Chasity's POV-
I was standing waiting for my turn to walk down the aisle and guess who I spotted.
Not fucking Stefan, dumb ass.
Bridesmaids.
Fucking bridesmaids.
No one told me that Maddie had friends. What a liar. You are all fake friends.
I turned to the right and saw Jayla from the coffee shop enter the backyard of the castle with an awe expression. You and me both bae.
(Changed her name)
"Damn are these people loaded?" She asked me staring at the decorations with her mouth open.
"Yeah, they're all strippers," I told her.
"Really?" She asked.
"Yep. They shake their ass like there's no tomorrow." I deadpanned.
"Cool job." She replied.
I laughed. "I'm just kidding. We own businesses and shit like that." Ehem, the business in question = the Italian Mafia.
"We? Wait this is your family's wedding?" She asked.
"Yep, my very uggo brother is marrying a hottie," I told her.
"Chasity, who's the girl?" Ant farm asked curiously, looking at her outfit. Which now that I think about it, it kind of looked like he was checking her out.
"Why do you need to know?" Jayla asked narrowing her eyes at him.
Oh, she probably thinks he's trying to get with her.
"Yikes, this is my brother Antonio," I told her.
"I'm not straight. Like at all." He added.
"Oh, sorry then." She responded.
"And this is my date, Jayla," I replied.
"Oh okay. Tell her to sit down." He said and walked away.
"You have 2 brothers?" She asked me.
"Ehh close. More like 6." I replied.
"Oh my goodness. That must suck." She told me.
"Yea but I'm everyone's favorite so it works out" I responded and she went to find her seat.
The ceremony began and Rocco walked down the aisle.
He looked okay I guess. Still musty, dusty, crusty but I'm his sister so obviously I think that. Some of you motherfuckers probably think he looked hot.
Rocco ended up not having a best man because he couldn't choose and our brothers are petty mother fuckers. If they don't get chosen as best man, they would take that to their grave.
When he got to the front my brothers (except Leo) walked next.
They were all matching. They looked dumb.
Next, it was the fucking bridesmaids.
Those bitches. I wanted to step on their throat.
They couldn't even walk in a fucking straight line.
After they went to their spot it was my turn.
Omg.
Omg.
Omg.
I put my cool kid face on and started walking. I looked at Rocco and decided it's his wedding day, I'll be nice.
I looked Doggo in the eye and subtly flipped him off. He laughed and smiled at me.
I got to the front and looked straight ahead so I can see Crusty.
Crusty or I guess Christy walked down with the rings. She's going through an emo phase so she didn't want to be the flower girl.
She convinced her parents to let her ride in one of those electric Mercedes with gold jewelry and a baseball cap on. The most ugliest shit I have ever seen but whatever.
Musty/Emilio followed after her with the flowers. He had these sunglasses on and also rode in on a car.
One of the flowers hit my grandma's eye. I was trying to conceal my laugh. I hate the old bitch.
Lastly, the queen. The hottest girl in town. Our bestie. The woman of our dreams. Madeline walked down the aisle with ew Leo.
Leo took his job really seriously like I saw him preparing to walk in his room.
It's just walking, I could definitely do that with a suit on. Just saying.
But I guess opportunity missed.
Madeline looked very very pretty. Like I will object and we can get married. Figuratively, maybe.
Rocco was smiling like smiling. Genuinely. To be quite honest, I think I saw a tear fall from his eyes.
OMFG WAIT THAT IS SUPER DUPER CUTE!
Leo gave her a fatherly kiss on Mads head and they went their separate ways.
Bestie was standing next to me and the actual, actual talking part of the ceremony was about to begin.
I could not standstill. When is this thing going to end? Wedding ceremonies are kind of boring.
I looked around at the guests and saw those bitches that I hated. Stefan's family. I also saw my family or whatever. Those bitches called me fat once. So I ate all their food in the pantry. They had skittles.
My eyes fell on Missy who was glaring at Marcello for taking her drugs away. She could have made bank today. I almost feel bad for her.
Right next to her was the man who I wish I had never met.
Spongebob.
Just kidding.
It was Stefan.
Stefan Romero.
He was dressed in a suit and his hair was parted in the middle.
He looked good. Really good.
