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TW.
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- Roxana -
I wake up the next morning with something heavy on my stomach, which makes me look down.
I instantly burst out laughing, waking Federico up. I genuinely forgot he was here, our sleeping arrangement just happened.
"What the fuck is so funny Roxana?" Federico says, with a raspy morning voice.
I start laughing again, before pointing at the arm that is on my stomach which causes him to raise an eyebrow in question at me.
"Who knew Federico Morelli liked to cuddle?" I tell him, earning a smirk from him before he takes his arm off and turns to look at his phone.
I feel cold now,
huh.
"Jesus Roxana go back to sleep it's 4 in the morning," He says before grabbing a pillow and hugging it.
I laugh before I start to doze off again.
That shower was very much needed.
I woke up about two hours later, I wasn't surprised when Federico wasn't next to me since he usually leaves around that time.
I decided it's time to go talk to my father today since I couldn't put off the conversation for much longer.
I put on some high-waisted jeans with a beige blouse and my black heels to match it, with my go-to Chanel bag. I decide on light makeup and a messy bun and start making my way downstairs.
I make sure to text Federico that I'm leaving and get in the car that Luca is waiting in for me.
"Morning, sunshine" Luca greets me,
"Morning, pussy" I say back, earning a chuckle from him.
"Where to? He asks,
"Dad's"
He doesn't hide his shocked expression,
"I found out some business that needs to be talked about" I explain,
"To your dad's it is," He says, before driving off.
"Father," I say, from the other side of the door as I knock
"Come in Mija"
"Is there anything I can help you with? Did you not get the direct deposit?" He asks,
I really did not even bother to check, getting the funds were not for personal need, I don't need it.
"Everything is fine," I say, making him let out a relaxed sigh. "With the funds at least," I add, earning a panicked look from him
I make my way to the chair across from him as I sit and cross my legs, pointing at the bar I say "Hennessy, please" Making him get up instantly.
Ha, bitch.
As soon as he places the glass in front of me I take a sip, making sure to take my sweet time because I want him to get anxious.
"I'm here to ask you a simple question really," I say
"Do you remember how beautiful mom's funeral was?" "Because I do, I loved the white roses, her favorites," I say, making him look at me in confusion
"Yes, I do. I miss her very much" he says,
"Hmm, I see" I begin, "I was just wondering because I was not sure you remembered planning it, since you were so busy writing up a contract with the Italian mafia selling me out like I'm some cheap bitch. " I tell him, and if I could have taken a picture of his face I would have.
"Mija-" He begins
"No. You see, all you had to do was ask, which at first I thought you did. But father, you are not a stupid man so I'm trying to figure out when the fuck you started acting like one by thinking I am okay with betrayal" I say
"Roxana I raised you and I will not tolerate you speaking to me like that!" He yells out, making me laugh.
"Exactly, you raised me. This means you know exactly how someone pays for betrayal. But you are my father so you have one chance to tell me the truth and I'll leave" I say.
"Your mother was raped and tortured Roxana, she wasn't just shot and killed as I told you. Those bastards raped her, tortured her, and then sent her body to me, limb by limb" He says
"Huh?" I ask, he lied.
"I lied"
"Why?" I ask
"Because at the time I did not know if I was going to be able to take them out Rox, that is why I made the contract. Your safety for my loyalty to them" He begins, "I knew you thought something was up, money goes away with power, you know that. I still have both, I just needed to use something I knew you could not pass up. I knew everything you did Roxana, that is why I never let Luca leave the mafia, like he asked. He was the one looking out for you" He says
"I don't need anyone looking out for me."
"I know, but at the time they were coming after you, they did not stop until I wiped them out completely, their mafia is gone"
"Since when?" I ask
"What?"
"Since when the fuck did we lose enough power to have to ask another mafia for fucking protection," I ask
"Since your mother died, it was viewed as a weakness." "The Italian mafia was the only one powerful enough to help"
"Are you sure you killed every single one of those bastards?" I ask, making sure he did because if not, I would go do it myself.
"Yes," he says
"Good," I tell him, before getting up and walking out.
And as soon as the front door behind me closes, I o something I have not done In many years,
I feel weak.
Weak because I could not help her.
Weak because I can't imagine the pain and disrespect she felt.
Weak, because I could not say goodbye to her.
And because I feel weak, I choose to ignore the person I see hiding behind me while I wait for Luca.
And because I feel weak and I need to let my anger out,
I choose to let them blindfold me, drug me, and put me into the van as they scream telling each other to drive off.
And because I feel weak, I let the darkness take over me.
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I made this chapter because I feel as if she is portrayed as someone with no feelings, and I wanted this to be a reminder that it's completely okay to not be okay sometimes.
I'm sorry for not uploading all weekend, I have finals and have been extremely busy.
I hope you guys are enjoying the story.
Words cannot express how thankful I am for 25k reads.
I hope you are all doing good lovelies,
Muah.