Hidden Omega

I'm content with that I'm content, Forever

He should really give Jiho a call, shouldn't he? He knew that he would be spending some time with Block B next, but he still felt that he owed his oldest friend more than that.

Youngjae had placed an on purpose wet kiss on Namjoon's cheek at the same time as Himchan blew a raspberry on his other cheek leaving all three half laughing half giggling in the hallway. Youngjae grabbed both the olders hands and lead them into the ward.

The next 2 hours were spent apart as Himchan and Youngjae played with the kids there was still mobile, while Namjoon had taken to holding his own little reading corner for the people who didn't have their mobility. Namjoon wasn't sure what he expected to happen, maybe the nurse yells at them to get out, but instead, she just looked happy to see Youngjae pointing him towards a group of kids. Her expression was... sad... there was no other way to put it. The woman was a petite alpha, one of those alpha's who didn't need to tower over you to show that she was in control. Namjoon was sure that the saddened expression on her face wasn't something you commonly saw there.

It was first when they left that Youngjae explained to them that one of the kids he normally played with had passed away. Which was why he took them there, he hadn't originally planned on doing it, but it seemed as if the children could use a little bit of a timeoff thinking about what had happened and the nurses a breather.

Namjoon liked kids, he really did. He knew that it didn't fit his image as a rapper, but kids were adorable, and these kids even more. They had the world against them, death was part of their daily life, and most of the older ones had realized that there was a high chance of them not reaching adulthood. But they weren't bitter like Namjoon was sure he would have been; instead, they were optimistic and just seemed to be enjoying the life they had.

Namjoon took a special liking to a very young kid who climbed up into his lap while he was reading. Grabbing a handful of his soft hoody before looking very intensely at his face while Namjoon read out loud for the rest of the kids.

Had an adult stared at him that way Namjoon was sure he would have felt uncomfortable with it, but with the young child, he was surprisingly fine with it. Instead, he saw it as a compliment. Namjoon read his way through multiple short stories in the storybook before it was solved why the young kid had taken such interest in his face a chubby hand reached up to Namjoon's face before poking his cheek. "Hole!" The kid looked confused, and that was when Namjoon realized... his dimples.

He sent the kid the biggest smile he humanly could, dimple to deepening, even more, causing not only the child in his lap to laugh but also a few of the kids on the beds around him. "Pretty." That was a young girl hooked up to a few instruments that were restricting her movements, but she still looked like she hadn't lost the will to live.

So many times when Namjoon saw pictures of people in hospital beds, even when he saw himself in the hospital bed, adults always looked like they had given up like it was all the end. But kids were so different from that, they seemed to always have hope in life like nothing could really stop them.

And maybe they were right, after all, you had to hear the truth from kids and drunk people. Maybe... just maybe he really didn't need to lose more weight. Maybe he was fine the way he was, maybe he didn't need double eyelids or the classic kpop features. Maybe he could be a pretty omega just like this.

When it was time for them to leave, Namjoon almost didn't want to. He wanted to stay with the friends he had made... 5-year-old friends, but it still counted, he didn't seem to be the only one as the two other idols also looked sad that it was time to leave, but not the sad they had when the left the eating disorder centre.

Himchan looked over at Youngjae as they walked out to the car waiting for them. "You know if you ever want company coming here, then you can always ask us. Not just me. I'm sure everybody else would be happy to come with you, maybe not Junhong though." At that Youngjae giggled causing Namjoon to look questioning at the two. He never thought that Junhong had something against children.