Letters to you my beloved

Until we are united once more

Love always wins my love. And it is my faith in our love which gives me the strength to go forward with what we have decided. There are many quotes that I used to hear but never once understand. However now it seems as though these quotes are one of the few that understand me, along with the One Almighty of course. He knows. He understands more than anyone.

It was last night that we left each other in the custody of Allah, until it is time once more for us to reunite. How it felt, I don't think I can explain quite accurately. But it I had to then the word I'd choose would be, 'bittersweet'. The bitter part being the hardship that comes with leaving. And the sweet part being the fact that we love each other so much, so so much, that we're ready to leave what's not yet halal for the sake of Allah, in the ever so strong belief that He will accept our duas' and listen to the cries of our hearts.

I know I am blessed, Alhamdulillah. For many reasons not one. Because when you find a love, so deep and so beautiful as ours, to be blessed by Allah so much as to allowing us to keep this relationship beautiful and halal, that's not something everyone has the opportunity of being blessed with.

If Allah didn't have mercy on us and on our love then he wouldn't have provided us the opportunity to do what is right and to leave it for the sake of Allah. He loves us and wants the best for us, and I am ever so grateful to Him.

And the biggest blessing I have been gifted with, something I treasure so close to my heart, is you my love. I will not begin talking about the way you are for that is something I could never begin talking about and if I did, I could never finish. Words don't do you justice. Just know I am truly one of the most happiest and most blessed people alive, because I can call you mine.

We could continue talking my love, exchanging comforting words and providing peace to one another, but we both know that for as long as we are disobeying Allah, there is no peace nor no comfort.

We could continue talking my love, but what's the guarantee that our duas' will get accepted? The duas' we make with so much passion and desire. I could never let your tears go wasted, rather it's better we ask forgiveness and make dua now so that at least the tears of our duas' will reach The Almighty sooner and in a better state.

We could continue with the haram my love, but I want a lifetime by your side not a moment. And so let us leave the haram my love. And leave it up Allah. He is Al-Mujeeb, the one who responds. We won't be left empty handed my dear, He will give us victory. He will give us the happiness we deserve. I have full faith that he will reunite us very soon.

So do not despair, instead trust our Lord. His plans are always much better than ours. He is the All-knowing and we know not. He won't burden our souls more than we can bear. For He loves us more than our own mothers, He will listen and I have full faith he will unite us so very soon.

It was easier this time around. Because this time I wholeheartedly believe, in first Allah and second the love between us, that one day not too long in the distant future, you and I will be holding hands, united once more. When the time is right and when it is halal.

Until then, I continue to love you more than the boundaries of my heart exceed. And I will continue loving you, for the sake of Allah, forever and ever.

Your other half,
R 🤍