My Distraction {Completed}

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1 week later

Colby's pov

I can't take it I can't fucking take it anymore I haven't ate haven't left my room how do I have tears left i haven't stopped crying. The same routine every day wake up if ever get sleep and start crying remembering that Sam isn't there remembering I can't cuddle him remembering i can't hear his giggles his voice how he just isn't hear so I curl in a ball keeping the hoodie I haven't changed since I found it close to me then hearing the knocks on the door the pleads to come out i want them to worry about Sam does he even care I'm gone is he doing what I'm doing if so he needs to stop I should to but I can't do anything without him here.

Sam's pov

I've been in bed I feel alone I only get up to keep eating and to take stormy out but I don't go to the park I take him to a patch of grass out front then come back and play with him then I let all the tears flow out after and crawl back in bed still wanting Colby I want him to do this with me play with Stormy cuddle me I just wanna see him and hear his voice. I'm in bed now and I hear a knock on the door "Sam!?" I sigh and get up and go to the door and wipe my eyes unlocking the door and opening it to reveal Devyn and Tara they gasp at my appearance my messy and greasy hair dark circles red puffy eyes "oh Sammy" Tara says and they both hug me "w-what are you guys doing here" they pull away "to get you out of your apartment it's not healthy to stay cooped up in here with out leaving" devyn explained "I do leave I take stormy out everyday so I get fresh air" they sigh "ok well let's get you in the shower and different clothes" "no thanks" "no Sam get in the shower this isn't healthy" I sigh and walk in my room and grab clothes shirts and Colby's hoodie and I get in the shower and let the warm water soak my skin but I start crying wanting to be in little space so I can take a bath and have Colby help me.

I get out and I go to my room and lay in the bed not caring if Devyn and Tara are here then they come in "Sam get up" Devyn says "n-no" I sniffle "Sam" she trails off "fine we won't leave but let's get out of the room and into the living room and watch movies together" "fine" they smile and I get up and we go to the living room "hey Sam" I look over "how long was it since you been in little space" "two days" "wanna slip into it" "sure" I only agreed since being in little space is somewhat relaxing to me I slip and giggle slightly "yay!" I smile but it's fake Devyn grabs the remote and turns on Disney plus and what she chooses almost makes me want to start crying but I don't so I seem happy to them then the goofy movie starts. Once they leave I run to my room and start sobbing it feels wrong to be doing this with out Colby but as long as it makes the others happy I'll do it. And so I did it for the next couple days but it's getting hard I cant keep acting I get an urge to go to Colby I feel something bad might happy but there can't be much so I resist the urge but I might break soon

1 week later (tw)

Colby's pov

Two weeks two fucking weeks I can't do this it's getting hard I need to do it I needed to for so long but I resisted, for Sam if course, but I can't do it I throw my legs over the bed and I get up and I walk out of my room and make my way to the bathroom. I push the door open and as I do I spot a rubber duck and smile sadly and cry as a memory comes in

Flashback

Me and Sam are in my room and Sam's crying "baby I'm sorry that I had to do that it's not right to lie" he nods "otay I s-sowwy I switched the timer" I kiss his forehead and he giggles