melancholy ; narry storan

XIX.

tw// self harm ; s*icidal thoughts

note:- you're not alone. no, not at all. it might seem hard at this time, but think of all the beautiful things in life. like the birds chirping, the wind blowing, the rivers flowing and you existing. yes, the world seems cruel but it is still beautiful, believe me, it is. and because of beautiful people like you. you need to stay strong, for me, please. you are very brave and you can fight this battle. remember it's a temporary battle and yes, it will take time, but i assure you in the end, everything is gonna be fine. we're gonna fight this together, im right beside you. you are loved and cared by so many people, please don't ever forget that. you're like the sun, hidden beneath the dark clouds right now. but time will come, very soon indeed, when the clouds will vanish and you'll be shining again. i love you so much and you're worth it. take care :)

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harry ran towards
the direction
niall headed to,
asking people about
his whereabouts
along the way.
his mind felt blank
as the feeling of
panic ran through
his veins.

there stood a lonely
boy by the lake,
harry saw quite vaguely,
the boy grew more
despondent as he packed
his pockets with more
and more stones,
slowly taking his shoes off,
as he took a deep breath,
looking at the sky
for the last time.

he stepped on the water,
as he looked at
the fathomless water-body,
as he suddenly lost
his consciousness,
quickly yet gradually
disappearing,
drowning into the water,
he just let go of him,
let go and escape from
the world of tricks
and misery,
of grief and sorrow,
where only lies
would follow.

harry had immediately
run towards the lake
as he jumped inside
creating a huge ripple
trying to bring the boy back.

he harshly pulled the
boy out and he
placed him on
the ground beside,
trying to pump air
inside of him as
a tear dropped on
niall's cheek,
harry unable to
control his emotions.

his limbs were bleeding,
there was nothing
but gore to be seen,
was it true that every
battle fought leaves
bloodshed and regret behind,
even if it is fought within
your thoughts only?

this incident left harry
traumatised,
it felt as if a hole
was being drilled in the
centre of his heart,
as his cries became
more painful
then ever.

harry's crisp white shirt
was now soaked in
blood as he kissed niall
on his forehead,
unable to resist the suffering
he felt seeing every drop
of blood drip on the
ground below,
oozing out of his skin,
it felt like a torture,
but what was this
punishment for.

harry hoped and
hoped,
as he shouted
for help but he was
left alone.
suddenly, the eyelids
of the irish boy
started fluttering,
as harry's heart was
somewhat a bit relieved.

he opened his blue eyes
as he started into
harry's,
"damn if i can see you,
i must have reached heaven."
he said as harry shook
his head, crying
as hugged niall tightly.

"you're still on earth,
please don't ever
let me go."
harry said as his sobs
became louder
and louder causing
niall to regret everything
he chose to do so,
he couldn't possibly
see harry in this state.

"i'm sorry for everything,
i felt like a burden,
to my step-mum,
the society and
you." niall exclaimed
with extreme sorrow
exploding through
his words.

"you could never be
a burden to me,
never." harry replied,
running a hand through
niall's hair as he continued,
"loving you is
the antidote."

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a/n:- once again, you're not alone and you're loved by many. take me for example, i love all of you and care deeply about you. you deserve nothing but happiness and if you ever feel like a burden or do not feel just great - my dms are open. talk to me, even if you don't know me that much, i'll talk to you and i'll help you find the strength which is hidden inside yourself. you're brave, very brave and i believe in you and you should too. take care and stay safe. <3