Biggest mistake

Chapter 29

Rolina POV

"Please stop fucking crying." I sat in the corner and covered my ears.

This is too much, he is driving me crazy. I can't do this I can't do this shit anymore.

"Oh my god!" I yelled and cried. "I don't wanna be here."

He continued to cry and scream.

I don't know what to do I tried to feed him and I changed his diaper and I gave him a bath and tried to feed him again and he is still crying.

"Please." I cried.

I am a horrible mother. I can't even help my own baby. I don't deserve him, I am a horrible person.

I called Jay'von.

"Hello."

"Hey um I really need you right now. He just won't stop crying and I have tried everything. I am getting really frustrated and I am not good for shit I can't even get my-"

"Hey just relax we are one our way." He looked in the camera and smiled. "Just calm down. You are an awesome mom and have been doing great okay?"

"Okay." I smiled softly.

Not falling for Jay'von has been impossible for me. He is amazing, he has always been amazing. He is a beautiful man inside and out. He still finds ways to love me and appreciate me even though it isn't in that way or we are not together. Him and Diyana is the only ones I can count on. I hate my mom, I just need a place to stay with my child.

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"Hey Ro." I hugged diyana.

"Hey DD."

"Hey babymomma." Jay hugged me and I hugged him back.

"Thank y'all for soming so quick."

"No problem. He is crying hard." Diyana races upstairs and we followed.

"Hey little man." Jay'von picked him up and he instantly stopped crying. "What's wrong? What happened?" He did the cute baby talked thing.

He sat in the baby chair and rocked him.

"Say mommy I just wanted dada jay." He kissed him. "You so cute."

"How was graduation?"

"It's was fun you know the family showed up and pulled up on me. Everybody's as excited but everybody more excited about tonight." I nodded.

"I am excited for y'all too."

"Yeah, I got the night all planned out in my head like it's just gone be epic and then this weekend we gone go somewhere to celebrate him. I got class Friday so once I am done that we out."

"How long y'all going away?"

"Just two days because we gotta come back for Liam and we will probably miss the fuck outta him. He already can't stay away from him for more than 6 hours." She laughed. "But I understand because everytime I go in the store I going right to the baby section and I just think about him every second of the day." I nodded understanding where she was coming from.