When I saw him earlier his hair was messy and his buttons were undone but now he looked put together, happy. Like a sort of weight was lifted off of him.
Was I the weight?
And although I am happy for him. I was seething that he looked so put together.
I put my focus back on the ceremony. I will not let him miss my brother's wedding.
"Dearly Beloved, we are gathered here today in the presence of these witnesses, to join Rocco Russo and Madeline De León in matrimony commended to be honorable among all; and therefore is not to be entered into lightly but reverently, passionately, lovingly and solemnly. Into this - these two persons present now come to be joined. If any person can show just cause why they may not be joined together - let them speak now or forever hold their peace." Mr. Manz said.
I OBJECT!
Just kidding, I did not say that. I would because I'm in love with Maddie but I don't marry. And plus this is my brother's wedding.
The man started talking about love and how love is loveful or whatever and I spaced out for a bit, not going to lie, but then I heard the vows.
(THE VOWS! AHH IDK HOW TO WRITE THEM SO BEAR WITH ME!)
"Madeline, I have loved you from the moment you yelled at me in Chemistry class because I told you that if we ever had kids they would inherit your crooked teeth. You decided to set me on fire that same day and I fell in love with you ever since. There's something about the way you are that makes me want to give you the world. Maybe it's your smile or your kindness or the way you know 27 languages but can't spell handkerchief but I would do anything for you. I promise to love and cherish you through tough times because there is no world for me without you in it." Damn, I hate that that was cute.
Also, did ya'll just hear what he said oh my goodness. I'll repeat it. He said, "There is no world for me without you in it." I feel so lonely. Why can't a man speak to me like that?
"Rocco, when I first met you I thought you had serious issues. You do, but it made you who you are and I love you for that. There were many ups and downs in our relationship and there were times where regular people would give up but we're not like them-." They're not like the other girls, they're quirky 🤪 Sorry, I should pay attention.
"-We may be different but that's what makes us perfect for each other, we even ourselves out. Whenever I think about the future there is never a time where I don't see you in it. Your goofy-looking smile and your inability to sleep without borderline suffocating me made me realize that you are one of kind and I should never let you go. I love you and I promise to cherish you forever because although the future is unpredictable my love for you will never perish even through rough times." Okay, maybe I do believe in love.
It was time for the rings and I was this close to passing out. I am so thirsty...for some dick. Just kidding,
"I Rocco Russo give you Madeline De León this ring as an eternal symbol of my love and commitment to you." He said. BORING! Very cliché super predictable where's the drama, the fighting. I expected swords to be thrown.
"I Madeline De León give you Rocco Russo this ring as an eternal symbol of my love and commitment to you," Maddie said.
"By the power vested in me by the State of California, I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may now kiss!" The man said and my eyes started leaking.
I have no idea why.
They're just so cute.
"I present to you the newly married couple!" Everyone started clapping.
Maddie is my sister now!
I looked around and saw Stefan staring at me. But that wasn't the only thing I noticed. Izza-bow was laying her head on his shoulder.
My heart shattered or I thought it did. But I realized that my heart is built different, it doesn't shatter.
It cracks and I feel pain but it doesn't shatter, nothing can shatter my heart.
Izza-hoe was kissing Bitch-en's neck but Stef was staring at me.
That man is so complicated.
I ignored him. Maybe they're just really close enemies. Yeah. Stefan was whispering something in her ear and she laughed while staring at me.
They can't be laughing at me right?
I started rocking back and forth scratching my arm violently when Stefan's smile turned into a frown.
"Stop it." He mouthed, so obviously, I didn't stop.
That fucking Izza-bitch was OH MY GOODNESS IM GOING TO KILL THEM.
She was fucking kissing his ears.
Ew.
Ear fetish.
I looked at Jayla and she looked equally grossed out at Stefan.
But then she smirked at me and kicked Izza-hoe's seat. Now we believe in equality so she also kicked ugly mother fucking trash ass bitch looking ass Stefan's seat.
And Izza-dick fell, Stefan did not.
Jayla got out of her seat and made her way towards me.
"Those ugly mother fuckers were annoying the crap out of me, the whole time." She whispered to me while we went to get food.
"My ex is great at being an annoying ass fuck." I replied and her eyes widened.
"That's the bitch?" She asked. I nodded while gulping down a glass of water.
