|Sequel to Two-Sided|
"I'm here! I've always been right here!"
"And you're an idiot for that."
"He was never there for you. Why can't you fucking see that?"
"I have seen that. I just...it doesn't hurt, loving someone you know you won't miss if histo...
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"When I was younger, I wanted nothing more than to own a cafe with Jin and my dad, and to welcome everyone and anyone so they wouldn't be judged. As I got older that dreamed faded because...I became jaded by other things. Not just by secrets I hid because of my mom, step dad and others in my life...it just...followed."
"Anything Else?"
Jungkook sighed as he let his hands slide down to grip the hands on the table across from him. "And I just feel like an idiot for spewing shit out of my mouth about him through the day in front of you. I-I don't mean to. I don't want it to seem like I'm pushing you away or like I don't care. I do..." Jungkook looked at the male who sat across from him, caressing his hand.
"There's no need to apologize. I didn't expect you to just give up all those feelings. It's only been a year, Kook. I'm not mad I just think we need to talk about this before we leave. To leave it all here to not follow us.."
Jungkook sighed and looked down. "I know. I know, I just- what if I can't, Joon?"
"You can." Namjoon leaned over the table. "You just need to let it all out. Don't hide anything from me, Kook. Spill it all out to me. We need to leave it here."
Jungkook stared at Namjoon worriedly and sighed again, squeezing his hands while shutting his eyes tightly. With a few inhales and exhales, he reopened his eyes, staring at the table. "As harsh as this might sound, I...I'll never be able to love anyone more than I love him. I knew him for less than a year, yet I- I can't get him off my mind......I see him; hear him, everywhere. There's not a day that passes that I...that I wish anyone else would've taken his place so he lived. So we could get through it together.."
Jungkook shook his head, letting go of Namjoon's hand. "I should've known he'd go to that extent to keep me safe- he asked so many weird questions leading up to that day."
Jungkook rolled his shoulder, trying to calm himself down. "Just watching the worry in his eyes- I can't help but feel like he didn't have control over his body. That look was too familiar. I know I can't hold onto him forever, but as long as I can remember what he looks like, what he sounds and smells like, I won't ever be able to get him to stay in the past. It's a bitch move of me-"
"It's not a bitch move," Joon replied softly. "It's hard dealing with the death of someone you love. I'll never get over Jin hyung, but I'm trying. That's the key word. You need to at least try to leave him. To leave his image, smell and sound here." Namjoon tapped the table. "If I can do it...if I can leave...leave Jin here, you can leave V."
