hate me | yeongyu

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yeonjun understands the thought process of beomgyu now; he still believes that his parents love each other through the hate they show. hence the 'love and hate are the same things' remark.

"but maybe i'm just in denial. maybe it's better if they'll part their ways. maybe i'm just being selfish. i wouldn't know." beomgyu chuckles.

"i'm assuming you don't have to deal with these kind of dilemma's." beomgyu shoots up. "whew, i'm sorry for talking so much."

"it's fine. i like to just listen. now i feel like i've a better perspective of your mind." yeonjun smiles at beomgyu and ruffles his hair.

for some reason a blush appears on beomgyu's cheeks. he quickly stands up and stretches his back a bit.

"thank you for listening.." beomgyu keeps his back towards yeonjun, not daring to face him. "are- are we.. friends now?"

yeonjun chuckles. "sure about that? i will not hesitate to knock out my friends." yeonjun jokes.

"will you still hate me if we're friends?" beomgyu turns around, but steps back when he sees yeonjun standing right in front of him.

"i can't ever hate you, friend." yeonjun opens his arms and beomgyu flies almost immediately in them.

beomgyu never thought he'd ask someone to be his friend. maybe he'll try asking chenle.

yeonjun's arms feel safe. yeonjun is safe. beomgyu's heart soothes at the feeling of being safe. he didn't realise how much he needed this hug.

"hey dinner is rea-" his father opens the door and looks in. he stops talking at the sight of seeing the boys hug.

beomgyu startles and he unconsciously pushes yeonjun away, making him stumble over beomgyu's schoolbooks and fall backwards. beomgyu covers his mouth at the painful scene he created.

"ohmygod i am so sorry." he helps the pained yeonjun up.

"ah i remember; i hate you." yeonjun makes an angry pout which beomgyu finds all too cute.

"ehem, i uh just wanted to say that dinners ready." his father immediately escapes from the room to the kitchen downstairs.

beomgyu laughs at the situation and drags yeonjun with him downstairs. the laughing boys take a seat next to each other at the dinner table.

"yayy lasagne! finally some european food. i didn't even know you could cook this mommy."

"i can cook a lot of things, gyu." his mother smiles at the change of attitude beomgyu made. "so what happened upstairs. how come you're not a sassy boy anymore."

beomgyu tells happily about the little incident and adds the previous bad luck incidents to it.

yeonjun is also surprised by the sudden change of attitude towards his parents. he wishes he could forget his anger so fast too. yeonjun feels like although beomgyu tries to hide it, beomgyu is just like a little child in need of positive attention.

yeonjun snaps out of his thoughts as an question is thrown to him. "i'm sorry, what did you say?"

"i was wondering why beomgyu said you saved him."

"oh uhm yes. i was just taking a walk and then i crossed paths with beomgyu. he didn't want to go home, so i offered to go to my house instead." yeonjun decides to leave out the part of the harassment as it isn't his place to tell.

"no like you literally saved me," beomgyu laughs as if someone told him a joke. "i was getting harassed, cause god punished me for running away."

beomgyu falls into a deep laughter. his parents don't really know what to respond.

"beomgyu-" his father starts.

"no no wait, i know what you're going to say. you want to say how i shouldn't have worn a fucking skirt." beomgyu muffles his laughter with his hand covering his mouth.

it pains his father to see how beomgyu thinks of him. "no beomgyu, are you okay? did they hurt you? what did they look like?"

beomgyu's mouth laughs but his eyes cry."i wouldn't know. it was dark and i was crying like always. i'm a fucking crybaby."

yeonjun feels so out of place. he should probably go home. "it's okay to cry." he hugs beomgyu tight.

beomgyu's eyes slowly stop crying. they're tired. just like beomgyu's mind and his body. he's just tired. he passes out as the sleepiness takes over him.

he feels so weak in yeonjun's arms. beomgyu made his mind up; he won't be weak ever again.

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a/n: i don't know why, but this chapter didn't work out 🤧✋