When I woke up the following morning I was hoping the night before was a bad dream but it wasn't and I had to come to the realization that nothing would or could ever happen between Matt and myself.
When I heard the phone ring I knew exactly who it would be and I really didn't want to answer the phone but Tina was asleep in bed so i couldn't let the phone ring.
"Hello" I said timidly as I answered the phone. With everything that happened in my life so far the phone had almost become my enemy. It seemed like every time I answered the phone it was bad news.
" Hi Emily, it's me Matt, what have you been up too? Are you Okay? Can I pop over so we can talk?" It was as though Matt thought I would hang up on him and he wouldn't have the chance to ask me any questions so he threw them all out at once.
"I'm fine thanks Matt. I really don't think it's a good idea if you come over"
"Emily, me and my wife are not on good terms and I am only with her because of the baby, I really like you Emily. Please let me come and see you so we can talk face to face" he interrupted me whilst I was speaking.
"Matt I cannot and will not be a home wrecker ever. I have been hurt to many times by men and I really think you should put all your efforts into making it work with your wife" I responded.
"But Emily.." I cut him off before he could continue.
"Matt, no this is not going to happen. We can still be friends but that is all. I'm sorry Matt but I can't and won't do this. Please respect my decision" I stated.
"Okay Emily, I'll give you a call in a few days and make sure you are ok"
"See ya Matt, take care" I said as I hung up the phone before he could keep the conversation going.
I went over to the kettle and put it on. I needed a coffee and 10 minutes to myself before I went to get Ava.
As I sat there thinking about our conversation a weight lifted off my shoulders. I really did like Matt and this did hurt my feelings but I was so proud of myself for not giving in and making a decision that was the right one all round. I would be okay.
I can't say that I didn't think to myself why does this always happen to me, why do I make the wrong decisions because I did but in the end I really needed a new start and this should be the first step towards that.
When Tina woke we sat and chatted about what had happened. She told me she was proud of me. I loved speaking with her because she would say what she thought, she was not backwards at coming forward.
A few weeks after this Tina had come home and said we needed to chat.
"Emily, Dave and I have been talking and we are going to move in together!" She said. I know she was excited but she was also concerned as this meant that Ava and I would be alone.
"I'm happy for you Tina" I said as I leant in to give her a hug.
Was it wrong that I was thinking how can I do this all by myself? I wasn't earning a lot of money and the rent on the house I definitely could not pay by myself. I didn't let on though.
I told her it was fine and that I would look in to getting a smaller place for Ava and I. Tina stayed until we found a new place and the day we moved in I was pretty excited. One of our mates said he would move in to the spare room to help out with rent. We had know him for long time and he was always great with Ava also.
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