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In My Head

I want you to text and call me
I want you to say you're sorry
I want everything you should have said
I want you to cry for me at night
I want you to fess up and admit I was right
I want you to be the version I created in my head

In my head, you'd be here instead
Of towns away in a city
You'd be in my bed
Drowning in my own tears and self-pity
I don't want you anymore
I just wanted you to be the one though
I always knew it would have to end
But in my head, you'd be here instead

I want you to write me a letter
Professing undying love or whatever
I want truth and expression, things you would never offer me
I want to cry seeing people love others
I want to die 'cause I can't live under
This upper hand that you hold over me

In my head, you'd be here instead
Of towns away in a city
You'd be in my bed
Drowning in my own tears and self-pity
I don't want you anymore
I just wanted you to be the one though
I always knew it would have to end
But in my head, you'd be here instead

Remember in spring, you tried to teach me how to whistle
And I taunted you of your inability to click your fingers
I'm remembering but the memory is so grey and wrinkled
And it's haunting me, every trace of you, your smell, it lingers

In my head, you'd be here instead
Of towns away in a city
You'd be in my bed
Drowning in my own tears and self-pity
I don't want you anymore
I just wanted you to be the one though
I always knew it would have to end
But in my head, you'd be here instead

I want you on the train to my place
Standing at my door, hopeful face
Praying to God, I'd open with open arms
I want you and your tender kisses
On my cheek and on my lips, it's
A bittersweet sadness, a real broken heart

In my head
I want you to be the version I created in my head