Trigger Warnings~ A Small Mention of Rape and Panic Attacks
"Addison, wake up"...
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February 4th, 1920 Stone County Lunatic Asylum
Addison Marie Brandon was asleep or at least she thought she was but everything seemed too realistic for her to be asleep on her mattress... Addison Marie Brandon wrapped her arms around her body tugging the itchy cardigan tighter around herself desperately trying to catch some warmth as she stumbled down the darkly lit hallways flinching away from the ear-piercing screams, cries, and taunts from the other patients...
Addison tried to get her vision to focus but the constant throbbing in her temples was making it difficult to do anything... Addison suddenly felt her body freeze with pure terror at the sight of the strange man hiding in a dark corner of the hallway. She couldn't see much in the darkness and the sadistic smirk showing off the sharp fangs...
Her chest became suddenly tight as her breath caught in her throat, she knew who the strange man was because Mary Alice had told her all about the visions about a powerful tracker hunting after them...
"J-James"... A scream of terror tore painfully from her throat as he suddenly lurched out of the shadows grabbing her by the neck only for the scene to suddenly change...
Addison Marie's back roughly slammed against the cold tile wall of the pitch-black shower room knocking the air from her lungs but James was nowhere to be found as she remained underneath the rusty showerhead trying to catch her breath...
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The sound of the squeaky knob turning followed by the harsh rattling of the old pipes echoed through the room before the numbing water cascaded over her body making a choked gasp escape her mouth only for it to be muffled by a palm...
"Shhh Shhh"... Addison Marie cried and struggled against the two slimy guards not wanting to remember the feeling of their calloused hands and chapped lips touching her skin... But as the lights began to flicker the feeling disappeared along with the creepy guards allowing the girl to fall to her knees her body trembling with sobs...
"WHY IS THIS HAPPENING AGAIN!" she screamed, the sound echoing off the chipped tile walls, "WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS!" her fist slammed against the tiles but the scene once again changed this time to an old barn, her fists hitting old hay instead of hard concrete...
Addison stared at the new stranger in front of her with a burning glare, he was much taller than her 5'5 frame, he was muscular but lean with honey-blonde hair that fell just above his collar, "what do you want" she snapped, "are you- are you gonna touch me too, strangle me, r-rape me?" She quickly scrambled to her feet when he took a step forward, the sound of his boots hitting the wood sounding like gun-shots...
"Don't! Just don't come any closer" Addison's hands closed into fists, nails digging into her palms drawing blood but the stranger didn't listen, and then she saw his burgundy eyes...
They weren't hunger-filled or savage like James' but they weren't like Doctor Emerson's either despite being the same color... His eyes were pained and scarred filled to the brim with regret but still comforting with bruise-like purple shadows underneath.
"W-Who are you? Why is this happening to me?" she asked unclenching her fists but still flinching when his hand cupped her cheek gently like a bee landing on a flower... "Addison, wake up"...
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February 4th, 1920, Stone County Lunatic Asylum 3:15 a.m
Addison Marie Brandon jolted off the lumpy mattress and onto the rough stone floor feeling the pain of her knees being scraped as she scrambled against the wall choking and gasping for air feeling her throat close and her chest tighten...
"Sissy!- Addison... It's okay- um what are five things you can see?" Mary Alice very vaguely remembered their mother's techniques for helping with Addison's random attacks but she knew that her twin desperately needed her help right now... "Addison, what are five things you can see" she repeated...
"T-the m-mattress, m-my c-cardigan, t-the barred w-windows, the jo-journal Henry g-gave me, a-and m-my h-hands sh-shaking" Addison choked on most of her words trying to calm her breathing but she could still feel James' hand squeezing her throat and she could still feel the unwelcomed hands of the guards touching her body as the freezing water cascaded down.
"Okay, okay that's good, what are four things you can hear", "th-the lights f-flickering, your voice it's- so c-calming, rustling through the w-walls and the c-crickets chirping" Mary Alice moved to rest on her knees leaning her forehead against the cold stone not liking her sister being in so much pain. "You're doing so good Addie, what are three objects you can touch?"
Addison Marie could feel her chest slowly untighten at the calming voice of her sister but her throat was still closing, "my dress it's s-scratchy and rough against m-my skin, my knees their bleeding, and my hair it's grown since J-January".
Alice could hear the difference in Addison's voice, it still shook at times but she wasn't gasping or choking on-air as much... "Okay, two different smells?" "the laundry detergent they wash our clothes with, and the mold"... Addison leaned her head back against the wall her chest burning as she took shaky breaths, "and one thing you can taste" Alice could feel her heart pounding in her chest as she slid down against the wall her knees sore and red from the rough stone...
"Vomit, it's all I taste anymore".
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The Brandon Twins sat in silence both of them trying to calm their racing hearts but as Addison Marie focused on her breathing she felt the overwhelming need to talk about the nightmare, "Allie, I think I might be going insane" Mary Alice couldn't believe what she was hearing from her older twin, she was so used to Addison being the strong one and being the mother figure to both her and their other little sister that sometimes she forgot that her sister was still vulnerable.
"Why would you think that sissy?" Addison Marie pulled her knees into her chest flashes of the dream playing out behind her closed eyes "I saw him, I saw the man you've been seeing in your visions, James...I saw those dark burgundy eyes full of hunger and that sadistic smirk on his pale skin, he w-was in my dreams "Al-Alice".
She stopped talking taking a deep breath as the mysterious honey-blonde appeared in her mind "but it wasn't just him, there was another stranger but he was different, he was comforting and he made everything bad disappear". "I think I actually might be crazy" she hated bothering other people with her problems but she knew her twin would listening without judging.
Mary Alice didn't understand who the mysterious honey-blonde could be or why he was important but she knew she would recognize him if she saw him in one of her visions but the more important thing at the moment was comforting her older twin. "Addison Marie listen to me, you are not crazy, neither of us are crazy, perhaps Henry has an explanation".
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A/n~ Fun fact the Five things for panic attacks is my go-to method.
Please feel free to comment any thoughts or criticism. <3 Jade