"I hate weddings," Jayla told me.
"Same, I think it's because the last wedding I went it was my ex-drug dealer's one and I accidentally set him on fire," I replied drinking another glass of water
"You're fucking cool." She told me.
"That's not what the po-po says. Those ugly motherfucker. I'll put them behind bars." I replied when I saw Dick-an talking to Izza-shit.
Issa-hoe kissed him but I know Stefan and he didn't want to kiss her back.
Or I think...
"Yikes dude, your ex is acting like a dick but it's okay I got you," Jayla told me and I looked at her confused.
She threw a finger food thing at Hoe-an to get his attention and then grabbed my waist and pinned me to the wall kissing me.
Damn, I liked the kiss, a lot. But I like Stefan's kisses more.
I could see Bitch-an staring at me so obviously I waved.
Jayla's hand was scrunched up in my hair and my lipstick was probably messy.
She let go and I realized
FUCK ME, MY FUCKING GRANDMA IS HERE!
As you can probably tell my brothers don't really care who I kiss. But my grandma damn that bitch didn't even like me kissing Stefan. I remember Antonio telling me once that he didn't come out to her because she's going to die before he gets an actual boyfriend anyways. So great!
Jayla let go and I looked around to see everyone minding their own business except, Grandma, Missy, my brothers, and of course Stefan and his date.
Wait a minute. Where's Roccoline?
Omg, they're fucking in the bathroom! Aren't they!
WAIT EW GROSS.
My brothers were glaring at me not because we kissed but because Jayla kissed me in front of my grandma and now grandma is going to kill them.
Stefan came up to me. Oh no.
"Chasity. Let's talk?" He asked.
"Uhh sure," I replied looking at Jayla who was smirking and we walked to the front of the house.
"How are you?" I asked, feeling uncomfortable.
"I'm okay. What about you?" He replied.
"Same," I said and it started getting cold.
"Here," Stefan told me and handed me his suit jacket.
"It's okay. It's cold, you need it." Plus I'm built different. But I didn't say that part.
He shrugged and put it back on.
I went closer to him and realized that his jacket smelled like Izza-bitch.
That's why he took it back.
It's okay.
"Was that French Mafia girl?" I asked him.
"Yeah." He replied.
"Oh, she's nice," I said.
"Yeah, she is." He responded.
But isn't she trying to kill me?
I asked the question I was dreaded to ask.
"Are you happy?" I asked.
"I'm doing okay, how about you." He told me but I couldn't detect if he was lying or not.
It was as if he was a stranger and we didn't have any chemistry. He must be a great actor or he never loved me.
'I'm doing great you know, fucking a lot of bitches.' That is what I would say if I wasn't feeling this unfamiliar pain in my chest but I didn't say that.
"That's good. Well, I'm hanging in there." Even though I haven't eaten or slept in a day.
"Good." He answered.
"So what did you want to talk about?" I asked, wanting to be alone.
"I just wanted to check in on you." He said.
...after I kissed Jayla. Yeah, fucking bitch.
"Oh, thanks. Well, I'm fine." I told him.
"Was that your girlfriend?" He asked me. I knew it.
"Oh, Jayla. No, she's just my friend." I told him.
"She's pretty." He replied.
"Yeah smoking hot." Damn it, Chasity. You don't say that to your ex.
He laughed and we were staring at each other awkwardly for a while.
"We should go back inside," I said.
"Yeah, good idea." He replied.
"I missed talking to you, Chasity," Stefan said walking inside, smiling.
"I miss you...so much" I whispered but he was already gone.
I sat on the steps of the castle staring at literally nothing. Tears were falling down my face.
"Hello, Chasity." A frenchie voice said.
"Izza-bitch, here to kill me already? I thought we were 4lifers?" I pouted, acting hurt.
"4lifers? That's pathetic. I got the things I wanted. An alliance with the Russian Mafia, Stefan, and your life." She said, holding a gun at my head.
Oh, she wanted Stefan and the Russian Mafia but my life? Who the fuck would want that.
"Well, you got it. Congrats." I said.
"Thanks. But I really thought it would be harder. I guess Stefan doesn't love you enough." She joked, coming closer with the gun.
