Ashton's POV:
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"But dad I want to play right now" he was pleading to his dad
"What did I said? I don't give a fuck about what you want, I'm here to teach you a new lesson" his cold dad said to him
"But I don't like seeing how you make others bleed, I can't see it" Ashton was almost crying, he didn't want to see more people suffer and mostly because his dad is the cause
"Don't be a fucking prude, you'll do what I say or you know the consequences, would you like to take their place?" His dad challenge him
"N-no" Ashton was petrified "I'll go"
"Great" his dad smirked
"Excuse me sir, there's someone who requested to talk to you" one of the guards of their house interrupted
"I'm busy right now with my kid" he told the guard annoyed
"Sir- He said it was urgent" Ashton's dad scoffed "it's a leader from another mafia" the guard added
Ashton was almost praying that his dad would go with the guard so that he wouldn't have to see the lesson of today
"Fine" he sighed "I'll come for your lesson later" Ashton's dad told him
Ashton was so glad, relieved
"Go to your room now" his dad order
He quickly obey, he knows better than not to
*play song*
On his way to his room he saw in the living room a little girl about his age dancing
"What the hell? Who is her? Why is another kid my age here?" He thought to himself
He got downstairs to observe closer that little girl, she was dancing with her eyes closed, headphones on her ears
When he saw her face, his world seem to have stopped
'She's so pretty' he thought
Her brownish hair moving naturally along with her dance moves, her face was a soft feature, so pretty, smiling, she seemed happy
Ashton was shocked of the sight in front of him
Who is her? And what is she doing here?
Then like she could feel him, she opened her eyes and meet his
Both of them seem shocked
She had blue eyes, beautiful blue eyes that were shining, those blue eyes captivated him
"Geez, you scared me!" The girl told him
'Why is she talking at me like that? Doesn't she know who I am?' He thought
"You're the one dancing like crazy in my living room" he said to her
"So what? I got here first!" She crossed her arms, he was getting mad because no one ever talked to him like that, just his dad
"Don't you know who I am?" He asked her eyeing her
"No, but you also don't know who I am" she told him
"Exactly" He said
"Exactly" she mocked him
'What the heck is wrong with this girl?' He thought and started getting more pissed
"Stop mocking me" he order
"Stop mocking me" she again mocking him
"What's wrong with you? My dad is going to be bad with you if you keep annoying me" he tried to scare her
"And?" She smiled, her smile make him stop breathing for a second
"And I would suggest you to stop" he told her
"Fine, But I'll stop because you already bored me" she told him
'I bored you? Am I boring? What?' Ashton was so confused but intrigued
"Want to hear my music?" She asked him
"Okay" he agreed
"Say please" She smiled again
"No" he frowned
"You need to learn some manners, say please" she repeated herself
'Why are you so stubborn?' He thought
"Fine, please" he gave up really quick, he was so surprised that he was obeying her
"See, it wasn't that difficult" she smiled and pinched his cheek
The moment her hand touched him he felt something weird, but amazing, like his skin was on fire
She gave him one headphone and she put on the other one
She was listening to old music, that's weird
"How old are you?" Ashton asked her
"5 but I'm turning 6 soon" she proudly said
"I'm 6" he told her
"I didn't ask that" she told him
'Damn it woman'
He rolled his eyes "what's your name?" He asked
"I can't tell you that, you're a stranger" he immediately went mad, he isn't just a stranger he is Ashton, he isn't like everyone else, he's not a stranger and well, he didn't want to be a stranger to her
"I'm not a stranger, I'm..." the little girl put her hand on his mouth shutting him
"No I don't want to hear it, first we have to become friends, then we'll share names" she told him and he nodded
He hated it, that she had this effect on him, like she has power over him that he agreed to everything she said, and not the other way around
But still he wanted to know more about this beautiful girl
"I do want to be your friend" Ashton told her
"I want to be your friend too" she smiled at him, and he smiled back, for the first time in a while he had his perfect dimpled smile, and all because of her
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Something was weird, it smells amazing beside me and my pillow can fucking breath
Wait what the fuck?!?
