Love That's Been Lost (Complete)

Chapter 14

~Person in the sound room pov~

I was about to disconnect the USB from the laptop, when a certain file caught my eye..

"To You."

"What's this?" I clicked on it, knowing I probably shouldn't have, but my curiosity got the better of me..

What I didn't realize, or more so what I forgot.. was the laptop was still connected to to projector..

~Third Person Pov~

Everyone still in the concert hall, were confused when the project lit up again.

They all stopped and looked.

"Hey.. Shouyo."

They all gasped.. it was Akiko.

"How are you? I know, that's probably a stupid question right? I'm honestly surprised you found this haha, I mean you've never really been into technology.." the male rubbed the back of his neck.

"Look, Shouyo.. I just want to let you know, this isn't your fault." He looked directly into the camera "Sure, the words you said hurt. But, I've forgiven you. You could say something like that 100x over and I'd still forgive you, so please don't blame yourself."

"I've.. been feeling like this for a long, long time. I'm sorry I never told you. I know we always talked about our depression together, how we both hid it fucking well behind those smiles huh?" The male laughed a bit "You were always better at it then me though.. hell, half the time you had me fooled! That's smile is just so damn bright.."

"What's going on?" Asahi asked confused

"It's his suicide letter." Iwaizumi gulped

"Hey, I want to let you know I've kept our promise! I haven't cut in almost 3 months!" The male on the projector smiled widely "For you it's been almost six, yeah? I'm proud of you.. you've always been stronger than me.." he chuckled softly

"Wait.. does that mean..?" Suga asked eyes wide

"Anyway.. do you.. remember that song we always sing? 'I Wouldn't Mind' by He is we? Here.. I'll play our favorite part.." he got up and went off camera to grab his guitar.

He started to sing, his voice smooth, dripping sweet like honey.. it was deeper.. soft.. beautiful..

"I'm not afraid..
Anymore..
I'm not afraid..
Forever is a long time,
But I,
Wouldn't mind spending it,
By your side!
Tell me everyday,
That I get to wake up to that,
Smile..
I wouldn't mind it,
At all,
I wouldn't mind it,
At aalll..."

He ended it with a smile, but it faded quickly..

"The truth is.." a tear fell "I am afraid.. I've always, been afraid.. I told you I couldn't live without you.. but I think.. you'd be fine without me.. thank you for, being my forever." He smiled sweetly at the camera "I'm, so sorry.. I can't be your forever.. I don't expect you to forgive me.. honestly that's alright, I don't deserve it.." another tear fell.

"Shouyo, I really am sorry. Knowing you, you'll go back to how you were when we were kids.. quiet. You'll probably reply with short words, or nods. That's alright, as long as you keep playing volleyball." He smiled

"You know.. when I first found you.. under that tree at just 5.. God you looked terrible.." he chuckled "I'd never seen another kid with such a bad black eye.." he looked off into the distance "I remember asking you if you speak.. the words you spoke will always ring in my head 'When I speak, my dad hits me' I couldn't believe it.." he sighed

Everyone in that room gasped.

"I'm so glad, I could save you from all that. I'm glad you moved in with me. I'm glad mom thinks of you, as another son. I'm so happy, I got to know you. I'm so happy that I got to see you come this far.. and I'm so sorry, I can't go on any farther.." he sighed

"This, will be my last hello to you..
This, will be my last 'I love you'
This, will be my final goodbye.

So Shouyo Hinata, Hello my love.
I love you, I promise.
And Shouyo, be strong.
Goodbye."

The video cut off.

The whole room was speechless.

They just watched someone's suicide letter.

A suicide letter, made for Hinata.

It made the situation even more real.

Sure, they all could feel the pain Hinata held, but now watching this video.. No one spoke. No one could cry. No one could move.

"Is this.. how Hinata felt? Like.. it wasn't real?" Tanaka gulped

"I.." Kageyama started, but chocked on his words.

"Where is he, anyway?" Akaashi asked

They all realized, they had seen the video.. but Hinata hadn't even seen it yet..