05/11/2018
Friday
11:56am
"So how are you doing with the medications I prescribed for you?" Dr.Suarez asked.
You gave her a small smile and said, "I'm doing good. They seem to be helping me a lot. I haven't tried harming myself since my accident."
"That's good too hear Y/N. You've made a lot of progress since the first time I met with you. I wanted to ask you something though."
You nod taking in everything she was saying. Ever since you started coming in every week to see her, you've been listening to everything she has to say about you making sure not to miss anything.
"How many times a day are you smoking?"
She had to ask for permission from Dr. Richardson and Wilson to see if it would be ok for you to have a medical card. They agreed but they only wanted you to use it when your anxiety got really bad not for whenever.
Spencer was against it in the beginning, but he warmed up to the idea. He'd tell you facts about medical marijuana and he'd always try and get you to calm down before you'd actually go outside and smoke.
"Maybe once or twice a day. Spencer always tries to help me through my anxiety attacks before I actually give into smoking. Sometimes he helps and I won't do it, so I sit with him instead and talk about what's bothering me."
"Ok that's good, it's better than what you told me a few weeks ago." She says and writes something down in her notebook.
Yeah, so a few weeks ago she had asked what you were doing to help with your anxiety and you told her that'd you smoke marijuana and she asked how many times a day and you said five or six times a day.
Big problem there.
"So Spencer seems to be helping you a lot? How does that make you feel?"
You smile just thinking about all the things he's done throughout your recovery. "Yeah he is. He's always there to talk, he listens, doesn't judge me or blame me for anything, and he shows me everyday how much he's cares about my mental health. It makes me feel happy." You admit.
"Well that's all the time we have for today, but I do want to see you for maybe another month or two just to be sure you're doing better. I'm proud of you Y/N, you've made lots of progress. Have a good rest of your day and if anything happens don't be afraid to call." She tells you as you both walk out of the room.
"Thank you so much Katie. I'll see you next week. Have a good day." You tell her and walk out of the office.
As you walk out you have one of the biggest smiles on your face and it gets even bigger when you see Spencer sitting in the car waiting for you.
He notices your smile and that brings a smile to his face as well.
"How'd it go?" He asks you as you get into the car giving him a kiss.
"It went really well. She told me that I'm making a lot of progress and that my medications seem to be working and I couldn't agree any more. I'm still gonna be seeing her for another month or two. I told her about how much you help me too." You tell him as he starts to drive away from the office.
"That's really great baby. I'm so proud of you." He says and intertwines his fingers with yours and brings your hand to his lips and places a kiss to the back of it.
"I'm proud of myself. I'm getting better and have you, Desiree, Jen, and Dr. Suarez to thank." You tell him and he flashes you a smile and you lean over the center console and place a kiss to his cheek.
You see that he starts to blush and you let out a small giggle and he stops at a red light and looks at you and says, "What do you think about meeting my team? Rossi invited us over for dinner tonight and he said that if you were up for it and feeling ok that we could go, but that's up to you."
The light turns green and he starts to drive in the all to familiar direction to your apartment and you say, "I want to meet them. I think it's time for me to meet your friends, well family. You've met my friends already, so I think I should do the same with you. It'll be better for me to actually know what they're like other than just hearing stories and getting gift baskets from Penelope."
He lets out a chuckle and says, "Ok I'll let him know we'll be there and speaking of Penelope, she sent over three new gift baskets this morning. They are sitting outside of your door."
"I will be sure to thank her when I see her later on. Spence I'm excited, I get to finally meet your team. See when I met Rossi and Luke, we had no time to talk because you pulled both of us away for the other plans you had planned for us." You say and flash him a wink.
"You know we've known each other for almost five months and have been dating for almost four." He tells you as he pulls into the parking garage.
You smile at all the memories you've made with him throughout these few months the good and the bad, but mostly focus on the positive and fun times you've both had.
He parks the car and turns off the ignition and turns to look at you and he cups your cheek and collides his lips with yours. "I'm so proud of you Y/N. So fucking proud of you." He says in between the kiss which brings a smile to your face.
He pulls away and opens his door and it become a habit for you to wait for him, so he could open the door for you and help you out of the car. He jogs around the car and opens the door for you, reaching out for your hand to take in his.
You both walk up to your apartment and once on your floor, you see the baskets from Penelope.
"I seriously don't know where to put all of this stuff." You say as you and Spencer walk into the apartment with baskets in your hands.
She sent over candles, bath salts, chocolates, flowers, fruits, stuffed animals, slippers, colored pens, notebooks, crayons and coloring books.
You place the baskets on the counter and start to take everything out with Spencer's help of course. Opening the baskets involved using a knife and you know that you're doing better, but you still don't trust yourself just yet to hold it yourself.
