and me wanted to learn a language that nobody else really knew. So that we could talk without almost everyone knowing what we were talking about.
Dad snapped me out of my thoughts by announcing that we were going shopping for clothes and stuff for me.
"But I already have clothes." I protested, I don't want them to waist money on me.
"Well, you don't have much and you need stuff for school too you'll start in a month because they have a 2 week vacation and it would be unnecessary to start for two weeks then you have vacation. So school in 4 weeks." Dad said. I hate school with a passion I don't want it.
"You little girl, need school supplies and clothes and I don't know whatever you want." Allesandro said standing up with the others.
"Fine but I don't like you guys wasting your money on me." I said annoyed
"It's not wasting money, now who's going to come" Xavier asked.
"Sorry sorellina, I need to go to work." Elijah.
"Principessa, I have a meeting I can't come. Sorry honey." Dad
"Sorry Tesoro, Lorenzo and I need to deal with some stuff." Antonio
"Okay so Xavier, Xander, Blake and I are going with Val?" Allesandro asked.
We all nodded in agreement.
"Well it's settled then. Everyone be ready in 30 minutes."
We agreed and walked away. While walking to my room I got lost in thought.
Maybe I can have a family after all, forget and move on from the past. Leave it behind and start over. Living with dad and my brothers, maybe I can have a good life after all.