We finish singing and quinn runs off to be sick.
"i think she just had a bad breakfast burrito." finn says while i and puck roll our eyes then look at eachtoher, he is puzeled but i most certinly am not.
"can we please talk about the giant elephant in the room?"
"your sexuality." santana says without missing a beat
i whisper in her ear "we litteraly made out in your car ten minuets ago." witch makes her both shut up and blush at the same time.
Kurt continues "rachel, we cant do it without her."
"thats not true." Mr schue says " we may have to layer Santana, Andy and Mercades over quinns solo but we'll be fine."
"wow so nice to know you have faith in us-" i begin to say but Artie cuts me off
"maybe for the invatationals but not for sectionals and curtinly not the regionals."
"does no one listen to-" i try agian but I am cut off
"the wheel chair kid is right." puck begins to say witch makes me throw my hands up in the air and then i go sit to do some homeworks
i block everything out till santana comes up to me "you ok, you seem a little... tense."
I sigh and say "as i said, the more people know who i am the more people want my services."
"you sound like a hooker." i look frustrated but continue head down working and she rubs my back "look, im a stone cold bitch like 90% of the time but i care about you and i get why you are doing this but you know there isnt a time limmit-"
i cut her off "oh my god yes there is, any day somone could buy his guitar, MY guitar and it was all my fault so if im not comftable or if I'm stressed, its worth it in the end , ok!?" i say raising my voise
"right.." she says taking her hand away and in that moment i know i fucked up
"look san im sorry you are right i know i need to chill and i shouldnt have taken it out on you... forgive me?" i say with puppy dog eyes
"meet me in my car at brake and show me how sorry you are." she says walking off to her next class leaving me in shock.
~♫♫♫~
i got a note in my locker to see miss pillbury so i walk into her office passing finn as i do
"ah andrea, please sit." she says after wiping down the chair.
i do as she says " is everything ok Miss P?" i say
"oh yes, yes but also no... i was looking at your grades and you are getting A++ in all subjects even your ap's but it seems like thats not the case anymore, see i think you have alot on your plate and you know collage isnt that far away-"
"its in like a few years."
"ok but it could be in less for you andrea, if you focused on your studies and not your, umm how you say... money making ideas"
"well im taking business next year, just call it early revision."
"andrea you could be anything and i dont say that lightly ok you are one of the few people in this place that could make a real diffrence but you have to make a change with yourself first." she says and my alarm goes off for giving some work to a cherioo.
" gotta go miss P, thanks for the chat, ill umm get some sleep, or something." i say as i skate off.
~♫♫♫~
"guys i would like to introduce you to somone very special, this is april rhodes. she is our newest member."
"dosent look new." i whisper to santana and britt making them laugh
" wait fo old people can join glee club now."
"i mean didnt i just-" i begin to say but santana just puts her hand on my thigh and shakes her head meaning 'don't worry'.
"old huh? you guys look like the worlds worst benetton ad." april says to finn
Artie puts up his had slowly "Mr schusert, this seem s like a terrible idea."
"april is a great singer." he assues everyone "and she never graduated."
this time it was mecades time to speak while im still blushing about the fact santanas hand is on my thigh
"we apriciate what you are trying to do, but she is no rachel."
"who's rachel?" april questions
"sh-shes kind of our star."
"i mean i can sing and play like five instruments and am smarter than her but sure she can be your star." i whisper to myself
Santana gets close to my ear and says "you are my star, dont worry about them." making me blush and smile inwardly
your star, eh?" april says "well where is she?"
"she left, to be the lead in cabare." kurt says
april begins to take off her jacket and says "hey tinkles, give me maybe this time in b flat. and dont let me catch you snoozin."
"wow" i whisper under my breath
"stick that in you pipe and smoke it."
"that was hot." i whisper getting a smack form santana
~♫♫♫~
after making up for calling april hot i jump out of santanas car and walk to the library
"hello cutie, what you doing here alone?" i look up to see april say that
"im busy grandma, if you want me to do your work it will be $100, i upped my prices."
"oh no no." she says sitting down "what you need is to relax, i mean i can see you are fine sexually." she says wiping off santanas lipgloss from my face and pointing out my neck witch had some hickeys from the night before. damn it.