Spencer puts away some of the fruits, and you take the bath salts into the bathroom.
"Babe, where do you want the candles?" You hear Spencer shout from the kitchen.
"Bring them into the room." You shout back.
You hear the fridge close and the sounds of cabinet doors being closed as well, when you find yourself staring at the floor where you once laid in your own blood.
Spencer walked into the room placing the candles on the nightstand, when he sees you looking down at the floor. He walks into the bathroom and pulls you out and sits you down on the bed.
"Hey look at me." He says to you in the softest voice ever.
You peel your gaze away from the bathroom and make eye contact with him and you say, "I'm ok, I just never really paid so much attention as to what happened in there on that spot on the floor."
Spencer cups your face and says, "You dissociated. It's a common thing to happen, when you go through something traumatic you start to lack continuity between your thoughts, memories, surroundings, actions and sometimes with your own identity. You dissociate to help your mind cope with all the stress after a traumatic experience."
You pay attention to everything he is saying because what he just explained to you, is what you were doing.
Trying to put that event in the past and it should stay in the past, but when you sit and think about it to much it comes back to you.
Nodding that you understand what he said, he sits down next to you on the bed and you lean your shoulder on his head evening out your breathing.
After ten minutes in silence you lift your head up and pull Spencer in for kiss.
"What was that for?" He says as you pull away.
"Think of it as me saying thank you for everything you've been doing for me to help me get better." You say to him with a soft smile.
He nods at your words then opens his mouth, "You still up for going to Rossi's later?"
You gasp and say, "Of course I am, what kind of a question is that?"
Letting out a small laugh along with Spencer you stand up and sit on his thigh. "What should I wear?" You ask him.
He wraps an arm around your waist to hold you and says, "Nothing to fancy. It's just dinner babe."
"Ah ah it not just dinner, it's dinner with the people you consider your family. Oh wait I have the perfect outfit." You say and quickly get up and walk into your closet.
You hear Spencer laughing a bit and you know it's from your overall excitement for tonight.
He hopes everything goes well and that no one says anything about her.
Especially JJ.
Where is it? Where is it? You ask yourself as you look through the clothes in your closet.
Scanning through all the clothes, you finally land on what you were looking for.
You pulled out a long red coat that ended just below your knees, along with some light blue mom jeans with a few rips on the knees, a basic white tank top, and a pair of nude stiletto heels.
Placing down all the pieces of clothing on the chair, you walk over to Spencer who's reading a book that was on your nightstand from the night before. "Do you need to go home to get ready or do you have something here?"You ask him.
"I'm gonna have to go home, but I'll be back in half an hour so I can ready here. You gonna be ok or do you wanna come with me?" He tells you and tucks a piece of your hair behind you ear.
"Um I think I'll be ok here. I'm gonna take a shower, you'll probably be back when I'm done."
"Ok I'll be back and if anything happens just call me."
You give him a nod and a smile and he walks out the bedroom and you hear the front door open, then close.
Letting out a sigh, you go into your closet and grab your towel, then walk into the bathroom.
You don't close the door all the way, leaving it ajar and you turn the water on letting it warm up to your liking, while you strip out of the clothes you were wearing.
Before getting into the shower, you go through the cabinets looking for a new bottle of shampoo and conditioner, and body wash. Once you find them, you place them in the corner of the shower and get in.
Once the warm water falls down your body, your muscles relax. Grabbing your vanilla scented shampoo, you squirt some onto your hand then massage it into your hair.
Letting the suds fall down your body, you grab the same scented conditioner and squirt some onto your hand them massaging it gently into your hair. While letting the conditioner set in your hair for a few minutes, you grab your loofah a put some body wash onto it then scrub it around your body.
You put your head underneath the water letting the conditioner fall off and the suds off your body fall as well.
Once you finished. you turned off the water, grabbing your towel from the rack beside the shower and wrap it around your body and another one for your hair.
You walked over to the sink and did your skin care like always. Same as always but effective; cleanser, toner, serum, moisturizer, and spf.
Walking out of the bathroom, you walk into your closet and grab a pair of white panties and a white lacy bra. You quickly put them on and sit down on your bed putting on lotion all over your body.
Standing up, you walk over to your vanity and grab your robe from the back of your chair and before you can put it on, you hear the bedroom door open.
"Well this is a beautiful sight to walk into."
You turn your head and see Spencer walking towards you. Giving him a smile he gets closer to you causing you to back up against the vanity.
He places his hands on the vanity, boxing you in. Your breath hitches and Spencer's eyes travel down your entire body, with a smirk on his face.
Spencer notices your body language and he knows how much you want him to fuck you, but doctors orders, no sex until you're done with therapy.
