The Words Of The Moon (S1)

25. Bitter Realities On Earth

On the day that I see you, don't doubt that there isn't a particle of me left in me except the light of your existence

And when I hold you in my arms, a flood will irrigate my land

Hope keeps creatures alive

They said that in the land of phoenixes, the farther away the hope is, the more motivated it will be and the longer it can survive

I gradually turned to ashes and was born again for hope, but I found myself at the beginning of the road and I just didn't realize that I had found my hope for many years and that distance took away my hope every time

And I don't know how long the cycle of death and birth will continue

What will be the power of the earthly body to carry the reincarnations of my great soul?

Thirst of the soul
Body hunger
How can they be fixed?
When you go back and look at yourself ... when human foods are unfamiliar to you and your body rejects them
And the only running water is the calmness of the fire inside you ...

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The people were interesting
Their stupidity was new to me

They didn't go to each other's house and said that the disease had taken over the whole world

And they waited so long, and when the loved one's feet were opened to the hospital, they didn't miss a moment to see them, and they visited them before death, observing the health protocols

And I was saying to myself: "couldn't the same things have been done before ...!?"

And I had only found the difference
Humans were looking for a reason ... and I ...

And to live among them, I had to give a reason even to breathe, and it was very difficult for me to understand these reasons

Maybe this is the only thing I will not learn for the rest of my life ... I lost everything to live among them

Here, parents had power ... until their children got married

And they were proud and said that they had set the child free

What freedom was supposed to be when all the loved ones left and this stone heart was broken more than before and I arrived late to visit again ... I arrived late and I will arrive late

And they said: "why are you so cold?"
Did I scream?
Should I have cried?
Why?
Because they left here!? I cried for myself I screamed for myself

And no one was supposed to notice I felt sorry for myself ... because I wanted to know more about the worst stratum, which is the highest position of creations

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I hated my name because every time they call it, my heart trembled

Although the conversation was virtual, the sound of their writing shook my whole being
They called me
They touched my name
They tasted
And I hated my name
For the thousandth time
This was the curse of my childhood
Hate my name
Hate myself
Hate others
Hate this life ...
I have a way out today
In another hidden world
And because of the hoping of going into it, I die
What is the way to save me tomorrow? where is it?
In that endless hidden world

I am so far away that when they call me, I do not know whether to answer or not?
Are they with me or with a person of the same name?

Their voices were beautiful
Or maybe my name was as beautiful as the moon
And I was cursed by my own hand
That I don't enjoy, not happy, don't hurt
A cage between crying and laughing and happy and sad was not attractive ... it was not special
There was only silence and silence

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I was not afraid of stormy nights
Fear was always for the times when everything was normal ...

Humans showed themselves when everything was in its best place

It may not have seemed normal to them, but for me, unlike them, it used to be normal

And the fear was meaningless when I went out on stormy nights

They were screaming to stop me
But they just didn't know that at this time, no one is out, except someone who is crazy like me ... even if he/she is the worst person in the world, he/she feels with me at that time and shows his/her excitement instead of doing something else

Disease may drive away human, but something like a storm is the reason why all humans are united
Maybe I should introduce people to the sky so that they do not leave each other

Sometimes you have to put everyone in a difficult situation

And I inadvertently, fortunately or unfortunately, became the "difficult situation" of those I wanted to understand

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