"Yeah, you're right. A second ago he was confessing his undying love for you. That's why he wanted to talk. To tell me how much he loved you and how he doesn't want anything to do with me." I said.
"Really?" She asked.
"Yeah, he also told me that he wants to marry you to ally with both of the Russian and French but then my brother overheard and told us a really juicy piece of information." I lied.
"Which is?" she asked impatiently.
I went closer to her and made the shushing thing with my finger.
She lowered her arm to get a better hear about what I was going to say.
"You're dead," I whispered and stole her gun shoot her in the heart.
I got on my knees and looked at her.
"Why did you do that?" She asked.
"I don't like sharing what's mine," I whisper and pat her cheek.
"You're just as evil as your pathetic brothers." She laughed and I looked at her like I was confused.
"I like to use the word swag-dili-tastic." I laughed and she died.
Rip her.
I sat back on the steps and got my phone out to call Leo.
"Hey, Chasity. Did you see how cool I walked today?" He asked me.
"Yeah A+," I said tiredly.
"Thanks. What's up." He asked.
"I killed someone," I told him.
"On your brother's wedding, day really?" He asked.
"It's not my faul-."
"I'm kidding. I killed someone too." He said.
"Who?" I asked.
"Some bitch in the French Mafia." He replied.
"Twinsies!" I said.
"Just leave the body there. I'll have someone go pick it up." He replied and hung up.
I sat on the steps again and because no one was there I decided that I could cry without anyone staring,
I ruined my life.
I'm stupid.
I ruined the only good thing I had going for me.
Fuck me.
"Hey." I heard a voice say as I was crying.
I probably looked disgusting.
I looked up to see Marcello, who sat down next to me.
"Hi," I mumbled and placed my head on his shoulder.
He didn't bitch slap me or stab me but just sat there, and it was comforting.
"Stai bene, sorellina?" He asked gently wiping my tears away with his hand.
(Are you okay, little sister?)
Why are my brothers, actual nice people when they want to be?
"Affatto." I mumbled tears still streaming down my face.
(Not at all)
Marcello likes speaking Italian more than English because he was born there and is always there. You can kind of hear his Italian accent actually.
"Who do I need to kill?" He asked, genuinely.
"Me," I answered and he frowned.
"Why the fuck did you make Chasity cry?" Donatello asked appearing out of fucking nowhere.
"Fuck you dickhead. I didn't do anything." Marcello told him.
"What's wrong sweetie?" Angelo asked me, sitting next to me.
I couldn't breathe, my chest was killing me.
"My chest is really hurting. I don't like it, it- it hurts. Make it stop, please." It was hurting so much.
"Why is it hurting? My heart never hurt like this before. I want it to stop." I mumbled as tears fell down my cheeks.
"Stefan?" Angelo asked and I nodded.
"Stupido, fottuto Stefan. Te l'avevo detto che avremmo dovuto ucciderlo quando ne avevamo la possibilità." Marcello mumbled.
(Stupid, fucking Stefan. I told you we should have killed him when we had the chance.)
"No one is killing anyone. It was my fault. Stefan didn't do anything. He never does anything wrong." I told them.
They sighed.
"Chasity you are 18 years old idiota. Who the fuck cares what a smelly teenage boy think?" Marcello told me.
"He's not smelly. He smells rich." I said and I hated thinking about him.
"Oh my goodness. You are taking the break up worse than him. That stupid white boy back to school poster model fuck head is having the time of his life in there while you're out here crying. You are Chasity Gabriella Russo for fuck sake, stop worrying about some damn boy whose mom probably used to stitch his name onto his clothes and MOVE ON!" Marcello told him.
"I kissed a guy when I was Stefan," I said and their face dropped.
"Oh," Angelo told me.
"That's when everything went downhill," I said remembering the past.
I couldn't sleep for 6 days after that. The guilt was eating me alive.
"Why? Did he hurt you?" Marcello asked me.
"No. I was drunk and I thought he was cheating on me because his location was off and he was at a girl's house and then I broke up with him because I thought he would do it first and I knew that I wouldn't be able to deal with the pain." I told them the story.
"Oh." That was all they said.
That's what they all say.
I fucked. up, I have trust issues, I don't deserve to ever be in a relationship again.
