It all started when she called

19. Diffrent

Hello. Please don't mind if this goes a little fast, it can be hard to write scenes like these. Thanks for reading!

TW: mentions of mental health issues, substance use, and offensive terms.

Juniper

The cold can of Pepsi i was holding stung my hand, but i was lucky i'd salvaged it from the fridge, soda was always a rarity in my house. It was dark out, maybe around 10:30, but my mind was still stuck on the afternoon, and racing around with Venus.

I sat outside on our little back patio, where only a few potted plants could fit, and little old houses could be seen for miles. But i didn't care. i didn't care at all. The part of the day when Venus had been practically on top of me, her eyes staring into mine, and the feeling of her thumbs on my skin played in my head.

The way it had felt so right, and pure. i kept hearing her laughter, and how she had called me a moron. it had never felt that good to be called stupid.

i want to hear her say it a billion times.

The way she had called my name stuck in my mind like a fly caught in a spiders web, and the words of: ''i've never felt like this, i haven't been smiling this much sense, well... i don't know. a long time. so thank you.'' Made me grin so wide i thought i was wasted, or dead already.

I had mumbled the words: ''You're attractive Juniper. I will say that.'' To myself so many times it felt it was the only seven words i knew, or Venus was a language herself.

I took a swig of the soda, shaking my head. ''Fuck yeah, dude.''

Suddenly, the sliding screen door screeched open behind me, and Robin stepped outside, sighing. It took me a moment to realize the difference between blonde and brunette, or large blue eyes versus deep green ones. Or just tell Robin from Venus.

''Hey sista.'' She said, taking a seat next to me on the hard brick stairs.

''Hey Rob.'' i was pulled from my head, and the warm summer night came back to me.

''Whatcha doin' out here?'' She asked, resting her chin in her palm.

''Just sitting.''

''Just sitting? Ok...''

Silence came across us, and i took another sip of my drink. ''How was school?'' my skin prickled.

something doesn't feel right about this.

''I really don't remember.'' I said, giving a horse laugh. ''Boring? that probably describes it.''

Robin chuckled. ''Summed up school in one word right there.''

I looked down and placed the can of soda right next to me. ''Hows collage?'' i asked, ''You haven't talked about it much.'' I used to know my sister so well, and now, it's like talking to a stranger. I don't want that.

''I uh, well...'' By her tone i could almost tell something was up, and I could feel my heart grow laggard for those moments, but it left as Robin spoke again.

''Collage is gooooood.'' She mumbled slowly, biting the inside of her cheek.

''You suck at lying. tell me the truth.'' I seemed to blurt, my voice a whisper. i could feel the way I held my breath, making my chest clench.