illegal love.

getting a new start

I can't believe she lashed out on me like that.. I pull up to my favorite coffee shop it seems like the whole world is watching me suffer. I sit in the car for about 15 minutes then finally build the courage to get out.

When I get inside all I see is about 5 people typical people couple in the back eating each others face when they could be eating that sexy ass donut on their table old couple in the front being all cute & wrinkly then while I'm walking up to the counter to order I see white hair figured it was just a regular college student working till she looked at me & my heart skipped a couple of beats when those emerald green eyes saw my pale blue ones she kinda turned red & smiled & I did the same in return.

"Ma'am"

I didn't notice the cashier was trying to get my attention I ordered a regular coffee & sat behind the face eating couple which happened to have that lovely goddess sitting across from them I couldn't help but turn around & stare

"Should I go up to her like what if she's straight & I look like a desperate lesbian what if I have something in my teeth what if -"

My thoughts were soon cut off when I felt a tap at my shoulder I turned around quickly only to see the waitress handing me a pile of napkins I looked confused until I felt something burning great coffee on my white tank top I say thank you & as she walked away I noticed that the unknown girl left omg she probably thought I was a restarted spilling coffee on my shirt nice going dumb ass.

As I dry off my shirt walking out the door I can't help but think about those eyes I should've asked for her name but noooo anxiety & panic had to have a party in my heart. I get in the car & slowly drive back "home" I hate to go back but where else will I stay. Soon I end up in the driveway I Dont wanna stay here anymore. So I jump out of the car & run inside she must not be home anymore must be stripping at her job. When I walk through the door the couch is flipped over & glass everywhere great just great. I flip the couch back to its original place & sweep up the glass. Then I run upstairs to my cunt face of a mother room & grab her old black suit case I pack a handful of sweatpants , jeans , shirts & grab my gray hoodie then I go back into my moms room she left her purse here good I look in there & grab her wallet to find at least $2,000 thank god she's a stripper I take the money & her cigarettes & throw them in the bag. I run downstairs & grab a couple of bags of chips & a can of Pepsi I run out to the car & throw my bag & food in there then run inside & leave a note
"Have fun by yourself bitch."