when you let it go

Prologue

I love this verb resist, Resist what traps us in prejudices and judgments resist the desire to judge and that bad monster on us and we only ask to be expressed, the desire to die and to give up, the need to speak and shout. Resist to survive , resist and smile . I think that is why I am still alive after all , after love but how long can I survive ?

Dad told me that the gravitation can not be held responsible for the fact that people fall in love, love is everywhere, between humans, animals and universe, you can notice that in the sunrise when the colors combine to build a magnificent painting in the sky but he doesn't know that the night comes and the darkness invades the sky and the beautiful colors become a sweat memory from my past.We all know that we are in love differently some of u feel that strong connection , others smile for no reason but the best way is always to leave cause we only know love when we let it go and I let it go ...

we all search for that perfect true love like in movies but is it actually love ? what if it is faster than what we expect ? you see him , you smell his perfume and u feel his touches and then he disappears like that sweat wind who plays slowly and carefully a bright melody with the leaf of your tree but it all ends when the autumn comes and those paper falls and let your tree naked without any protection in the coldest days of winter , but after all i still alive cause as long as I know how to love , i know how to survive ,I exist but I m too wounded, too tired to live , I'm like this wilted flower in that beautiful and joyful garden , she knows that she doesn't belong there but where else can she goes? She is too weak to leave ...

Shakespeare said: "If love be rough with you, be rough with love. Prick love for pricking and you beat love down." but he never said how can we prick it , actually can we beat him down ? can we heal this deep hurt by beating down the most beautiful and peaceful feeling in the entire universe: love , we don't need to win in love we just need to survive because in love everything is precious even the long nights of suffering and the tears which destroy youth , beauty and happiness.

We are all seeking happiness as the perfect image of our future , as if it is the best state we can reach but as hard as we work for it the only thing that make us feel better and proud is actually this work, this determination and this "sad life" so what is happiness for ? 
Author's note:
My story won't have a happy end neither a sad one because it is not about the end it is about the entire story .
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