Invisible String

and then everything changed

Her kisses became an addiction after our lips started to understand what the other needed. You know what they say, practice makes perfect. And the way they perfectly connected after a while was making me want to keep them together 24/7.

I knew I was taking a dangerous path and being a 'side thing' was never a good thing to be. But I couldn't help it. I couldn't live without that anymore. Even knowing everyone would probably end up really hurt in that story, I couldn't think reasonably when it came to Cari. I couldn't tell her that what we were doing was wrong and the end could turn out to be really bad. Even though I hated Tyler with every cell of my body, no one deserved to be played that way, not even him. But I was afraid that if I shared those thoughts with Cari she would want to end things with me and that used to give me the worst anxiety in the world, so I kept pretending everything was okay just the way it was.

"Oh jeez, you really missed me huh?" I said playful after one of those kisses that takes your breath away and makes you feel your whole body heating up.

"Told ya." She smirked and rested her head on my chest again.

"So, how was Devon's party?" I said, leaving a kiss on her forehead. "Any interesting tea I should know?"

"Not really, it was the same bullshit as always."

Devon was part of Tyler's troop, so obviously I wasn't invited to his party, but I knew she was lying about the tea. Veronica had told me in class earlier that day that Tyler got really drunk and almost got into a fight with one of his best friends because he started dancing with Cari and he didn't like it. According to Veronica the dance was supposed to be a friendly thing, but he didn't take it that way and almost punched the guy if another one of their friends hadn't held him in time, ending the party sooner than usual.

"Really? Anything at all?" I pushed a little to see if she would hide it from me or tell me the truth. She kept silent for some time.

"Veronica told you, right?" She said, letting out a sigh.

"Weren't you gonna tell me? You always tell me about these things."

She got up and sat on the edge of the bed, with her back turned at me.

"I didn't want to ruin our night." She said running her hand through her curly hair and putting them over her right shoulder. "Also, it wasn't a big deal, he was just a little drunk, he didn't mean to do that."

I took a deep breath and pulled myself up leaning with my back against the wall and crossing my arms in front of my chest. There she was defending him again.

"Tyler scares me Cari." 

And there I was trying to make her see the monster he was one more time.

"I'm afraid of the things he could do to you."

"What do you mean?" She said turning her head and looking at me with a confused look on her face.

"He's violent, he can't control himself when he gets mad, what if he hurts you for real in one of these occasions?"

"No. He would never do that to me."

"How can you be so sure?" At that point I was outraged at how blind she was.

"Because I know him, okay? He's not the person you think he is."

"Then who is he Cari? Because the only thing I see is how insecure and unstable he is and how he thinks he owns you and can't even see you doing normal things like dancing or talking with your friends without going crazy." I was already uptight as I usually got when we talked about him.

"Normal things Shannon?" She said getting up and standing at the side of the bed looking at me. "Do you think this is normal?" She pointed at us. "I'm cheating on him! With a girl!"

I turned my eyes to the opposite side from where she was, staring at the window. I was trying to avoid looking at her because I knew that, in the moment that I did, it would hurt even more.

"I guess he's not that crazy at the end of the day, is he?"

I didn't say anything. She kind of had some points there. But that didn't take away the fact that the way he behaved and treated people sometimes, especially her, was really fucked up.

"I think I'm gonna go now..."

"What?" I said looking at her and immediately standing from the bed and going after her, putting myself between her and the door. "No, no, no, wait."

"Shannon, I..."

"I'm sorry, okay? I shouldn't have brought that up, it was stupid of me." And there I was apologizing for something I didn't even regret about just to have her to myself for some more minutes.

"I don't want to repeat myself over and over again. I know Tyler has his issues and can do some stupid shit sometimes, but he's trying to be better."

"Okay, I believe you, I just don't want anything to happen to you, that's all."

"I know." She said putting my hair behind my ear. "I promise you that there's no reason to be worried about, okay?"

"Okay."

It was like she had a spell on me that would make me blindly consent with anything she said to me. That was the last time I tried to argue about Tyler with her. Truth is, after some time, I tried to forget his existence and just live in the moment and enjoy the little time I had with Cari, but everyday at school, or at the games, or parties, or wherever, he was there to remind me that I had no power over her and, in fact, I was the one who didn't exist in reality. The one who wasn't even allowed to talk to her in public. Who was a secret that no one would ever know about and that she would never even admit. I was her second option, her little adventure, the one she would let go of if she had to choose between one of us.

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Heeeeey, how y'all doing?

It's time for song number 2. The Illicit Afairs drama have arrived!

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