I knew that when I tell people the whole story they'll think of me as the bad guy because I am. I was the reason my relationship got ruined. There was no reason for it to end, except me. I ignited the fire and I ruined the one good thing I had going for me.
I fucked up. I fucking fucked it up. God, why would I do such a stupid fucking thing? Do I have any fucking brain cells? Why couldn't I just leave my relationship alone? I was the one who made it toxic.
But Stefan could've communicated with me. I know nothing about his job and I get that he's protecting but I was almost murdered twice because of him. I deserve to be spoken to like an actual fucking adult, even if sometimes I don't act like it.
But other than that, he was perfect. And that fucking pissed me off.
And that was when I realized that this was the real world and when you fuck up so badly like how I did, there is no going back.
Even as much as I beg him to take me back, I could never take back men kissing the random stranger, and the break up in the Grocery parking lot.
It was all my fault and I have to deal with it.
But I have been trying and I can't deal with it the normal way.
I need to do it the way I should have done it years ago.
I need a clean slate.
I stood up from the steps and my brothers were still there.
"I'm going to go on a walk to cool myself off," I told them and they nodded.
"Okay, see you later," Angelo said kissing my forehead.
"Yeah, later," I replied and walked away.
I never said it before but everyone I have ever met holds a special place in my heart.
My drug dealer boyfriends.
My brothers.
Teachers.
The 7/11 guy.
Missy.
Madeline.
Stefan.
Even my parents.
No matter how much they hurt me I always hold on to the good part of them.
But sometimes it hits me that most of the people I love, don't love me back. I'm not trying to be a pick me but it's the truth.
I've always loved to be in control since I was little. If I had a pop quiz or a surprise birthday party I would start panicking. If I didn't know exactly when something was going to happen, I would just avoid it. You're probably wondering why I'm telling you all this, well it's because I'm stopping all of the surprises starting now.
I ran to my house and snuck in through my bedroom window. I'm not running away, don't worry I'm just in the mood to have a picnic.
I grabbed some snacks and a picnic blanket and head to a cliff. I didn't realize it until then, that was the one Stefan took me on our first date.
I climbed to the top and set everything up when my eyes landed on something.
On our first date, Stefan and I engraved our initials into the rock wall to be all happy and cute. I traced our initials as tears fell onto my cheek.
I miss him.
I sat on the edge of the cliff eating half of my sandwich as the sun went down.
"Wait you're saying that you never had McDonald's before?" I asked like he was crazy.
"No. My parents were very strict on fast food and I couldn't have any." Stefan told me.
"Oh my goodness that's a sad childhood. We need to go to McDonald's at 1 in the morning." I replied.
"Why 1 in the morning?" He asked.
"It hits different," I replied and he chuckled.
"Oh look the sun is going down. Do you want to watch it with me?" He asked me and I stared at him like he was dumb.
"Are you kidding me? Of course, I would love to watch the sunset with you." I said and excitedly got closer to the edge.
"But first we need to in grave our initials into the wall like some sappy rom-com," I said and got a rock.
He put his initial and I put mine. We put a heart around it.
So cute.
We smiled at our creation.
The memories of our first date filled my head as I was trying to eat my sandwich.
I finished eating and I tried to muster up the courage to do the one thing I was planning to do the whole night.
I looked down at the cliff and it was deep. If I jumped, no one would hear me. It would be 2 days ago, Chasity's dream come true.
I dangled one of my feet in the air, thinking.
What am I doing?
Tears fell down my eyes for the third time tonight and I felt pathetic.
I tried closing my eyes but that didn't help with the anxiety I felt. I should just do it.
But I couldn't.
"I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU SO MUCH!" I yelled at myself as I fell onto the ground, sobbing.
"WHY! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO BE SO FUCKING DIFFICULT?!" I screamed again.
"Why...why do you have to be so stupid?" I sobbed as I fell onto my back and got my dress dirty as hell.
"Chasity? I thought I heard your voice." It was him.
That man who shattered my fucking heart.
Stefan.
He broke my heart. No one breaks my heart.
"What?" I asked as I see him staring at me, tears in his eyes.
"Talk to me baby, please." He begged getting on his knees, to be my height.
"I'm sorry." I apologized, mascara running down my face.
"Don't apologize, love." He replied wiping away my tears.
