BTS Oneshots

You Have A Panic Attack - All Members

TRIGGER WARNING: Symptoms of panic attack described, mentions of anxiety disorder

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The living room was dark except for the bright lights of the tv screen. You were cuddled under a soft blanket on the couch squished between Hoseok on your right and Taehyung on your left. Next to Tae was Namjoon, then Jimin, Jin and Jungkook were sitting on the couch opposite of you. None of the members had had an evening off together since the promotion of their newest song "Dynamite", so it was nice having them all in one place... well minus Yoongi who was in his bedroom down the hall working on music. It was mid-October, almost Halloween, so when you all chose to watch a scary movie, he instantly retreated to his room.

   You glanced around at the 6 boys surrounding you who were staring intently at the tv. You couldn't help but smile. You loved being their friend, and you loved when they all could be in the same place. It was rare these days, so you wanted to take in this moment completely.

Tae caught you looking and smiled back, pinching your cheek in affection. You then rested your head on his shoulder as Hoseok reached over to feed you another piece of popcorn from the bowl he was hogging. This was your happy place; with these wonderful humans you were grateful to know. You curled further into Taehyung and sighed peacefully. You hadn't felt this relaxed and content in a very long time.

Which is why what happened next took you by complete surprise.

  It all starts with your shoulder muscles and jaw tensing without you even realizing it. Then your hands start to get cold and fidgety. Suddenly your breathing gets shallow, labored and out of rhythm. Your chest aches and your heart pounds so hard and fast you're convinced it's going to stop abruptly or burst out of your chest. Your mind starts racing.

Stop. Not now. Please not now. What's going on? Come on, come on, stop freaking out. There's nothing wrong here. You're ok, you're ok, you're ok. Relax, breathe, relax. Deep breaths.

Your mantra doesn't work. Your brain doesn't listen. It has already told your body something is wrong, and your body is quick to react, cutting off any reasoning your mind has to say.

Suddenly you're burning hot. You want so badly to keep your cool in front of the boys as they have never seen you have a panic attack before, but you know you have to escape the blanket and the heat of the members' bodies immediately.

You pull off the hot blanket and suddenly realize how sweaty you are. You're about to shimmy out from between J-Hope and V and excuse yourself to the bathroom to try and calm down alone, but as soon as your feet hit the ground the room starts spinning and you have to shut your eyes. You bury your face in your hands and lean over, attempting to get your breathing back on track.

  "(y/n)? Are you okay?" Hoseok's voice sounds from right next to you. You feel him place his hand on your back.

  "(y/n)-ah? You good?" V sounds scared next to you and you see his worried face appear in your peripheral vision.

  "Guys, guys, someone pause the movie and turn on a light," you hear the leader Namjoon command.

The sound of the movie stops, and warm yellow light floods the room.

Jimin comes and kneels in front of you, putting his hands on your knees trying to get a look at your face.

  "(y/n) please say something, please," he begs.

  "I'm... I'm fine," you manage to say, putting your hand against your neck where you feel your pounding heart, "Please, I'm sorry guys, you can keep watching, I'm sorry."