James was killed by Edward. Bella was already home after returning from the hospital in Phoenix. I was fully recovered from James' attack. Everything was fine. Victoria was now dying of rage at Edward, vampires are generally quite vengeful, someday she would try to get revenge, but no one was worrying about that.
Bella, despite being better after all that had happened, was still on crutches because of her leg, which she had hurt during James' attack. Edward took Bella to the school dance, he did not want her to miss any "human experience". Rosalie, Jasper and Emmett graduated from high school, again. Now it was just me, Alice and Edward left at school. And the next year promised a lot, as I would finally be going to high school, while it would be Edward, Alice and Bella's last year.
After they finished high school, since all the humans in town thought Emmett and Rose were going to college, they left town for a while, went to Africa for their honeymoon. I felt more alone, as Rose had always been the closest person to me. During this time of them being away, I was trying to put my mind elsewhere.
One afternoon Alice invited me to go to Seattle for a whole weekend of shopping. These moments were extremely rare, just her and me, because Rose always went along.
"Got your things? We can't be a second late! I have calculated exactly all the stores we are going to! " Alice said, extremely excited.
"I've already packed everything, Alice! Don't worry, we have all the time in the world to do it!"
"I'm so proud of you, Vi! It's really great to have a sister who can go to shopping trips with me and allows me to play dress with me!" Alice said, I laughed. Since I was the youngest, Alice and Rose liked to treat me as a human Barbie, dressing me up and doing lots of makeups on me.
"I've already put everything I need in your car. You can wait for me inside and I'll be right there." I said.
Esme, Carlisle, Edward, Bella and Jasper were in the living room.
"Bye mom! Bye dad!" I said, hugging them both.
"Bye honey!" Esme said.
"You two have fun!" Carlisle said.
Then I went to say goodbye to Bella, Edward and Jasper.
"Bye Eddie!" I said, winking at him, Bella had never seen me call him by that nickname.
"If you need any help just call us." Edward said.
"Bye Bella! I bet Alice will want to buy something for you there!"
"I hope not. Bye Violet."
After I went to hug Jasper I went to the car, Alice was waiting for me. Esme and Carlisle accompanied me to the door.
"Let's go Violet! We have to buy those incredible Christian Louboutin heels I saw! It's perfect for you!" Alice told me. I got in the passenger seat next to her in the car.
We talked about what we would buy when we arrived.
"I'm going to but a dress from Valentino, we need to look for some purses at Prada and I'm sure you'll love the new collection of Chanel!" Shopping trips for Alice were like going to Disneyland for kids. "Remember what I told you to do?"
"Yes Alice... I need to go to Louis Vuitton and buy that new purse of the new collection for you while you look for dresses at Valentino..." I said, she had given me all instructions the day before.
"And what else?"
"And after that I'll go to Sephora and buy lots of makeup while you go buy those heels at Christian Louboutin..."
"That's right"
"I don't know if you forgot I need to eat sometime between all this."
"Of course I didn't forget! I'm not a horrible sister! You grab something that's easy to eat on the way!"
We stopped at Taco Bell and I went eating on the way while we listened to "Whenever, Wherever" by Shakira. It was fun spending time with Alice.
After some time I was a little sad, because on the way to Seattle I started thinking again about the loneliness I was feeling lately, I never thought I needed to find someone like Edward needed someone like Bella. I always thought since I think as a teenager I would always have the same thoughts, but it seemed that was changing.
"Violet, you know you can tell me anything, after all I'm your sister, you always trust me with things you don't want to tell Esme, Carlisle and the others, I know something is going on, isn't it?" Alice asked me.
"Fine... Look, Alice, I never felt this way before..." I started saying.
"What? Tell me everything, it's just us."
"Since I started living with the Cullens I never felt the need to have someone by my side, like you and Jasper. I always had everyone's support and I didn't feel alone... But now, I don't know if it's because Edward has Bella now, but I know I started feeling this loneliness, and I know for sure it was the same thing he used to feel before her."
"Violet that's completely normal, having the need to have someone in your life... And I really hope you'll find someone."
"I used to think my mind worked like a normal teenager, I never thought I needed that so much! And I'm scared, of not finding anyone, and If I do find, or even if I try with other people, what everyone will think of me?"
"Your mind does work like a normal teenager! But after living a long time single you have the need to be with someone. And do be scared, take a chance as much as you want, no one will be judging you or thinking bad of you! You're family! Everyone already went through that."
"I know I'm family, but everyone treat me like the youngest! Always so over protected... Emmett and Rosalie, for an example, they would freak out if I ever dated someone!"
"You ARE the youngest! You know we treat you like that because we love you so much and you being more human than any of us I guess we fear something may happen to you! About Emmett and Rose, I know they would be over protectives.... You're lucky Edward has Bella now, because if he didn't it would be way worse... Rose is your sister, one way or another she'll support you!"
"I'm afraid I can't fall in love again... You know, it's always said that there is only one soulmate..."
"Ryan wasn't your soulmate. He would have found a way to be with you if he was... And if Thomas was your soulmate he too would have found a way to be with you. or even you would have found a way to be with one of them."
"I don't know what I'm going to do..."
"If I were you I would prefer taking a chance and maybe regretting after, you'll regret more if you don't try. You have no idea what you are missing! Besides, I used to complain that Edward was a hundred year old virgin man, but you are too! It's time for you to get some action Violet!"
"Really funny, Alice! But we know Edward's the only virgin in the family!" I instantly regretted saying that.
Alice suddenly braked the car.
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN?" She was mad.
"I... I... Nothing!"
"Violet Abigail Hale Cullen I see this isn't nothing!"
"I'm sorry, Alice. I really thought you knew..."
"Knew what?"
"I lost my virginity with Ryan!"
"Tell me everything"
"Please, if you really love me you won't make me tell... Ask after we come home to Rose or Esme..."
That trip was one of the best and the worst of my life. I bought a lot of clothes, makeups, shoes and accesories. I had more time to talk just with Alice. But she found out I had lost my virginity. I think that was way worse than being bitten by a vampire.