A Thousand Strings Inside

Rebecca (Draft 1/Raw Version)

Trust no one
The storm would come and you'll find a demon
Playing umbrellas in his flaming hands

I was a girl who knew no one, who were smiling to everyone
There's a party in the room and you'd find me dancing with no one
But you'll see me escape my sanity
With beat and music only I could hear

But this dance is sweet and I feel like I'm killing it
So I'll take your hand this time
I barely know those eyes but I get drunk to it like wine

And the drug slipped into my bottle
It flowed into my blood like a fluid from your kiss
Madness and sweetness, all in an angel's touch

Soon, I woke up and I'm on my bed
Maybe it was all a dream, maybe last night was me hallucinating
But things were way too worse to be a nightmare, better keep the doubt away

An autumn passed, my flower bed has come to rot
I could only remember how bizzare
Was that summer of love

There are papers and broken chords along my bed
The pebbles on the roof beside my window
Heard me singing all these songs

And they knew about James
The magic of his lips and those lustful gazes
Innocence bottled and sealed, exposed after a thousand of years

I lived for months
Thinking I was the only one
In his wide open arms

He played his game too well
Now all I write are poems about him and how I loved him to death
When did I hear him say it back? I couldn't remember

All those caresses and whispers and kissing and laughing
Were his way to write his part in our empty telltale love
I was foolish to add these excuses as lines in a song I made for you, my love.

'Cause butterflies sip on your flesh
And it's supposed to look magical
(That's how he hurt me)
Left me on the sidewalks where he promised I'll never walk alone again

Now all I see are lights turning green
Visions of all the nights we went out drinking
With all of the unusual words coming out from our once-innocent mouths

Now I keep doing these bad habits
Because it's the only way to feel him, to touch him
And I'm not supposed to get drown alone to a storm we weathered together.

But I guess he left for a change
And I can't keep up, always going so fast
Now he's crossing another bridge, I watch him disappear into moonlight

When I knew this heart could break
I rued all the times I could've just said goodbye
'Cause if there's something I did, I shouldn't have trusted anyone.