march 28, 2019
billie
billie: don't leave me baby
i cry as everyone around me goes crazy. everyone i knew was running around, getting in their cars and leaving in panic, trying to save their own lives. we hear distant sirens and i put my head down onto her chest
billie: please don't leave me
my eyes open as i feel myself flinch. i look to my side to find that she's not beside me. i begin to cry, out of all the times maddie has had a dream of her dying, this was my first and i hated it. i practically run downstairs to see finn
billie: where's maddie
finneas: why-
billie: where's maddie
finneas: chill, she just went out to get some food with claudia
i tear up and he comes over to me
finneas: what's the matter
billie: it's just a dream
finneas: so why's it worth crying about?
billie: i have a feeling
immediately he realises
finneas: it's not gonna come true bil
billie: what if it does
finneas: it won't. you can tell me about it if you'd like, but for now get on the piano, calm yourself down.
the rest of the day i hung out with madison. she noticed something was wrong and asked about it, but i avoided answering with the truth. all day i thought about the dream. it was at a party, i can't pinpoint where. but it was night and there were loads of people; family and friends. i talked to mom that night, she thinks it's a sign but told me not to manifest it. i've probably manifested it enough for it to come true. tomorrow is the release of my album, 'when we all fall asleep, where do we go?' and i honestly can't wait. but i'm scared. i thought about alot of things today. especially that dream. it won't leave my mind. though i wish it would.
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tenks 🥰
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