From that first day I saw you I looked forward to meeting you, and when I finally got to meet you, I couldn't wait to get to know you.
Every single day before I get down to the day's work, I think about what to say to you, but I'm always too shy to even say anything.
I had this fantasy life with you and I in it. Lovers gazing at the moonlight. Perfect you and trash me making something adorable.
At first I taught I was never going an inch close to you, and then it came to pass during sports time and you tapped me at my back hoping for me to follow after you as you ran along, and I did, gracefully.
Years went by and you were like to me a locked chest of gold I could only glance at without touching, but I got you as a friend and I was so sure you suspected my sole admiration for you.
Something inside me told me to move to you and another not to.
I was with no doubt scared. Scared that you wouldn't want a joining between us, and someone you called a friend was an achievement to me, so I maintained my silence in order not to throw away an adored friendship for the sake of a joining.
Silence for too long caused more restlessness, and then the boy created distractions. I faked hapiness, I faked affection. Now nothing feels real about me.
Someone grabbed the jewel without I even knowing and then came in the faked affection. Had to collect company to create hapiness, but it didn't just feel original, so it ended. Now I want that precious stone back but I just can't steal, and it's really hard to take.
'THIEF!' said the public as I swung in showing my every affection for you. 'EVIL!' said tbe public as I dropped the faked lover to be alone. 'FOOL!' said the public as i showed optimism for an "US". So I started thinking, At least tbe faked ones loved me, I'm a jewel indeed, no need to steal or look outside.
I'm not saying I don't want that precious stone anymore, I'm just saying I'm not trying amymore. Now I'mma try not to love and enjoy being loved.
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