"What do you wanna do today?" Sami asked me with a small dazed smile, she was high out of her mind.
"Who knows." I had mumbled out with a sigh.
I was tugging my bag further up my shoulder before I went around the corner and when I glanced up I immediately stopped walking.
A blonde stood close to Sweet Pea with a hand on his arm the sight immediately making my hands clench.
Despite my radiating desire to smash her face in Sami and I kept walking. I stared the girl down hard as she finally glanced over at me.
I watched smugly as the happy expression dropped from her face as she paled. I shot her a nod with a smirk as if it were a warning, she gulped in response as I walked past the two, still unable to see Sweet Pea's face.
Little did I know Sweet Pea had noticed the annoying girls expression change into fear and had glanced up as I passed. Immediately being able to recognize my long black hair and my figure.
He had watched as my fists clenched and unclenches at my sides as I forced myself to stay besides Sami until we made it to her locker.
I couldn't help but lean my back against the locker to stare at them. Sweet Pea smiled down at the blonde making it feel as if I was choking.
"Sami?" I said through gritted teeth.
"What?" She had asked before looking to my gaze.
"Get me out of here before I skin that bitch." Sami had smiled a little and glanced behind me.
Zander slid in besides me, "Ouch."
"A blonde?" Zander had continued only making me more angry.
I shoved him hard against the lockers watching as he grinned at me.
"I'll fuck you up." I snapped at him.
"You know I love it when you do, Malyshka." Zander's eyes shined as I glared at him.
I had stormed away from the two knowing that if I stayed I would do something I would regret. I wanted to dig my switchblade into her and rip her stomach open.
I kept myself against a mostly empty row of lockers as I took deep breaths. I couldn't calm myself down, I knew I was being crazy and yet I couldn't stop.
At the sound of shoes I glanced up wishing I hadn't. At our eyes meeting I knew I was going to be suspended.
I approached her fear filled figure quickly, grabbing onto her arms and slamming her back into a row of lockers.
"You know he's mine, right?" My tone came out in a fury, almost scaring myself.
"I-I didn't I swear." The blonde whined out with her eyes open wide.
"You know what I do to people who fuck with things I like?" My head tilted at her.
"Please don't!" Her eyes welled up with tears as I laughed.
"You talk to him, touch him again and I'll make sure Sheriff Keller never finds your head." I could almost see it in my head as I slammed her back into the locker again.
"Lilith!" A disappointment filled call of my name made me glance to my right without letting the girl go.
Toni frowned at me with both boys flanking her sides, at my torn gaze the blonde ducks under my arm.
"You're crazy!" Tears fell over her cheeks as she rushed down the hall.
I lean my shoulder into the locker as I stare Toni down, "Don't fuck with my fun, Toni."
Toni glanced up to the figure I could tell was Sweet Pea before she slammed her palm into his chest. When I looked up to his face the smile was falling off of it at her hit.
"Don't encourage her." Toni had snapped at him which only made me smile.
"I don't need encouragement. It's instinct." I had spoke out to her.
"You should be proud, I didn't even hit her." I smiled a little.
"That's shocking." Fangs said with an impressed expression.
"Wanted to gut her like a deer." I muttered out with an eye roll.
"It's weird hearing you say that stuff now that we know you're a Ghoulie." Fangs let out a small laugh, "Now we know you aren't kidding."
When I finally glanced to Sweet Pea I was shocked by the small smirk, the dark look in his eyes. When my eyes met his I watched as he made a point to look me over, his eyes catching at my purposeful amount of cleavage.
"Leave." Sweet Pea said quietly to his friends who only looked up to him in surprise.
Once he stepped away from their side to approach me Fangs tugged Toni away by her arm.
As soon as he was close enough Sweet Pea pushed my back into the lockers, mirroring the way I had caged the girl in.
"You miss me, baby?" He asked with a smile.
I couldn't help but stare at him for a moment, "No."
Sweet Pea laughed at this before leaning close to me, my eyes falling closed in wait of his mouth. After a second I opened them back up to see a deep smugness on his face.
"Beg for it." His tone dropped low as he watched my face, his hands moving to my hips.
Goosebumps broke over my skin, "No."
His brows pulled together at my rejection.
"I don't want you to touch me." It was a blatant lie, we both knew it. I also knew I didn't want to fuck Sweet Pea when I was deeply in love with him.
"I only did it to make you mad." He confessed quietly.