He tilts up your chin pulling you in for a passionate but aggressive kiss. You wrap your arms around his neck, while his hands move from you waist to the backs of your thighs.
Lifting you up without breaking the kiss, you wrap your legs around his waist and he lays you down on the bed and his lips travel down from your lips to the valley of your breast.
"Spence-." You can't even form a sentence when he does things like this.
He pulls away and hovers over you and says, "As much as I want to have sex with you right now, we can't." He gets up and walks over to his bag and pulls out his clothes and a towel.
"Ugh Spence we haven't had sex in almost three months! The last time we did anything sexual was me sucking your dick."
"Listen to me. Your therapist told you no sex until therapy was over for you and when you're cleared after your psych eval. I will wait until you're ready ok, don't think otherwise." Spencer says to you.
"Yeah whatever." Is all you say.
You start to put on your clothes and before Spencer walked into the bathroom he says, "I'm sorry Y/N."
He closes the door and you start to feel bad because this isn't his fault, he's just listening to what your therapist told you and wants to make sure you're ready physically, mentally, and emotionally.
You finished putting on your clothes and wait to put on your heels last, so you start do you hair and makeup.
Checking your phone, you see that it's almost five and Spencer told you that we'd leave around seven, so you had enough time.
You start by doing your hair, and you settled for lose curls. Letting the curling iron heat up, you look at your wrists and see the scars that you have and they already healed, but you decide to wrap them up so, nobody will see them.
After twenty minutes, you finished curling half of your hair and Spencer walked out of the bathroom with his towel hung low on his waist.
Ugh can he not do that when I'm sexually frustrated. You say to yourself.
He walks back into the bathroom with a pair of boxers, and less than two minutes, he walks out. He starts to pull on his pants and you look at him through your mirror and ugh just by looking at him he turns you on.
You see his toned stomach, his happy trail, toned forearms, veiny hands, and- no Y/N calm down. Bringing your attention back to your hair, you quickly finish and Spencer was all finished changing and he sat on the bed putting on a pair of mismatched socks and his black converse.
You start to apply your makeup and it's nothing too dramatic. Some foundation, concealer, blush, highlight, simple eyeshadow, mascara, lashes, and lip gloss.
Standing up from your chair, you walk over to sit on the bed and put on your heels. You stand up and put on your coat and spray some perfume on yourself and check your hair and makeup. Once you're satisfied with your appearance, you grab your purse and walk out the room.
"I'm ready babe" You announce.
Spencer stands up from the couch and turns off the tv and turns to look at you.
"Baby you look gorgeous."
"Thank you. And you look very handsome." You tell him as you reach up to fix his collar a bit.
He was wearing a black and white plaid button up, with black jeans, and his converse. His sleeves were rolled up to his elbows, two buttons undone, gold dagger necklace and
a ring on his pinky.
"Thank you baby, you ready to go?" He asks.
You nod and flash him a smile, which he returns. He holds out his hand for you and you take it in yours intertwining his fingers with yours.
The both of you walk out of the apartment and you make sure to lock up. The walk down to the car is spent in silence, not an awkward silence, a comfortable silence.
Once by the car, Spencer opens the door for you like the gentleman he is and makes his way to drives side as you buckle up.
He starts the car and puts on his seat belt and looks over at you to see if you have yours on already, the turns back around and starts driving.
"I'm excited to meet everyone." You say as you wrap your arm around his and lean your head on him.
"They are all excited to meet you too. Penelope called me a total of ten times to see if you were coming and I'd say yes, but she'd always call to see if you had changed your mind."
Trying your best not to over think anything, you turn on the radio and start to sing along to the music.
"What is it?" Spencer asks as he turns into a gated community.
You let out a sigh and say, "I'm just worried."
"About what?"
"That they won't like me or that they'll judge our relationship. I'm sorry I know their your friends, but- never mind."
He pulls into a small road and you see all the houses, well mansions and he says, "Don't be worried, they all wanted to meet you, but if you get uncomfortable and want to leave just tell me. Ok?"
You nod and give him a smile and say, "Ok."
He pulls into the drive way and you're in shock when you see Rossi's mansion. "Oh my god." You say underneath your breath.
Spencer heard you and said, "Just wait till you see inside.
He parked the car and turned off the ignition, then unbuckled his seat belt and got out to open the door for you.
As you both walked up to the door hand in hand, you let out breath and Spencer asks, "Ready?"
"I'm ready."
He knocks on the door and within a few seconds, the door opens wide by Rossi.
"Spencer and Y/N are here."
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Author's Note <3
Ah don't hate me, another cliffhanger. What could happen at Rossi's?? I was going to post this yesterday but I had so much school work, so I didn't have time to finish this. Anyways thanks for reading and commenting, also for 15K reads. Love you all so much. Byeeeee.
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-Destiny 🤍
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