A Thousand Strings Inside

Intro

𝖨𝗇𝗍𝗋𝗈

I was in high school, almost friendless

I had these three funny and smart friends who didn't mind sharing tables with me at lunch

I had so much fun with them, like I'd say

But, still, I felt alone, I felt so lost, like a daffodil among the wide patch of trimmed grass

And when I finally started to search for myself, the table of four became for three

And a table for many became a table for one

At first, it felt so good, I felt freedom, somehow

But soon, I felt how hard it is to be alone

To have stories to tell but no ears to listen

Bad decisions... always taste sweet at first

There were times when I just stayed in that room, cold and quiet when everyone's out

Listened to my favorite playlist, blasted them until all the dead ghosts come to life

No one would hear my weird taste in music, after all

I was dancing

I was naked

Going wild for the hours I'm unseen.

Spinning, swaying in the stage I called my own.

He entered that room with EDM playing on his phone, but he wasn't dancing, he was looking at the ground

He wasn't reading books like me but I knew he was living a different world

He wasn't like anyone else who cared so much about the shitty politics of this messed-up institution.

He was a free aimless pigeon searching for home like me

Another dreamer of death who keeps on telling others not to commit

When he sat, I knew he'd stay and from that day on, I'll be kept accompanied.

There are people who come into your life when the ground keeping you up is falling apart, they say

And he was the one who shut the voices inside my head

He dragged me into a world, not-so beautiful, but it was a sanctuary I wanted to call home

That day, I stopped dancing to my own music

That day, I was told to have a friend.