The Words Of The Moon (S1)

8. It's Too Late To Say That

You were so beautiful when you were child ...
You were the most oppressed of the oppressed

And now when I saw your childhood photo, I fell in love with you again to forget the pain of growing up ...

To be together like our childhood time

Be your playmate ...

I am drowning in your words ...

Laugh at your laughter ...

Drowning in honesty in your eyes ...

your secret supporting of me ...

Drowning in my existance that it learn the means of "real love" with you but it will destroy when I am with you ...

Yes
I am full of unspoken emotions ...
Full of taste to see and touch you again

I wanted you to be good ...
Your harassment ...
Your laughter ...

But it is too late for my wishes to come true :)

We laughed today
You teased me
You wanted me to love you again
But ...

I must say that I am still writing them
Not to keep them
To forget that feeling

I had to reciprocate your love
But when it came time to make up for it, I could not ...
Do You knew one day will be come that I be without any sense?
And that's why you said there is no need to compensate?

We where so good
But it seamed there wasn't  anyone to knew us ...

We did whatever they wanted us to do to accept us

They have harassed us
We were silent and thought we were dumb

here there wasn't any one to support us ... and the others who knew, didn't have the power to support us

And we were destroyed after 14 years

What is the size of the soul ... that I have to separate our paired souls every time?

You ...
Your eyes ...
Your mouth ...
always said "forgive me"

You injected me with a strong drug ...
Did it again and again ...
And I just enjoyed of the sense of it

I let you touch my heart
If I had accepted that I was going to hate you as much as I loved you, I wouldn't have allowed you to do it

Couse of you, I came back home again, but not any coming back
I came back to burning our family as much as they burnt us ...

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Unfortunately, after a long silence because of the pain of my distancing, I had to go to war with them

With just two moves, all my goodness was ignored :)

They pressured my mother to stop me

And my mother was madly giving a reason to supported me

I was not bad ...

It was only for the first time that I became someone that they didn't like

Because I decided to be like a mirror for all of them

Is it too hard for them to see themselves in front of themselves?

Not everyone can stand it ...

And it made me stay away from my family so I wouldn't hurt them ...
I just wanted to get to this motto that say : "Remoteness and friendship"

They told me I was addicted :)
I told them that I'm really addicted
And they laughed at me

When the people are hungry but there is no food, their bodies takes the nutrients from themself

When my heart wanted the blood of the people who I hated them and I couldn't get it , I tored my lip, cut my hand with a Cactus blade and put it in my mouth

I still love the taste of blood :)

When my heart wanted love and they did'nt give it to me, I broke the barrier between my heart and my brain

And only, I imagined love
Even when it was hard to imagine

And damn the sounds in my brain that I hated them  :|

But I became addicted to the new feeling that I was getting from myself ...
And here there was no camp to cure me

When I looked at myself, I was so tired that I knelt down
And I didn't get up ....
I was ashamed of being human

I fought, but no one changed except me

My own boy didn't let me have a soft feelings

I used the blood and tears of the girl who one day I was proud of her and I killed her for myself

I killed the reason of being alive to living
But I know that what makes her happy still gives me hope to be alive

And now I'm looking for it
She is very weak ...
She is very scared ...
She can't call me to come back ...

Or maybe I'm the addict who doesn't want to hear anyone's voice ...

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