"uhhhh-"
"oh no honey we have all had a bit of fun, i remember the 90's, actually i dont... anyway what you need is this." she says as she hands me a box
" what is this?"
"well sugar open it and find out."
i do as she says and i see five joints, i close it quickly "are you mentaly deficciant?"
"probably, look its all yours and you can use it or not but you want to chill out im just helpin." she says handing me a lighter and pinching me cheek.
~♫♫♫~
i go behind the bleechers and smoke two joint's
it takes a bit but my god its some really strong stuff.
i walk to mr Schue and knock on the door "h-hey Mr S, just wanted to say that april is s-so cooool wiht me." i say pointing to myself. i leave not a second later
i walk down the hall and go realise that santana is my ride and she has cheer so i head to the bleechers where i nap until i get kicked off the seat
"hey Rea, you ok? " she says
"oh more than ok im feeling soooooo chill." i say smiling grabbing my stuff
"okay...." she dosnt belive me but i dont see that
"you are so pretty, like i know we arnt dating but im just glad we are close and you know i like that we make-"
i beign to say but she covers my mouth " god do you need some new contacts cant you see quinn and britt right overthere." she says whisper yelling at me while pointing to both of them
she looks in my eyes "wait, are you high?" she says now loking worried
i nod " yep, drive me home? im not sure im stable on my skate board."
she agrees and helps me to her car.
when we get in she looks mad "im mad at you." she says yep guessed it im still a genius.
"i know that, im not stupid, infact im so smart i could go to collage like two years erly, i dont want to though, cuz of youuuu." i say pointing at her
"god damn it i wish you wernt cut when you were high." she says trying to hide her smile.
i nod lacing her free hand with mine
" are your perents home?" she asks
i raise and eye brow
" not like that." she says laughing
" no they are at a work dinner, trying to pitch joinging and creating a company that sells and furnashes houses or whatever it is that they do."
she nods and we get to mine where she helps me to my room , iknow i can walk i just like the fact that she can be gentle and caring
she get out the sunshine pajamas "here." but i shake my head
"nope those are yours." i fold my arms not budging
she nods and gets out the dinosoar ones making me smile loudly
i sit at the edge of my bed, i know i can take off my own clothes but honestly i dont want this to end anytime soon.
she places the pjamas next to me and goes in between my legs to pull of the t-shirt reeling a white laced bra. she checks me out but unlike normal i speak up "like what you see?"
she smiles " if i didnt i wouldnt be here." she says without missing a beat makine me blush
she takes off my trousers revealing matching laced underwhere
"come on Rea, help me out here." she says trying to pull my socks off
"not until you kiss me, i know you are dying to. i see the way you look at me, like you are hungry for me." im not sure where this confidence came from but im not going to stop it so i continue by take off her cheer top revealing a red laced bra
"you are the one who told me i needed to chill out."
"we havnt done that before, i havnt, not with a girl." she says
"then lets learn, together." i say conecting our lips together pulling down her skirt ask she unhooks my bra and pulls the covers over us.
~♫♫♫~
The next day at school i just finish smoking agin and hearapril leave after being really mean to rachel so i come out of the stall pushing away the smoke
"are you high?"
"are you jewisj?"
"yes?"
"then you have your answer."
she sighs and wipes another tear "look if you are here to be mean then please just go."
"no look im sorry ok I didnt mean it. i dont ever really mean it im just an ass sometimes cuz alot goes on in my head and not all of it is good, ok?"
she nods " i dont want you to do my homeowrk-"
"god rachel you think you have it so hard, you get everythingyou want while some poeple never do, i work for hours on end and have A++ in all my subjects and am in glee where i have to dance and sing with people like you who's ego fits in the room before they do!"
"i told you andy if you want to be mean then just leave." she says pointing to the door
i begin to walk there "ya know i didnt have freinds. i watched from the side lines hoping for someone to ask how my day was insted of how to answer a cemestry equation. you walked in here and you got kurt, hell knows how and dont get me worng im not jelouse becuse me and kurt a friends for diffrent reasons, but i realised what you havnt yet... sometimes having friends is better than having everything you want, for me thats money and for you thats beign a star. i dont care if you come back to glee or not becuse honsetly rachel i can sing too and so can mercades and santana and quinn, we just dont have what you have. bye rachel, i hope you get some perspective and realise i could be a friend too if you stopped looking down to me."
i sigh and walk out leavingher with her jaw on the floor.
