Submerged in emotions I can't even define;
Feels like walking on fine line, could it be benign?
Pretending to be fine, not showing any sign,
That I am slowly losing grip on my lifeline.Overwhelmed with the surge of negativity,
Mind is filled with screams of my insecurity.
Emotional, can't face problems objectively;
Thinking of killing my self, intentionally.Been having these thoughts of self-hatred for a while;
Been accumulating anger, stacked on a pile;
Been concealing my self-contempt in graceful style:
By hiding it behind my impeccable smile;So everytime I'm alone, flooded by silence,
I'm questioning the purpose of my existence;
Why do I still breath and live? What is my essence?
Show me evidence that this world needs my presence.Can't find motivation to wake up everyday;
So don't ask me questions like "how are you today?"
'Cause I will just probably go with "I'm okay."
Well, isn't that we all automatically say?I don't really want to push everyone away,
Maybe it's different than what I do, display,
But i just want to withdrew myself for a day;
"It's not you, it's me" may sound cliché, but that's what I'll say.Well, I can't really explain what is in my brain,
Seems like I'm enjoying the pain flowing in my vein;
No complain, I'll wallow in it till none remain.
My self-love on the drain, does that make me insane?People say "you are truly blessed to be alive,"
"Others are deprived, doing eight-to-five to survive;"
"Others would give everything to be revived, strive;"
Ungrateful of me, to death I'm planning to dive.You may know me, but you don't know how to be me;
Let's agree, we see reality differently,
Easy as ABC to say, "think positively"
I'm trying desperately, checkout "Life Scenery"
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Sentient
PoezieSENTIENT: Poems of Depression and Anxiety WARNING: Sensitive content. Life is full of tricks hidden under its sleeves. It never cease to amaze and surprise. It never stops whether it is no longer amusing nor entertaining. This is a poem about how I...