Broken (Shuhua)

part 15

The next day
Soojin has just told the members about shuhua seemly to be having nightmares the day before this make the members extremely dejected as they thought their youngest was doing a lot better.
Anyway did I mention shuhua was place on a small hiatus as the members insist worry for shuhua mental health the endless of training will kill her as of her current state. They have plan their schedule whereby there would be one members at her side at all time for today it would be minnie .

Lunch time
Soojin had cook shuhua favourite porridge knowing that she still refuse to eat her meals at time.
Thanks for the food the members say at once.
Shuhua began to carefully dig in picking at her food every few minutes. The members quietly observe her making sure that she eat a decent amount of food. The meal took close to an hour as at times shuhua would try to excuse herself from the table
I'm full can I go
I just remember I need to reply my friend
I need to go the toilet
But the members all strictly say no leaving the table until ur done eating eventually after an hour shuhua ate finish her food in which she immediately excuse herself saying she need to go to the toilet . The members allow her satisfy that she ate finish her food not knowing she would puke it out. The members then began getting ready to head over to cube to prepare their upcoming album excluding minnie and shuhua ofc.
After getting ready, the members bid the two girls bye the moment they left shuhua ask
Minnie unnie, dun u need to go with them
Aniyya, ermm it just a coincidence that the members had schedule while I don't minnie choke out lying not wanting shuhua feel bad
Oh ok was all shuhua reply following by a frown on her face
Since we are both free, what do u wanna do to which shuhua reply I ate so much I kinda full I think I gonna head to my room and sleep
Hearing this minnie was a little unsure of what to do as she was instructed to not let shuhua alone at all time but at the same time she wanted to give shuhua some space so she ended saying sure but u have to leave the door open at all times ok  hearing this shuhua reluctantly agree not wanting to argue before taking her leave not before hearing call me if u need anything alright shuhua hum in response.

Shuhua pov
The moment I saw minnie head to her room I immediately start searching for my blade I have miss cutting so bad . I check my usual place where I last place my blade only to find it empty
Dun be stupid the unnie would have thrown it out I heard the voice say hearing it I huff out in frustration I then went on to find any sharp object be it scissor or needles just anything as well as I can hurt myself without the pain I can feel myself going crazy.
The search went on for an hour but it ended up in vain as the members were extremely careful to discard any sharp object in the dorm I feel extremely annoy and frustrated to the point where by I was tearing up. To my surprise minnie unnie enter my room wanting to check on me I quickly wipe my tears hoping that she would not notice
Shuhua ya , why u crying
Shit shit what should I say I began panicking
Just lie and say nothing u stupid attention seeking whore
Nothingg I quickly say shuttering the moment it left my mouth I notice how a frown form on minnie unnie mouth
Ur a burden look at her all disappointed in u just leave the group
No no leave me alone I shouted holding my head annoy at the voice
However the voice only seem to get worse I began shaking crying begging it to leave me alone when all of the sudden I feel someone hold my face up
Shuhua shuhua calm down look at me breathe in breathe out repeating it till I calm down. After calming down, I sat on the floor feeling completely drained not even noticing minnie unnie has left the room till she tap me placing my medication right infront of me
No
Shuhua u have to eat it
No stubbornly refuse to eat it
U have to she say with a tone lower than before
No no no shaking my head
Minnie just sigh in response knowing not to push my button after the tiny panic attack I had
Fine, I will not make u eat for now but promise me u will eat it ltr ok
I just nod my head closing my eyes