I opened my eyes and got out of that beautiful dream, I can't believe I forgot about that girl, I can't remember exactly everything but I know that dream was something that happened before, I just don't know when, what, and who was she
And it's so fucking frustrating
It was the first time in years I didn't have a nightmare, and I slept through all the night, I don't know what's the reason of this but I'm glad
Then I realized what was happening, I was cuddling with April
No
No
No
I was hugging her from behind and my legs where intertwined with hers. It seems like she's still very much asleep so I decided to get off bed, trying to not wake her up while unfolding my legs from hers
The minute I was again on my side I felt so cold and I hated it, I hated that she made me feel warm with her touch and that I missed being in that position with her, even though I just moved it seemed like my fucking body was craving for me to hold her again
Why???
I need to get laid, that's the reason
Yeah another fucking reason, I couldn't have sex anymore, since the last time I tried to have a hookup I couldn't, now I didn't find any woman attractive, and I was bored so I couldn't even have fun with that
You know who seems attractive to you
Stop, that's not true
I looked at her once more and now she was frowning, like if her unconscious mind knew I stepped back and didn't like that
It's just my imagination, it can't be, but I get caught again looking at her, looking how peaceful she looks
Then I started to panic
I've never shared a bed with anyone, just for sex, but even after that they wouldn't sleep in my bed, next to me, they would always sleep in the guest room, heck they didn't even went into my room, we had sex in other places, but I've never let any woman on my room
Just one time when we brought her unconscious, but that was different
And I just fucking share a bed with Rose
I don't like how that makes me feel, it's foreign and I fear the foreign
I need to get away, luckily she isn't going to know that this happened
You can't leave her here you prick
I'm going to shower then
After I finished I went out already dressed because I don't know how to act now, well the only thing missing is my shirt because she has it
She doesn't even know that happen, breath
Yeah and she's not going to know
When I got out of the bathroom I saw her already sitting in the bed
Damn it, she's still not wearing a bra
I need another shower, a cold one
"Here..." I heard the last part of what she was saying, I was lost seeing her in my shirt, it looks so good in her
Stop
"Ashton?" She asked confused and I like how my name sounds when she says it
No you don't, this is just sexual frustration
I look at her now aware
"I asked if the boys are here with clothes already?" She looked confused of seeing me like this
Yeah, it's not like everyday I share my private space with anyone Rose so I'm obviously acting weird
It may seem like I'm making a huge deal out of this shit, but for me my space it's so important, I've never had anyone to share or connect, so it's foreign to me to be close to someone in that way, and I fear what I don't know
I checked my phone and it said that the guys indeed were getting here in an hour
"It says that they'll be here in an hour" I told her
"All right" she nodded and gave me a small smile
I like her smile
No you don't
It's the sexual frustration
It's just that
"So you sleep well?" Wait, does she knows? She definitely know? Shit, shit
"Why?" I replied a little bit aggressive but I'm definitely going to deny if she remembers
"Just asking, geez, don't need to get all Mulan on me" she raised her hands up in surrender
"Mulan?" I seriously never know what's going on inside her brain
"Yeah, all defensive" she explains
"Oh yeah, I know, and I slept okay" I scratched the back of my neck, she doesn't remember, that's good
"Good" she added and now we were on a uncomfortable silence
"So like we're okay right?" She asked me
"What you mean okay?" She definitely knows
Stop being so dramatic dimwit
"I mean nothing has changed right? We are still friends?" She asked
About that, I don't like the word friends
But I guess we have to be polite to each other so I'll pretend I'm her friend
"Yes" I simply nodded
And she smiles like she's relieved that nothing had changed
Then I got distracted because Kile was calling me
"What do you want?" I answered the phone
"Calm down Jamal" Kile said
"What did you just call me?"
"Oh don't get all bossy right now, I just called you to tell you we're here with the clothes and we checked and the coast is clear now" Kile explained
"Good I'll go downstairs for the clothes" I told him and hang up
"The guys are here, they got here early so I'm going downstairs to get the clothes" I told April
"Okay" she agreed "I'll wait here"
I nodded and made my way downstairs, the receptionist was drooling when she saw me walking shirtless and I smirked at her, she's like 20, maybe with her I can let my sexual frustration out
When I was about to make a move it was like my body stopped me and I couldn't
What the fuck is wrong with me?!?!
I rolled my eyes and went outside to meet the boys
I'm going crazy
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A.N.
We got a dream/flashback of young Ashton
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