if another party was to view the scene, they would only get more confused looking at an eighteen year old girl who was supposed to be writing her college entrance exams for her dream university sitting at the edge of the school rooftop drinking a whole bottle of red wine. the exact same wine haechan had given her during their dinner date.
looking down at the bottle she couldn't help but let out a chuckle, one that contradicted the hot tears flowing down her cheeks. she couldn't believe, the way things were going. the fact that she had to go through extents like this to live a normal life. seemed like this unknown person wasn't going to stop until her life was completely ruined.
"fuck this, my life is shit anyway" she said, chuckling through tears as she pulled the cap of the bottle open, bringing it to her lips.
"cheers, to this fucked up world" she said, allowing herself to taste the bitterness of the alcohol as soon as it burned into the back of her throat. there was no turning back, no other option that she had.
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"can I go to the bathroom please?" haechan asked, viewing the clock that showed exactly thirty minutes passing from the beginning of the exam.
"that means you will need to hand in your test paper...are you fini-"
"yeah I'm done" haechan said rushing out of his seat, giving the empty exam paper back to the examiner. he was in no position to write the exam. he needed to find her.
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"I'm so tired of being blamed for everything! it's my turn! mark....you were a shit boyfriend! it was fun while it lasted but you and I were so different, it wasn't a match. in the end you only cared about yourself and you left me! they all leave me! my mom, dad, you- no one cares about me! even if I die no one's going to care.....that's what they want" she cried, drunk and not in the right mind to process the fact that she had finished two bottles of wine as she stood on the ledge of the rooftop, staring down at the platform of the school's basketball court several stories beneath her.
holding out the empty glass bottle of wine, she dropped it, watching it slowly fall onto the ground and eventually smash in the court. it took barely even two seconds. she could end it all in just 2 seconds. the struggle she had been fighting for the last 2 months- heck most of her life- could all disappear in a mere few seconds.
"they don't care. they'll be sad for 2 days and then they'll move on. they have their own lives to live. they'll forget about me. Soyeon would be happier without me around, my parents can finally focus on their business.....everything would be better without me" she said, her feet ready to take one dangerous step even closer to the edge but a voice stopped her.
"what about me?"
she froze her actions immediately, stiffening up as she heard the voice behind her, the voice she once hated but grew to love. his voice.
"h-haechan" she whispered, turning around, making her bloodshot eyes meet his as he scanned her features with his own teary eyes.
"what about me? I won't be better off without you" haechan said, sniffing as he viewed what the girl he had grown so attached to was ready to do.
"please chae...don't leave me-"
"you'll find someone better-"
"I dont....I don't want better.....I want you...park chaerin you idiot! I love you!" he exclaimed making her chuckle at his insult before confessing his love to her.
"I really love you, you complete me. so please.....I'm begging you- just....get down from there and come to me" he said, walking towards her slowly but she remained hesitant
"I....can't live this anymore haechan...there's no other way" she whispered
"there has to be...please chae I can't....I can't loose you too" he said, biting his lower lips as the tears uncontrollably fell down his face.
chaerin would do anything for him to be happy, yet she was the one making him cry right now. with a sigh, she stepped forward, away from the edge and she hopped down the ledge, shaking as she made her way towards him.
"I'm here....I won't leave" she whispered, stepping in front of him and he immediately let out a sigh of relief, placing his arms over her protectively and making sure she had no chance to do anything stupid again
"you're so stupid...you know that?" he asked through tears as she sobbed, brushing his hand up and down the back of her head and she chuckled into his neck
"I know.....I'm sorry" she said, beginning to cry even harder as she felt his heartbeat against hers, beating rapidly. he was frightened, terrified of what could have happened.
the tightening feeling in her throat made her widen her eyes as she gripped his arm harshly, slightly pulling herself away from him.
"what-what's wrong?" he asked, looking at her ad her hand reached to her neck
"Chaerin! what's wrong?!" haechan exclaimed as he bent to the floor with her as she let out a fit of coughs
"can't... breathe" she choked out, taking pained breaths in as she felt an excruciating pain travel down to her stomach making her scream.
the cries filled with agony could be heard from miles away and soon enough the people in the school had rushed up to the rooftop to see her crouching in pain, holding her stomach tightly as haechan tried his best to calm her down.
"WELL DON'T JUST STAND THERE! CALL AN AMBULANCE!" haechan roared and the students flinched, eventually a few had taken out their phones to call the hospital
"haechan! what's goi- CHAERIN!" mark shouted, pushing through the crowd as he saw her body laying on the ground.
"yah! chaerin! come to your senses! where does it hurt?" mark her and haechan finally laid his eyes on the empty bottle of wine sitting alone at the edge of the rooftop.
"haechan! are you okay?!" his best friends had immediately rushed up to him, checking up on both him who was quiet, unable to process all the traumatic events at one time while also checking up on Chaerin.
"everyone clear the rooftop! they've sent a helicopter!" the examiner stated trying to get the senior students to clear out of the rooftop
"haech-"
"I'm staying!" haechan said and mark nodded, gripping his shoulder firmly
"we'll see you at the hospital" mark said before getting the other boys and making their way down to their cars, rushing to go to the hospital
"haechan" she said, the stressed voice catching her attention
"shh, you shouldn't talk...just brea-"
"I need to tell you this....in case I don't ever get to say it again" she said, tears falling down the side of her face
"no...no chae...please I need you I-"
"you're sexy" she said with a pained voice, her words not matching the seriousness of the situation as she was clearly still intoxicated
"you're going to use your energy to tell me I'm sexy?" Haechan chuckled through his own tears and she smiled with a nod of her head
"I love you too" she said making him sob even harder
"then just hold on....just a little bit longer yeah? for me?" haechan pleaded and she took his hand in hers, letting out a shaky breath
"I don't think I can-"
"yes you can...please...just try. I can't live without you" haechan whispered, tightening the grip on her hand
"I want to....go back to that night....where you cooked the pasta for me" she said, making him smile as he looked up at her slowly caressing her head which was on her ground. her veins were sticking out as she tried to prevent herself from screaming at the stomach pain, desperately wanting to talk to haechan. her face was pale and she was getting colder by the second.
"the pasta was....kind of salty" she said making him laugh through his tears even though he didn't want to
"yeah? maybe you could just....give me another chance to make it for you? can you hold on until then?" he asked, as her eyelids begin to close slowly
"chaerin?" he asked, as he felt the grip on his hands loosen and as much as he didn't want to, he looked up to see her eyes completely closed.
"chaerin...chaerin...no. please no!"
a/n: hehe ✌😗