"Just Let Me"〔One Direction〕x 〔M!Reader〕

『16』Periwinkle Blue Eyes

"Just because making that decision hurts, doesn't mean it was the wrong one"

With all these sick emotions building up inside you, you speed walked over towards the direction where Zayn was simply standing by. A scowl stood on your face as your blood began to boil, you see the dark haired boy chuckling and smiling at a few staffs as they all talked and joked about, all those staffs completely clueless to the problem while Zayn himself acted so innocent when he knew very well that he was in trouble. As you walked closer and closer to him, a few people around you had took notice on your alarming face that used to always look so warm hearted, they began to wonder what on earth could possible made you so irritated that it just rubs off your entire facade, one of those people being Louis who locked his eyes onto you as you stomped across the room.

You creeped behind Zayn and before he knew it, you grabbed firmly onto his arm and pulled him closer to you, his ear just in front of your lips.

"Are you shitting me right now? You didn't eat at all, have you lost your mind?" You whisper to Zayn's ear, your British accent now more thicker and visible. You waited impatiently for the Bradford boy's reply, he didn't look as though he was annoyed or if he's going to snap at you despite all the other arguements he had caused earlier in the day because of his 'diet', he just genuinely looked ashamed of himself and at lost of words for you, the least he ever wanted was to have you disappointed in him.

"I'm sorry, I just didn't feel like it. Can we not talk about this now? Especially here?" He pleaded quietly, glancing his hazel eyes at everyone standing near you both and hoping no one had heard the convo. And of course he would've just felt more embarrassed and break down then and there if more people know his secret, but did you care? Absolutely, you don't want to make situations harder for him than how much he's already did to himself. And who knows how the staffs would react to Zayn starving himself, most of them probably won't care anyway.

With a loud and gloomy sigh, you let go of Zayn's arm before nodding shyly. You tried your best to hold in your emotions and to not let it all out, cause who knows what you could possibly do to him if you and Zayn weren't in public and in front of so many people. This wasn't the Zayn you knew and loved, when you found out about his eating disorder a few months ago you were in denial and you refused to believe it was true, basically in the same predicament as Niall. But you played dumb with it, you pretended like you knew nothing about this and kept yourself quiet. Which made you now wonder if that was the right choice.

"Hey, you alright lad? What happened?" Louis quickly walked up to you once you had left Zayn alone, Louis can just feel that Zayn might've hurted your feelings or some sort. You looked up at the Doncaster boys in the eyes that radiates his worry out of his body. You contemplated whether ot not you should tell him about Zayn and thinking what would happen once you make each choice, you already figured what his reaction will be if you tell him. Louis won't be sad, or crying, or anything close to misery, he'd just be plain angry and wouldn't hesitate to pick an argument with Zayn right this instant.

"It's nothing Louis, don't worry about it" You shake your head, putting back your signiture smile on your lips that everyone is always fond of. Louis being Louis didn't trust that smile one bit and he knew very well that there was something wrong, and he'll definitely try his hardest to figure it out when it comes to you.

"You know if you say that, it just means that there's definitely something bothering you. Why can't you just tell me, (Y/N)? Or do you want me to ask Zayn myself?" Louis teased with a chuckle, he still thinks that whatever problem you're having wasn't too much of a big deal, but it's sadly much more serious than he might think. You were still debating on yourself whether or not you should tell him, it was a very difficult choice for you but the only way you can really solve it is by leaving it behind for another day.