~♫♫♫~
"you are high again?!" santana says at lunch "this needs to stop ok i get it you knwo you needed to chill but i though we did a pretty good job of that last night?"
"i was high last night..."
"GOD i know but this isnt right, ive been hearing you arnt giving people thier homework when they pay in advance, you are going to have a target on your back Rea."
"meh they will get over it."
"you upped your prices to $100 for a passing grade!! i dont think they will, especially when i know for a fact karofski gave you $800 for an A in english."
i just shrug and walk off but she yells " be careful brainy i can look after you forever."
i give her a middle finger and walk away.
~♫♫♫~
we are in glee and last night i sobered up and apologised to santana leading for a... relaxing night.
currently we areholding hands behind some chairs while and kurt speaks
"maybe quinn is lactose intolorent."
"that dosent explain all thr crying." Artie says making me tense up realiseing what they are talking about. santana looks at me but i just nod assuring her im ok
"m-maybe she ust dosent like the group." tina says and i look to puckto see he speak up
"are you all that stupid? seriously. i bet you just thought bert and ernie were just roomates." she says
"oh no." i whisper under my breath and shrink into my chair, santana lets go and looks at me but i cant look at her becus eif i do she might read me like an open book.
puck stands up "maybe quinns got one in the oven" leaving everyone silent while i see santana looking at both me and puck.
"whos tha babys daddy?" mercades says
"who do you think." he says pausing
god what will he say
"finn." making kurt sigh but i just look downas rachel walks in
"yes, youve hurd right- i am returning to glee club. in lieu of flowers please send all donations to a socially consious charity of your choice."
we all ignore rachek and start talking and santana whispers "did you know?" making me look down but before i can reply i am saved by rachel
"uh, im sorry; i thought id be welcomed back with a tad more enthusiasm."
"sorry." kurt begins "glee club has been rocked with its first scandal." and mercades continues
"quinns knocked up." then kurt walks round behind Artie
"and the baby daddy.. finn." she says puttign his arms on his hips.
just as rachel leaves i go speeding off in the other direction becuse i dont think i can handle the day without a joint.
~♫♫♫~
i begin to walk home and santana runs up to me " hey we need to talk."
" no its cool, my perents are home so no sex at mine bu-"
"no we need to talk about quinn andrea." oop she pulled out the full name
" you know her body her choise, what can i say."
"you knew. i may not be as smart as you but im no idiot and i felt you tence up before puck said anything then you couldn't even look at me whe he did, so i will ask this again. Andrea Olivia Wright, did you know quinn was knocked up?"
"yes.." there is a silence
"i cant belive you." she says " why would you lie to me?"
"to be fair you never asked me if quinn was pregnant-"
"do not get smart with me right now einstein."
i look her in the eyes " you know, i dont call you sand bags or anyhting like that and i cant help it if im smarter than you."
"you are high..again, i dont like this, i dont like fighting with you not when we are fighing about real things. this hurts ok andy."
"i dont like it either but you seem to hate everything i do. you tell me to chill, i do and you are mad. i dont tell you bout quinn cuz you said i needed friends and so when i bond with quinn over secrets and try to look after her you are mad. i cant do anything right with you."
"fine, you know what im not going to do this with you so please text me when you are sober or at least when you dont stink of weed."
i shrug and walk home.
~♫♫♫~
santana and i apologised to eachother and sort of forgave eachother.
we just finished performing with april rhodes and we are changing "i liked the hat." i said to santana triyng to brake our silence
she smiles slightly and says " im coming to yours after this, no excuses."
i just nod excited for having some more fun but Mr schue comes in and brakes up my day dreams
"they loved us , were a hit." artie says high fiving mr schue
"wh-wh-hweses april?" tina asks and we all look to him so kurt continues
"you were right mr schue, shed massacere mariah in a diva off." making us all lightly laugh
mr shue looks sad and says " april is amazing. bus she is not in the glee club anymore, it... i uh.. i screwed up bringing her here. it was about me and glee club is supposed ot be about you guys. you dont need her to be grate."
then mercades says what im thinking " but we need her for the seond act."
