Amelia's POV
All eyes turned to Gray as he spoke.
"Seriously?!" He spoke again.
Tension grew in the air as everyone stared at Gray. My father glared at him and hushed him. Gray rolled his eyes but still obeyed.
I looked down at my plate and slowly kept eating. Once I was full, half of the food was left on my plate. I couldn't bring myself to eat more, not right now anyways.
"May I b-be excused?" I mumbled. My father looked at me then my plate, then back at me.
"Sweetie you need to finish your food first and then you can go." He sternly said. I shook my head at him telling him I can't.
"Stop being a fucking drama queen and eat the damn food!" Blake yelled at me. Gray nodded in agreement.
By this time, everyone else had already left the table leaving me, my father, Blake and Gray at the table.
"Don't speak to your sister like that Blake. But Amelia he's right about you needing to eat the food. You've not ate a full meal yet since you've been here so you're not leaving this table until that plate it spotless." My father said. I was about to reply when he gave me a hard look as if daring me to say no.
Now what kind of person would I be to turn down a dare?
"No. I'm full." I replied back. He sent Blake and Gray out of the room so he could speak to me privately.
"Amelia, there's no easy way to say this. You look anorexic. Now eat, don't make me have to repeat myself again." He spoke with finality.
I admit I was a bit thin, but that's not down to me. I wasn't allowed to eat much at my old house. If I did, I would be punished in ways that left me numb for weeks. I was told I had to watch my figure because then people would love me more.
Which obviously was a load of bull crap. All sizes are beautiful.
Now I'm being forced to eat when I'm full.
Not wanting to risk being punished, I slowly picked up my fork and continued to eating. I swallowed eat bite harshly forcing it down with orange juice.
By the time I was done, I had tears in my eyes and I felt like I was going to throw up.
"See? That wasn't so hard was it? Go on, you can go now." He smiled at me.
I avoided his gaze and quickly ran out of the room.
I headed straight for my room feeling the need to throw up.
I locked my door behind me, running straight for the bathroom. I leaned over the toilet throwing up everything I had eaten.
I knew this would happen.
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Time skip
For the next few days the same thing happened.
I'd be forced to eat all of my food even when I tell them I'm full and I literally cannot eat anymore. I'd eat, then throw it all up then repeat. My throat was beginning to ache from all of the throwing up I was doing.
On top of that, my body was aching more than usual. Even though my bruises were beginning to clear up and fade away, my ribs still hurt when I made sudden movements.
Welp
Anyways, it was now the day before school, and I was honestly dreading it.
I was never good at making friends or even talking to people in general so I don't know what I'm going to do.
I was currently on my bed listening to Only a Matter of Time by Joshua Bassett. It was so good, and unexpected. It was so different from his other songs and those high notes?!
Wow.
My door handle turned and in walked Kai. Although he didn't look like his usual happy self.
"Hey buddy, what's wrong?" I asked him. He walked over to my bed and gestured for me to pick him up.
"I'll be lonely tomorrow, I don't like it." He glumly replied.
"Don't worry about that because guess what?" He looked up at me confused.
"What?"
"When I come back, we can play for hours and watch movies and do anything you want okay?" I offered. He seemed to like that idea as a bright smile found its way back onto his face.
"Yesss!" He squealed. "Thanks sissy." He kissed my cheek and laid beside me cuddling up to me. I put one ear bud in my ear and turned the volume down so I could listen to music and still speak to Kai if he wanted to talk.
Halfway through the third song, I noticed Kai had fallen asleep so I carefully got up and tucked him into my bed. I put cushions on the floor next to the bed just in case.
You never know what could happen.
I pecked his forehead softly and left my room to wander around.
I walked downstairs towards the living room where I overheard Gray and Blake talking.
"Bro I swear she's such a drama queen, acting like she can't eat." Gray chuckled.
"I know right? It's a good thing she doesn't want to eat anyways. She's already fat as it is. She should go on a diet if anything." Blake replied.
Ouch...
"Why'd she have to come here in the first place? We were fine without her. As far as I'm concerned I don't have a sister, she's just a burden that was put on our shoulders." Gray said.
"True true."
After that I'd heard enough.
I quickly ran back to my room with tears streaming down my face. I remembered that Kai was asleep on my bed so I went into the bathroom, turned on the tap and sobbed. I still kept them quiet because it could wake Kai up.
I knew they thought of me as a burden.
I don't belong here.
Trigger Warning ⚠️
I opened my cabinet and pulled out my razor. The one thing that was always there for me when I needed it. I made sure the doo was locked and began to get to work.
One cut for being a drama queen.
Two cuts for being a burden.
Three cuts for not belonging here or anywhere.
Four cuts for being too fat.
Five cuts for existing.
Blood dripped down my thighs onto the tiled floors. I stopped sobbing briefly to take in the pain. I'd gotten used to it mostly, but the pain was still evident.
Seeing as I was already in here, I decided to take a shower and go straight to bed.
I took a cold shower and wrapped myself in my robe. I didn't bring clothes in here with be since I was busy.
I found a black and white polka dotted onesie and made my way to my bed.
I got in next to Kai and let the darkness consume me.
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Authors note
I really need to start being more consistent with my updates but I am working on it.
I hope you enjoy this chapter and I'll try to update sooner than I usually do.
~Slayy_babyy
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