"I know you gave her a dirty look to scare her away from me. As much as I appreciated it I wanted more of your attention." I glared up at him at this.
"You've always had my attention, you wanted to hurt my feelings." I didn't understand him.
"You did the same thing with Zander." His face slipped into a jealous expression.
"No I fucking didn't. I wouldn't do that to you." I snapped shoving his hands off my hips.
"Oh really? So you're saying you didn't let him fuck you?" His accusation wounded me, as if he should have known I didn't want anyone else.
"I didn't even let him kiss me." I glared watching a unrecognizable expression form on him.
"Why?" He asked quietly as if it surprised him.
I tried to keep the glare but I knew the sad look had risen in my eyes, "Kissing Zander wouldn't make me not love you anymore."
It almost seemed like Sweet Pea let out a deep breath at my confession. I decided I didn't care anymore, if I was going to loose him he was going to know everything.
"When I was seven my father bought me my first knife, I was getting into fights by the time I was eleven. I was raised to be a cruel killing machine and that's all I've ever been. I was fucking miserable and terrified every second I was conscious. I tried to fucking kill myself before I was even thirteen and my father beat the shit out of me for it. My life was fucking hell. And then I fucking met you in that bar in Greendale and you made me think that a different life was possible. That I could be soft without being seen as weak, as an easy target. That every living second didn't have to be filled with fear a-and pain. That I could trust you and that you would make sure I was safe and you wouldn't ever hurt me." I rambled watching his eyes blink down at me.
"I knew my father would kill me if he found out where I was going, that I had ever been near a Serpent unless I was trying to mangle one. I liked the way you spoke to me, the way you touched me and made me feel. I liked having friends who didn't just want to get fucked up and cut each other apart. I like having a Friday night where I wasn't breaking bones or covering myself in ice packs from getting in fights. You were always so willing to understand me and to listen to me."I hated feeling the tears rise making my nose burn slightly.
"The last person I felt that close to was shot in front of me. I'm sorry I didn't tell you but I was ashamed of who I was, what my real life was and I didn't even feel like I was that girl when I was with you. The longer time went on the more I realized I couldn't because I didn't want to lose you or risk my father somehow finding out that I cared about you more than I ever have about anyone else. I know I was being selfish!" I wiped a tear off my cheek as Sweet Pea continued to stare down at me.
"I tried so hard to hide at the race so you wouldn't see me that way, the part of me I hate more than I hate my father. To hide and that I could live in my dream land for just a little while longer. Kai told me the second I went to go after you that I would be a dead girl walking, that he wouldn't be able to protect me from choosing you over my own." It hurt to spill my guts, my chest clenching as if it was begging me to stop.
"And I still fucking went after you. As if you wouldn't reject me, as if you wouldn't confirm every single thing my brother had badgered into my mind about you not loving me." Sweet Pea's eyes flashed away from my own as my tears began to coat my cheeks.
"I love you so much I was willing to die to receive rejection from you and you didn't even care enough about me to take a split second to remember everything I've ever told you. The amount of times I've cried." I hated him, I hated that he wouldn't fucking look at me.
"I turned into a whole new girl that I was happy with and had gotten so comfortable being. And then you ripped her fucking heart out. She's fucking dead and the buried, violent Lilith is back and she's gonna be worse than ever." Because now she was heartbroken and absolutely hopeless.
"So no, Sweet Pea. I don't want you to touch me when I know you don't love me and never could." I shoved him a step away from me before I stormed away from him.
As I turned the corner of the hall my chest burst into flames, despite my rushed steps my mind begged him to come after me. I knew he wouldn't, because unlike me he didn't care enough to chase me.
I didn't bother to try anymore, I rushed to the front door. In the front hall Betty Coopers eyes locked onto mine before widening at the sight of my tears.
"Look away before I cut your fucking eyes out, Cooper!" I had threatened only to have her face soften.
It made me angry but as much as I wanted to punch that expression off her face I shoved the front doors open.
And I fucking ran.
This time I ran away from Sweet Pea.
I vowed to myself silently I wouldn't make myself a fool again, I would never love again if it made me feel this way.
Murderous. And a sadness that filled me so much that it suffocated me.
I hate him. I hate him for how much he made me feel, and I promised to myself that I wouldn't show Sweet Pea anymore of me.
He didn't deserve it.
The Ghoulie Princess is going to rise again.
I can't stop it this time.