"I told you that I would be the best girlfriend ever but I lied. I messed up countless times but you still loved me for some reason. But I'm glad you finally came to your senses and realized that I suck." I told him, giving a fake laugh.
"I still love you, baby. I forgave you for kissing that man at the club, you were drunk and worried I should have told you where I was. I didn't not take you back because you broke up with me at the Grocery Store parking lot, I just could feel how sad you were when things ended and I was scared that if we were to date again and something was to happen, the pain would hurt you too much. I didn't want my strong, independent, beautiful Chasity to break because of me." He said and I registered everything.
"Isabeau wanted to kill me," I told him.
"I know, she hinted that a lot so that's why I was also scared that if I was to take you back she would kill you while on a rampage." He mumble and I believed him.
He didn't feel like a stranger anymore.
He felt like my Stefan again.
"So you do love me?" I asked and I realized that Stefan was crying.
"Of course I love you. There's nothing in the world that I love more than you. You may not think it but in my eyes you are perfect. I know you have some problem with trusting people and I don't want to be the one who gets pushed away, I want to be there with you and make sure you realize that you're not alone anymore, you have people you can trust." He said his voice cracking and the pain in my heart magically left.
It was like I was a disease and he was my cure.
"I've been beating myself up because of this." I sobbed into his chest.
"I know princess. But I promise to do everything in my power to make you love yourself as much as I love you." He replied running his hand through my hair.
"Isa-bitch kissed you today," I told him with a frown.
"I know, and I didn't like it one bit but it was an act so I could get her trust and then kill her." He replied and I knew he was telling the truth.
"I love you," I mumbled to him as I hugged him tightly.
"I love you so much, baby." He replied and I felt a teardrop on my dress.
We separated from the hug and Stefan looked at me seriously.
"This may sound so cheesy but we have to promise each other to never keep secrets again." He said.
"I promise my left foot that I will force Franco to go bald if I break this promise," I said laughing.
"That's my girlfriend." He said and my heart warmed as we kissed.
"We have a lot to work on but I promise, we'll get there." He mumbled and I nodded.
We got down from the cliff, leaving my picnic stuff there.
"What were you planning to do?" Stefan asked cuffing my face between his hands.
"Hmm?" I responded.
"On the cliff, what were you planning to do?" He asked again.
"I just wanted to yell my anger out," I replied sniffling.
He nodded, not saying anything else but only placing a kiss on my lips.
It was sad that I had already broke the promise I made to him.
I wasn't planning to yell my anger out,
I was planning to kill myself that day.
But no one needs to know.
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We walked back to the castle and I realized that I missed the whole after-party.
I have to make it up to Madeline and I guess Rocco somehow.
We ran into Jayla and my cousin making out behind a bush.
"Get it bestie!" I yelled and she smiled.
"I'm glad that the love birds are back together." Jayla laughed and gave me a hug.
"My mouth is taking full responsibility for your relationship, by the way." She joked and I laughed.
"I'll see you around?" I asked her.
"Duh! We just became friends. Now I need to know everything." She laughed and walked away with Bea.
We entered the house and I got bombarded with questions from my family.
"Where have you been?"
"Are you and Stefan back together?"
"You missed my fucking after-party perra."
Oh, how I love my family.
"I get it we all miss me, I'm amazing, You all love me," I said and Antonio rolled his eyes.
"Yes, we fucking missed you. We had to wait until you came before we can stuff our face with the leftovers." He said, while my brothers ran into the dining room to devour the food.
"I'm glad you're okay Chasity. We love you." Leonardo said hugging me.
"COME ON AUNTIE CHAS, UNCLE ANTONIO IS EATING ALL THE FOOD!" Musty yelled and Ant farm threw a small roll at him.
I ran to the main room and sat in the middle of Franco and Stefan stealing their food.
"Hey!" They yelled.
I had a fat smile on my face as I looked at the people around me.
The people I loved. Who would have thought, that I, a girl who never saw the good in anything would be happy?
You finally made it Chasity. You've found a place to call home.
I know this chapter was kind of all over the place but wattpad only allows 200 chapters and I wanted to publish the last real chapter already so i could go to sleep. It's almost 4 AM dude.
BOOK 2 IS CALLED "THE CRAZY SISTER AND HER BROTHERS" GO READ IT!!!