"ill just have to go out there and tell them we had to cut the show short." he says making us all sigh " hey guys. you were grate, dont owrry. there will be other performances."
i look sadly at mercades but we hear a vice "excuse me." Rachel says " i think i might have a solution." she continues
"in show bussness whe a star cant perform, her understudy steps in. i'd be happy to go in for april, if youd let me."
mercades speaks up "since whe areyou willing to be an understudy?"
"since i quit the play." she says moving closer
"really, why?" kurt says
rachel look sat me and says " i realised being a star didnt make me feel as special as being you friend." making me genuinly smile at the fact she listened to me in the end
"if id let you down when you needed me the most, id never fogive myself." she say lookignat finn now.
"i know all the words to the song." she continues
"you dont know the choreography."quinn retaliates.
"Then we are going to have to give her alot of help out there ." finna and i say at the same time making us all smile at one another before i let shue speak
"go get in your costume." he says
and she does, Santana pulls me down "when were you a team player?"
"when rachel caugh me smoking week in the girls bathroom." there is no point lying to her so she shighs and lets go.
~♫♫♫~
after the performace santana and i walk home, i press a kiss on her lips before opening the door
"i know im a bit much at times but thank you for looking after me." i say looking into her eyes and she hold my weist
"i will always look out for you." she says stealing a quick kiss before i unlock the door.
when i do i see my mum and step-dad at the door
"hey andy-pandy, come lets sit in the living room." mom says
"umm wht is happaning, you dont call me any pandy, you haven't in years." i say as i am lead to the sofa by santana
they are all around me and mom comes in with the framed picture of dad that is normaly on the fireplace seeing as he was berried.
"your father was a grate man andy." she begins
"but he like everyone had his deamons."
santana grabs my hand as my mom continues
"he was so close to his dream you know but he died"
"i know he died of a heart attack its really sad but why does this matter-" i begin but Mark just says
"please listen andrea." weirdly i nod and my mom continues
"he-he didnt die of a heart attack, he was a drug addict." in that one sentence i figure out evrything.
santana told my perents bout the weed, if she didnt she wouldnt be here, they would have done this without her. my mom continues
"he dies of a drug overdose, it was some really hard stuff and i didnt tell you becuse you see your father as a saint and honestly he had moment of being one but his drug addiction was not one of them, once he went to far that he stole your TV. the reason im telling you this is becuse your friend santana told us baout you smoking weed, in school no less."
she takes a deep breath and holds marks hadn while i let go of santnas "
" your father also started by smoking weed. this is not something i will let you do im sorry you can do what you like when you are 21 and have those choises but not while under my roof and not when you are doing so well. honey you have the gift of intelegence and you are throwing it away. i have taken the pot and thrown it out, if we think this will continue your step father and i will drug test you if need be, now you are grounded for amonth and you go to school and go home, do i make myself clear?"
she says but tears are in my eyes . if I knew this about my dad i probably wouldnt have done it and i get what they are saying but mostly im crying becuse i trusted santana, fuck i trusted her so much i I lost my virginity to her less than a few days ago.
i nod apologie and tell them im walking santana out.
i walk her to her car and say nothing but she grabs me " Rea.. say something, i told you i would look out for you, I-I didn't know about your dad I'm so sorr-"
tears are runnig down my face "no, you were mad i didnt tell you about quinn and you took your revenge. what ever this is or was, its over. i dont trust you.." i begin to cry and see tears in her eyes
"fuck Santana we had sex, you were my fucking first everything and you are also the first person i trusted outside of my family and your broke evrything, i get you being mad but this was too far, please get in your car and leave becuse if you keep looking at me like that im scared i might fall apart." i say as i turn round and run back inside without looking at her.
if i did look i would see the same sadness reflected back at me and i would have hurd "but i need you."
but i didn't, i shut the door and ran to my room crying about santan being another one of my firsts;
my first heart brake.
A/N: i know the ending was super sad but I'm in love with the story for this and cant wait for them to be ok. he he they had sexxx
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