Hidden Omega

I'm content with that I'm content, Forever

"It isn't that he doesn't like them," Youngjae explained with a shrug as he more or less manhandled Himchan to sit in the way he wanted him to as he took the middle seat in the car leaving the two older idols on either side of him, "he is afraid of them. Or more afraid of what he could do to them. Our baby still hasn't grown into how big he really is, and sometimes he is afraid that he might actually snap a child or drop it." A giggle from the alpha as he placed himself with his upper body resting on Himchan. His lower legs over Namjoon's thighs, giving him a chance to pet the ankle left bare by the fact that Youngjae didn't seem to realize that he needed longer pants.

"Aww that is kinda sad," Namjoon mumbled, then again he could understand Junhong he himself. Sometimes felt that he had no control over his limbs and he was nowhere as tall as Junhong who seemed to tower over most people, "doesn't he want to have kids then?"

Now that Namjoon thought about it, at least the hyung line of B.a.p was at the age to start thinking about how kids. They had to at least thought about it. Youngjae just shrugged though like he had never thought about it before, but Himchan blushed showing that he had clearly done it.

Unlucky for the oldest beta his pack member noticed it. "Oh my god really? Have you three talked about it!? Oh my god tell me! What did you think about!? Who do you want to carry it!?" Youngjae seemed eager to know everything and Namjoon could see the moment that Himchan realized that he wasn't getting out of talking about it. Namjoon could see how his entire body sighed.

The oldest seemed a little shy at first. "Yeah... since we are getting older, we have talked about it. We discussed how it's probably better than neither Junhong nor I try to carry. You know how to doctor says that betas already have a hard time getting pregnant and I will struggle even more with my eating disorder. Junhong could get hurt since he doesn't have a good build to carry. If he really wants to, we are not going to stop him of course, but we think that for his health that it is probably better he doesn't. That leaves you and Daehyun."

"Dae," Youngjae quickly answered, "Dae should carry." The youngest didn't look sad over it, he just looked eager. "He is going to look so cute with his stomach all round! Think about it a tiny baby with Daehyun's skin and Gukkie's build. Or Dae's eyes and your bone structure! Or! A giant childlike Junhong with a gorgeous tan! Or a Jongup baby!"

Himchan smiled softly at the eager beta before he said something that didn't leave Namjoon's mind for a long time. "Or an adorable baby with Namjoon's dimples." oh...

It was easy to forget sometimes since he many times just felt like he was a guest, but there was a real chance that the B.a.p pack would be his future. That yes he would have a chance of having a tiny baby with them. While yes he himself would struggle with carrying a child to term, the other options kinda made him smile. And while he didn't say anything about the idea, the soft smile he was carrying was sign enough for the other two to understand what was going through Namjoon's mind.

The rest of the evening went on pretty well. Namjoon already knew that the rest of B.a.p knew where they had gone and while there at first was a little bit of a tension in the air it was quickly stilled as he eagerly told Jongup that they had met a professional gamer. Yeah, Youngjae still had admiration for pro gamers, after all, it was his dream to be one for a while.

Dinner went better than it had done since Namjoon had first gotten there. Namjoon ate almost everything on his plate himself (okay so it was a smaller plate than the rest of them was using, but that wasn't important! It was progression.) and he spent the rest of the evening with Yongguk writing lyrics. Since the hospital had given him more inspiration than he would like to admit.

As they went to bed, Namjoon finds himself being cuddled up by Himchan and Youngjae the older whispering question if it was okay or if he prefered one of the alphas, but Namjoon just shook his head. It seemed that his inner omega had settled a lot, and to be honest, he was glad that it was the two of them. He felt safe with them at that moment, he could now understand what people meant with how important betas were. They were like balance.

It took a little fiddling around until they found a good way to lay, and instead, it ended up with Youngjae cuddled between the too much taller idols. Not that the beta seemed to mind as he teased Namjoon with a soft bite to his collarbones as he bored one of his legs between Namjoon to be more comfortable. "What about Jongup?" Mumbled Namjoon fighting to keep his eyes open, he knew that the two had been intertwined all the time he had been there.

Youngjae's laugh was tired as well and low. "I think he is being wrestled around by our dear pack alpha. Alpha on alpha is hot though, they better not be fucking around or I will get mad for them not letting me watch, ever got to watch alpha on alpha with Got7?" Youngjae on purpose left out BTS, since he wasn't sure that the alpha on alpha happening in BTS was... yeah let's leave it at that Youngjae didn't want to think about it. He didn't have the time to feel sorry for BTS his focus was Namjoon and the more he thought about all of BTS he felt that he kinda wanted to adopt the three non-alphas, especially Seokjin.

Youngjae knew how age in betas could easily get them to feel that they should have control over everything and didn't need to seek help. Himchan had done the same acted like he should be able to do everything alone. He couldn't imagine how Seokjin must have felt. Since he was the oldest after all Himchan at least had Yongguk older than him.

Youngjae felt a little uncomfortable thinking about BTS. He like so many other kpop idols felt like he should have done something. You know that feeling of knowing somebody who is clearly spiralling out of control, but you don't say something because you don't feel it is your place? And then they end up murdering three prostitutes while high on acid, and you kinda feel like it's your fault? Yeah, that was how Youngjae had felt. Having only really been semi-close with Namjoon and Taehyung he felt like he couldn't do or say anything. Neither of the BTS members would ever really let on how bad things were, and most of the things he knew he had overheard from Seventeen because god bless Seventeen.

Namjoon didn't answer Youngjae's question as the day's activities seemed to have knocked him out as he was already sleeping, leaving Youngjae alone with his thought. Maybe Namjoon's heart attack as bad as it sounded was the best thing that could have happened to BTS. He had talked to Hongbin (because people addicted to games had to stick together) about how Jungkook was doing. While Youngjae was sure that there was a lot of things Hongbin wasn't telling him he had been told enough to know just how fucked Jungkook had been. He felt kinda bad for how much he had hated Jungkook when Namjoon was first in the hospital and how he had treated Taehyung. It was hard to realize that the people you disliked so much might be a victim as well. God BTS was fucked over, the last thought on Youngjae's mind, as he gave himself over to sleep, was 'At least Taehyung is okay, he is safe with Seventeen.' What Youngjae didn't know was that in the same night Taehyung and Joshua were having an aggressive yelling battle at each other. Scaring the life out of the rest of Seventeen as words none too kind were slung between the two betas while Jihoon was trying to separate them without success. Because he could be just as much of a pack alpha he wanted, but both betas still towered over him, and he didn't have it in him to try to order either of them.

Maybe he should have done so, maybe it would have resulted on Taehyung accusing all of them of not caring about him before pulling a classic Taehyung running away into the run in the middle of the night. Leaving a heartbroken pack behind and Joshua standing shellshock on the ground wondering how a simple comment led to this... because he cared so much... so much... fuck he loved Taehyung.